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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #42 on: March 09, 2013, 03:19:00 PM »
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There may have been threads about this in the past but I wanted to have a discussion about triggers because this seems to be one of the keys. IÂ’m not sure if avoiding triggers is necessarily the answer more than it is identifying your triggers and learning how to overcome them. I think it would help a great deal if people could share their experiences and how they overcame their particular triggers.
I posted this back on June 17



QUOTE (CleanFuel @ Jun 17, 2012, 10:47 pm)
Here are my TRIGGERS WON...and TRIGGERS LEFT TO CONQUER....

Wake up Dip...DONE
After sex Dip...DONE
After breakfast Dip...DONE
After lunch Dip...DONE
Stress Dip...DONE
Flight Dip...DONE
Long flight Dip...DONE
Drive to Airport Dip...DONE
Check in to hotel Dip...DONE
After dinner Dip...DONE
Drunk dip...DONE
Video Gaming Dip...DONE
After workout Dip...DONE

I have two more to face

Movie Dip
Long Drive Dip

any other triggers I am missing??

Shower dip, hunting/fishing/outdoor dip, summer dip, game day dip
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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #41 on: March 09, 2013, 03:10:00 PM »
Triggers are different for everybody. What helped me cope with some of these triggers was picking up an exercise regime. Specifically, p90x. My body and brain were focused on exercising and what I was eating. In other words, this is how I distracted myself for 90 days. I am now in the middle of an insanity cycle.
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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #40 on: March 09, 2013, 11:57:00 AM »
Quote from: Screw_the_Chew
There may have been threads about this in the past but I wanted to have a discussion about triggers because this seems to be one of the keys. IÂ’m not sure if avoiding triggers is necessarily the answer more than it is identifying your triggers and learning how to overcome them. I think it would help a great deal if people could share their experiences and how they overcame their particular triggers.
I was thinking about this last week and continue to struggle getting my arms around triggers and caves. After dipping for over 20 years and only having 2+ months quit, my brain is still wired funny.

Here was my post: index.php?showtopic=7629

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #39 on: March 09, 2013, 11:56:00 AM »
Any and every excuse your addict brain can come up with (good, bad or indifferent) as an 'reason to dip' is a trigger.


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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #38 on: March 09, 2013, 11:26:00 AM »
There may have been threads about this in the past but I wanted to have a discussion about triggers because this seems to be one of the keys. IÂ’m not sure if avoiding triggers is necessarily the answer more than it is identifying your triggers and learning how to overcome them. I think it would help a great deal if people could share their experiences and how they overcame their particular triggers.

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #37 on: March 08, 2013, 09:42:00 PM »
Quote from: iquitchewing
Quote from: Souliman
Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: cr4
Quote from: Diesel2112
I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.   You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 
Diesel, this post really hit home with me. You're exactly right, most times it sucked. And for a ninja dipper, it was like a second job but more stressful. Thank you for this. I might quote it in some way in my sig line if you don't mind.
Have at it bro! There's no intellectual property rights associated to it. I'm not intellectual, I'm a dumb ass!!! LOL

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Yep. Summed up nicely. When addiction becomes a full time unpleasurable job you know it is time. Time for freedom.
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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #36 on: March 08, 2013, 07:51:00 PM »
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Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: cr4
Quote from: Diesel2112
I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.   You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 
Diesel, this post really hit home with me. You're exactly right, most times it sucked. And for a ninja dipper, it was like a second job but more stressful. Thank you for this. I might quote it in some way in my sig line if you don't mind.
Have at it bro! There's no intellectual property rights associated to it. I'm not intellectual, I'm a dumb ass!!! LOL

Stay Quit!!!
Yep. Summed up nicely. When addiction becomes a full time unpleasurable job you know it is time. Time for freedom.
Fucking eh yes! Freedom is like your soul going commando.
Says it like it is. Thanks for making my quit stronger today. iquitchewing 72 days

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #35 on: March 08, 2013, 03:54:00 PM »
Quote from: Scowick65
Quote from: Diesel2112
Quote from: cr4
Quote from: Diesel2112
I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.   You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 
Diesel, this post really hit home with me. You're exactly right, most times it sucked. And for a ninja dipper, it was like a second job but more stressful. Thank you for this. I might quote it in some way in my sig line if you don't mind.
Have at it bro! There's no intellectual property rights associated to it. I'm not intellectual, I'm a dumb ass!!! LOL

Stay Quit!!!
Yep. Summed up nicely. When addiction becomes a full time unpleasurable job you know it is time. Time for freedom.
Fucking eh yes! Freedom is like your soul going commando.

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #34 on: March 08, 2013, 03:45:00 PM »
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Quote from: cr4
Quote from: Diesel2112
I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.   You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 
Diesel, this post really hit home with me. You're exactly right, most times it sucked. And for a ninja dipper, it was like a second job but more stressful. Thank you for this. I might quote it in some way in my sig line if you don't mind.
Have at it bro! There's no intellectual property rights associated to it. I'm not intellectual, I'm a dumb ass!!! LOL

Stay Quit!!!
Yep. Summed up nicely. When addiction becomes a full time unpleasurable job you know it is time. Time for freedom.

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #33 on: March 08, 2013, 11:08:00 AM »
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I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.  You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 
Diesel, this post really hit home with me. You're exactly right, most times it sucked. And for a ninja dipper, it was like a second job but more stressful. Thank you for this. I might quote it in some way in my sig line if you don't mind.
Have at it bro! There's no intellectual property rights associated to it. I'm not intellectual, I'm a dumb ass!!! LOL

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #32 on: March 08, 2013, 11:03:00 AM »
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I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak. My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess. Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap. Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence. In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable. You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind. Dip fills no voids in your life. It creates them.
Diesel, this post really hit home with me. You're exactly right, most times it sucked. And for a ninja dipper, it was like a second job but more stressful. Thank you for this. I might quote it in some way in my sig line if you don't mind.
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"You are not giving up anything pleasurable. You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind. Dip fills no voids in your life. It creates them." --Diesel2112

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #31 on: March 08, 2013, 07:13:00 AM »
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Quote from: Screw_the_Chew
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You're doing right.  I'm not a Dick, i swear.  I just want you to keep with it and feel the freedom I now feel

I went through two cans of kodiak a day.  The day I quit the phone wrang at work and my heart started to beat through my chest.  Even though I had answered that bitch a million times...I was scared shitless.  Went on a few weeks like that.  Over time it got easier.  I remember at about the 3 week mark I got thrown into a conference call with a PISSED OFF customer, my national sales manager,  and the CEO of the company I Rep for.  Had no idea the call was coming.  Literally thrown into the fire.  I started wheeling and dealing like a champ.   I had all the answers, solutions and was witty at the same time.  When the call ended all parties were happy and satisfied.

BOOM.  After that call I never feared the phone again.  It was dumb I did to begin with.  But...that's addiction.  It can make you think dumb shit.

Today I drove for 6 hrs,  came home to an empty house,  ate a huge dinner,  drove 45 minutes to play basketball and 45 more minutes home...dip was a non factor.  The thought of it makes me sick to be honest.   I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.   You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 

Stay quit my friend.
Sometimes I say some fucked up things here but that's me just expressing how I feel at the moment. I have many moments when I feel lost without my tobacco; like I can't do anything or even think without it......but you've been there and eventually you got over your fear and self-confidence issues and pulled through like a champ. That's exactly what I have to do.....get over the fear and realize it REALLY was me doing it NOT the damn tobacco somehow guiding me. Easier said than done of course so expect to see some nonsense posts until I finally get over it......and in return please continue to knock the bullshit out of me.

I honestly appreciate the support from you and everyone else on here. I'm telling everyone about this site and how we can have a no hold barred discussions to support one another. We're not afraid to offend and/or beat the shit out of each other if need be in order to break the addiction......that's what it takes!

I'll keep it up and you guys keep it up.....
Absolutely. Anytime you feel rage, feel beat down, have a question, or even if you feel great and want to pop your collar about it...come here. We will support you.

Sometimes I think I try and be too hard, but I really do want to see you quit. Mainly because I went from feeling like I had zero shot of quitting and ever rising up from the emotional dumpster to feeling freedom beyond beliefe. I cannot believe how great I feel now.

I'm not trying to toot my own horn, their are quitters 1000 times more bad ass than me on this site. I just want you to feel the same freedom, its beyond words. I do not wish nic addiction on my worst enemy.

You got this shiznit, bro. We are here for you anytime. Use us.
Your doing right and just keep doing. Diesel is great help, but it will come down to you. I know the emotions and I am there now as well which has kept me from posting much. The last week has been like sleep walking, like I will never wake up. I am working through it and you are to. Nice work and let folks know if you need help.

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #30 on: March 08, 2013, 06:47:00 AM »
Quote from: Screw_the_Chew
Quote from: Diesel2112
You're doing right.  I'm not a Dick, i swear.  I just want you to keep with it and feel the freedom I now feel

I went through two cans of kodiak a day.  The day I quit the phone wrang at work and my heart started to beat through my chest.  Even though I had answered that bitch a million times...I was scared shitless.  Went on a few weeks like that.  Over time it got easier.  I remember at about the 3 week mark I got thrown into a conference call with a PISSED OFF customer, my national sales manager,  and the CEO of the company I Rep for.  Had no idea the call was coming.  Literally thrown into the fire.  I started wheeling and dealing like a champ.   I had all the answers, solutions and was witty at the same time.  When the call ended all parties were happy and satisfied.

BOOM.  After that call I never feared the phone again.  It was dumb I did to begin with.  But...that's addiction.  It can make you think dumb shit.

Today I drove for 6 hrs,  came home to an empty house,  ate a huge dinner,  drove 45 minutes to play basketball and 45 more minutes home...dip was a non factor.  The thought of it makes me sick to be honest.   I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak.  My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess.  Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap.  Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence.  In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable.   You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind.  Dip fills no voids in your life.  It creates them. 

Stay quit my friend.
Sometimes I say some fucked up things here but that's me just expressing how I feel at the moment. I have many moments when I feel lost without my tobacco; like I can't do anything or even think without it......but you've been there and eventually you got over your fear and self-confidence issues and pulled through like a champ. That's exactly what I have to do.....get over the fear and realize it REALLY was me doing it NOT the damn tobacco somehow guiding me. Easier said than done of course so expect to see some nonsense posts until I finally get over it......and in return please continue to knock the bullshit out of me.

I honestly appreciate the support from you and everyone else on here. I'm telling everyone about this site and how we can have a no hold barred discussions to support one another. We're not afraid to offend and/or beat the shit out of each other if need be in order to break the addiction......that's what it takes!

I'll keep it up and you guys keep it up.....
Absolutely. Anytime you feel rage, feel beat down, have a question, or even if you feel great and want to pop your collar about it...come here. We will support you.

Sometimes I think I try and be too hard, but I really do want to see you quit. Mainly because I went from feeling like I had zero shot of quitting and ever rising up from the emotional dumpster to feeling freedom beyond beliefe. I cannot believe how great I feel now.

I'm not trying to toot my own horn, their are quitters 1000 times more bad ass than me on this site. I just want you to feel the same freedom, its beyond words. I do not wish nic addiction on my worst enemy.

You got this shiznit, bro. We are here for you anytime. Use us.
Quit 06/04/12
HOF 9/11/12
2nd floor 12/20/12
3rd floor 03/30/13
4th floor 07/08/13
5th floor 10/16/13
6th floor 01/24/14
7th floor 05/04/14
8th floor 08/12/14
9th floor 10/20/14
Comma 02/28/15
11th floor 06/08/15
12th floor 09/16/15
13th floor 12/25/15
14th floor 04/03/16
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16th floor 10/20/16
17th floor 01/27/17
18th floor 05/08/17
19th floor 08/14/17
20th floor 11/27/17
21st floor 03/11/18

"Celebrate the moment as it turns into one more"..
"You can fight without ever winning, but never ever win, win without a fight".
"Onion rings...funyons. A connection? Yeah. I fucking think so."
"Honest Abe had a fake jaw".
"In a world that seems so small, I can't stop thinking big"
"Someone set a bad example. Made surrender seem all right
The act of a noble warrior. Who lost the will to fight."

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #29 on: March 08, 2013, 03:00:00 AM »
Quote from: Diesel2112
You're doing right. I'm not a Dick, i swear. I just want you to keep with it and feel the freedom I now feel

I went through two cans of kodiak a day. The day I quit the phone wrang at work and my heart started to beat through my chest. Even though I had answered that bitch a million times...I was scared shitless. Went on a few weeks like that. Over time it got easier. I remember at about the 3 week mark I got thrown into a conference call with a PISSED OFF customer, my national sales manager, and the CEO of the company I Rep for. Had no idea the call was coming. Literally thrown into the fire. I started wheeling and dealing like a champ. I had all the answers, solutions and was witty at the same time. When the call ended all parties were happy and satisfied.

BOOM. After that call I never feared the phone again. It was dumb I did to begin with. But...that's addiction. It can make you think dumb shit.

Today I drove for 6 hrs, came home to an empty house, ate a huge dinner, drove 45 minutes to play basketball and 45 more minutes home...dip was a non factor. The thought of it makes me sick to be honest. I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak. My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess. Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap. Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence. In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable. You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind. Dip fills no voids in your life. It creates them.

Stay quit my friend.
Sometimes I say some fucked up things here but that's me just expressing how I feel at the moment. I have many moments when I feel lost without my tobacco; like I can't do anything or even think without it......but you've been there and eventually you got over your fear and self-confidence issues and pulled through like a champ. That's exactly what I have to do.....get over the fear and realize it REALLY was me doing it NOT the damn tobacco somehow guiding me. Easier said than done of course so expect to see some nonsense posts until I finally get over it......and in return please continue to knock the bullshit out of me.

I honestly appreciate the support from you and everyone else on here. I'm telling everyone about this site and how we can have a no hold barred discussions to support one another. We're not afraid to offend and/or beat the shit out of each other if need be in order to break the addiction......that's what it takes!

I'll keep it up and you guys keep it up.....

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Re: Lost My Best Friend
« Reply #28 on: March 07, 2013, 01:14:00 AM »
You're doing right. I'm not a Dick, i swear. I just want you to keep with it and feel the freedom I now feel

I went through two cans of kodiak a day. The day I quit the phone wrang at work and my heart started to beat through my chest. Even though I had answered that bitch a million times...I was scared shitless. Went on a few weeks like that. Over time it got easier. I remember at about the 3 week mark I got thrown into a conference call with a PISSED OFF customer, my national sales manager, and the CEO of the company I Rep for. Had no idea the call was coming. Literally thrown into the fire. I started wheeling and dealing like a champ. I had all the answers, solutions and was witty at the same time. When the call ended all parties were happy and satisfied.

BOOM. After that call I never feared the phone again. It was dumb I did to begin with. But...that's addiction. It can make you think dumb shit.

Today I drove for 6 hrs, came home to an empty house, ate a huge dinner, drove 45 minutes to play basketball and 45 more minutes home...dip was a non factor. The thought of it makes me sick to be honest. I can remember driving home from hoops with my lip full of kodiak. My jaw hurt, my tongue was numb, I got no buzz, my spitter was skanky...it was all just a mess. Those are the times I dwell on when I THINK I miss that crap. Not every dip was some euphoric, stress releasing expierence. In fact most times it sucked when I really think about it.

You are not giving up anything pleasurable. You are freeing yourself from one of the most disgusting addictions known to mankind. Dip fills no voids in your life. It creates them.

Stay quit my friend.
Quit 06/04/12
HOF 9/11/12
2nd floor 12/20/12
3rd floor 03/30/13
4th floor 07/08/13
5th floor 10/16/13
6th floor 01/24/14
7th floor 05/04/14
8th floor 08/12/14
9th floor 10/20/14
Comma 02/28/15
11th floor 06/08/15
12th floor 09/16/15
13th floor 12/25/15
14th floor 04/03/16
15th floor 7/11/16
16th floor 10/20/16
17th floor 01/27/17
18th floor 05/08/17
19th floor 08/14/17
20th floor 11/27/17
21st floor 03/11/18

"Celebrate the moment as it turns into one more"..
"You can fight without ever winning, but never ever win, win without a fight".
"Onion rings...funyons. A connection? Yeah. I fucking think so."
"Honest Abe had a fake jaw".
"In a world that seems so small, I can't stop thinking big"
"Someone set a bad example. Made surrender seem all right
The act of a noble warrior. Who lost the will to fight."