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Offline Steve624

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Re: This is it - I'm ready
« Reply #7 on: August 30, 2018, 11:38:00 AM »
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Hello Ladies and Gentleman,

I never really introduced myself; I don't know if this is something were supposed to do but I wanted you all to know a bit more about me and where I'm coming from. I was surprised with how important the accountability to this group became to me so quickly, and blowing off a group of people barley know would be easy, but disappointing a group of people who know me that make it harder.

I just sent as similar message to a fellow quitter, "I have been able to stop before, the hatred for what this shit does to my body and the time/money it takes from me have gotten me to this point (day-5) before. I believe that my personal battle is only just about to start"

I'm 30 now and I dipped for 13 years, it started out as a social thing with my football buddies but over the years it turned into something I do in isolation. I have known for years now that it is a gross habit, however the chemical addiction already set in.

I replaced dipping with smoking for a few years as that was more socially acceptable in public, however smoking takes a more imitate tole on your body and it was easy to see the damage smoking was doing to me (everything smelled, it was hard to breath, and a pack of smokes was $10 - also my family wouldn't put up with it), so I stopped smoking, but my body wasn't able to give up nicotine and I fell back into my old habits of dip.

I've lied to my family and friends about my dipping for at lease the last 5 years, they all though I had quit but I really just got better at hiding it. (if you have done so already read the 100 reason to stop dipping - a lot of those really hit home with me). I would always dip when I drove, I used to have an hour commute so two hours of dipping was enough to get me though the day. when I got a new job my commute dropped to 20 mins, and it turned out that wasn't enough time with the shit in my mouth, so I stared dipping when I went to bathroom at work. This new habit made things worse, as I slowly started dipping at my desk. I got to the point where I had a lip in more often than not at work. and again I just got better at hiding it and came up with ways to make it easier for me to do. at the end of my dipping I was up to two tins of citrus pouches a day.

I recently had my first child and knew it was time to quit - well that was in April and I was trying to quit the same way I did when I failed all the other times. I was trying and I knew I wanted to quit, but I would only make up excuse and slightly change my habits to i felt like i was on the right track.

Until one day my brother looked at me with this sad look and say "you really need to quit that shit" and I told him I was trying and response was "you've been trying for years man, I hope it works this time"

On July 1st I knew i was done with tobacco, but again i only repealed with it nicotine pooches. that was a good first step, but what happens when the thing I have to order online are around, and my only choice was to not use nicotine or pick up one more tin until they arrive.

On July 12, 2018 I logged on and crated this account, read the rules and decided i would keep using this new nicotine product until was able to put it down for good, then I would join a HOF group. well that was just setting myself up for frailer, and when i joined the live group chat a few KTC brothers gave me a push to put it all down.

My name is Steve, and I'm not going to use nicotine today.

I'm going to plan for my triggers, and I'm going to stay quit.

and I'm going to be here to help all of you also stay quit.
Today I was able to Post Day 7 today.

On July 16 when I posted my intro I knew I had only begun my battel with this addiction, and I wasn't able to see the forest through the trees. I knew I was weak but I was feeling good that I had not bough a new tin in a few days, well I didn't plan for the tins I had hidden around my house and I didn't keep my promise.

With a swift kick in the ass from some of the vets and the other quitters in October 2018, I was set straight. It sucks that I had to post day 1 twice, and that's something ill never be able to undue but I can learn from it.

In the last week I have doubled down my efforts and gotten involved as much as possible, now that I'm interacting with people I can imagen not keeping my daily promises. with a new understanding of what KTC is and what it offers, I feel good about this being my quit and not me just stopping.
Yesterday was my brothers birthday, he is two years younger than me. Now that we are both adults I know the best thing I had ever done for him was not introducing him to dip. He never liked that I did it but wouldn't really give me a hard time, he would call it gorse and not let me dip in his car but besides that he would just tell me that its bad.

More recently as we were playing golf over July 4th weekend I put a lip in and he said "your still doing that", I said yeah but I'm going to quit soon I know its no good, and it was his response that really hit home "yeah you have been saying that for years".

I knew I needed to quit but I wasn't doing anything about it until his comment, and I felt the sham of having lied to my brother for years.

Now on Day 44 of my quite, I'm more grateful than ever to have a brother who supports me.

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Re: This is it - I'm ready
« Reply #6 on: July 24, 2018, 11:36:00 AM »
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Hello Ladies and Gentleman,

I never really introduced myself; I don't know if this is something were supposed to do but I wanted you all to know a bit more about me and where I'm coming from. I was surprised with how important the accountability to this group became to me so quickly, and blowing off a group of people barley know would be easy, but disappointing a group of people who know me that make it harder.

I just sent as similar message to a fellow quitter, "I have been able to stop before, the hatred for what this shit does to my body and the time/money it takes from me have gotten me to this point (day-5) before. I believe that my personal battle is only just about to start"

I'm 30 now and I dipped for 13 years, it started out as a social thing with my football buddies but over the years it turned into something I do in isolation. I have known for years now that it is a gross habit, however the chemical addiction already set in.

I replaced dipping with smoking for a few years as that was more socially acceptable in public, however smoking takes a more imitate tole on your body and it was easy to see the damage smoking was doing to me (everything smelled, it was hard to breath, and a pack of smokes was $10 - also my family wouldn't put up with it), so I stopped smoking, but my body wasn't able to give up nicotine and I fell back into my old habits of dip.

I've lied to my family and friends about my dipping for at lease the last 5 years, they all though I had quit but I really just got better at hiding it. (if you have done so already read the 100 reason to stop dipping - a lot of those really hit home with me). I would always dip when I drove, I used to have an hour commute so two hours of dipping was enough to get me though the day. when I got a new job my commute dropped to 20 mins, and it turned out that wasn't enough time with the shit in my mouth, so I stared dipping when I went to bathroom at work. This new habit made things worse, as I slowly started dipping at my desk. I got to the point where I had a lip in more often than not at work. and again I just got better at hiding it and came up with ways to make it easier for me to do. at the end of my dipping I was up to two tins of citrus pouches a day.

I recently had my first child and knew it was time to quit - well that was in April and I was trying to quit the same way I did when I failed all the other times. I was trying and I knew I wanted to quit, but I would only make up excuse and slightly change my habits to i felt like i was on the right track.

Until one day my brother looked at me with this sad look and say "you really need to quit that shit" and I told him I was trying and response was "you've been trying for years man, I hope it works this time"

On July 1st I knew i was done with tobacco, but again i only repealed with it nicotine pooches. that was a good first step, but what happens when the thing I have to order online are around, and my only choice was to not use nicotine or pick up one more tin until they arrive.

On July 12, 2018 I logged on and crated this account, read the rules and decided i would keep using this new nicotine product until was able to put it down for good, then I would join a HOF group. well that was just setting myself up for frailer, and when i joined the live group chat a few KTC brothers gave me a push to put it all down.

My name is Steve, and I'm not going to use nicotine today.

I'm going to plan for my triggers, and I'm going to stay quit.

and I'm going to be here to help all of you also stay quit.
Today I was able to Post Day 7 today.

On July 16 when I posted my intro I knew I had only begun my battel with this addiction, and I wasn't able to see the forest through the trees. I knew I was weak but I was feeling good that I had not bough a new tin in a few days, well I didn't plan for the tins I had hidden around my house and I didn't keep my promise.

With a swift kick in the ass from some of the vets and the other quitters in October 2018, I was set straight. It sucks that I had to post day 1 twice, and that's something ill never be able to undue but I can learn from it.

In the last week I have doubled down my efforts and gotten involved as much as possible, now that I'm interacting with people I can imagen not keeping my daily promises. with a new understanding of what KTC is and what it offers, I feel good about this being my quit and not me just stopping.

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Re: This is it - I'm ready
« Reply #5 on: July 16, 2018, 09:53:00 PM »
That was a great intro, glad to be in your group. Pm me if you need/want a number

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Re: This is it - I'm ready
« Reply #4 on: July 16, 2018, 05:22:00 PM »
Your intro strikes very close to home. Well said. Great part about KTC is that you aren't trying to quit alone this time. So many Vets have done this and have that similar story. Get engaged, connect with people in the group and post that roll early every morning.

On Day 19 of the quit now and here quitting with you today. If you need digits for support or want to get on a group text with other people in our October group, shoot me a PM.
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Re: This is it - I'm ready
« Reply #3 on: July 16, 2018, 03:19:00 PM »
Awesome intro. Fuck I wish I could write this well.
Glad to be quit with you!

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Re: This is it - I'm ready
« Reply #2 on: July 16, 2018, 02:08:00 PM »
Great fucking intro bro, glad to have you here.
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This is it - I'm ready
« on: July 16, 2018, 11:21:00 AM »
Hello Ladies and Gentleman,

I never really introduced myself; I don't know if this is something were supposed to do but I wanted you all to know a bit more about me and where I'm coming from. I was surprised with how important the accountability to this group became to me so quickly, and blowing off a group of people barley know would be easy, but disappointing a group of people who know me that make it harder.

I just sent as similar message to a fellow quitter, "I have been able to stop before, the hatred for what this shit does to my body and the time/money it takes from me have gotten me to this point (day-5) before. I believe that my personal battle is only just about to start"

I'm 30 now and I dipped for 13 years, it started out as a social thing with my football buddies but over the years it turned into something I do in isolation. I have known for years now that it is a gross habit, however the chemical addiction already set in.

I replaced dipping with smoking for a few years as that was more socially acceptable in public, however smoking takes a more imitate tole on your body and it was easy to see the damage smoking was doing to me (everything smelled, it was hard to breath, and a pack of smokes was $10 - also my family wouldn't put up with it), so I stopped smoking, but my body wasn't able to give up nicotine and I fell back into my old habits of dip.

I've lied to my family and friends about my dipping for at lease the last 5 years, they all though I had quit but I really just got better at hiding it. (if you have done so already read the 100 reason to stop dipping - a lot of those really hit home with me). I would always dip when I drove, I used to have an hour commute so two hours of dipping was enough to get me though the day. when I got a new job my commute dropped to 20 mins, and it turned out that wasn't enough time with the shit in my mouth, so I stared dipping when I went to bathroom at work. This new habit made things worse, as I slowly started dipping at my desk. I got to the point where I had a lip in more often than not at work. and again I just got better at hiding it and came up with ways to make it easier for me to do. at the end of my dipping I was up to two tins of citrus pouches a day.

I recently had my first child and knew it was time to quit - well that was in April and I was trying to quit the same way I did when I failed all the other times. I was trying and I knew I wanted to quit, but I would only make up excuse and slightly change my habits to i felt like i was on the right track.

Until one day my brother looked at me with this sad look and say "you really need to quit that shit" and I told him I was trying and response was "you've been trying for years man, I hope it works this time"

On July 1st I knew i was done with tobacco, but again i only repealed with it nicotine pooches. that was a good first step, but what happens when the thing I have to order online are around, and my only choice was to not use nicotine or pick up one more tin until they arrive.

On July 12, 2018 I logged on and crated this account, read the rules and decided i would keep using this new nicotine product until was able to put it down for good, then I would join a HOF group. well that was just setting myself up for frailer, and when i joined the live group chat a few KTC brothers gave me a push to put it all down.

My name is Steve, and I'm not going to use nicotine today.

I'm going to plan for my triggers, and I'm going to stay quit.

and I'm going to be here to help all of you also stay quit.