The Reign of Evil
10/10/12 - present
Day 1 - 100 - Constant battles to remain nic free. Engage in all areas of KTC. Believe, with full faith, that KTC will work. Stick with the plan: Post roll everyday, honor my word, repeat tomorrow.
Days 100-200 - Start to get comfortable being dip free. Start to learn that NAFAR is not just a catchy thing to toss at someone in a funk, but that it is true. Dip serves no positive purpose. I was honored to be asked to co-conduct the HOF Train with OneImpressiveBall. That act alone increased my accountability exponentially. Thanks Boelker and LCWB for providing that extra level of accountability. All during this time I still thought about dip constantly, every hour of every day. Quitting still was difficult.
Days 200-300 - Quitter meets…many! If anyone reading has the opportunity to meet a quitter in person do it. Kdip came to town for some ghey convention and tossed the idea of being a mod. Me? I’m in my 200s! You need at least a comma to be worthy of that. He said my name was mentioned and asked me if I would even accept if I was asked. The only question I asked him was “has being a MOD increased your accountability?” Without hesitation he said absolutely. So, when the Admins asked I had no choice but to accept.
Days 300-363 - More quitter meets. More accountability. At this point I had an epiphany: I still think about dip constantly, several times an hour, but the urge to act on those thoughts is gone. This is perfect! Thinking about it keeps me reminded that IÂ’m an addict, but no urge to act on it keeps me quit. I am feeling better health wise. More confident, like IÂ’m dragging a redwood between my legs. Start a one-man crusade at work and take over the company. Stress is at an all-time high. Still quit.
Day 364 - Traveling for work. Alone in a hotel. HOF coin, 200 day chip, and Smokey Mountain at my side.
Day 365 - Meeting Sportsfan (for the second time) to celebrate, and just because I’m in his neighborhood, and he is a rock star; the Mick Jaggar of quit. I have remained nicotine free for one year straight. Here is what I’ve learned: I’m still an addict and that will never change. That’s ok too! Why? Because of KTC and the people that make this “online community” a family. Whether you are over 3,000 days quit, just posted for your first time, or are getting you balls kicked for caving for the third time, everyone here is vital to the overall success of everyone else. Failure, caving, is a choice that one has to consciously make. One cannot fail today if they give their word and honor it today. For me the choice is clear.
Thank you everyone.