Day 138
Just got back from Chicago for work and I am pretty pumped. The meetings went awesome so professionally it was a great trip. Tuesday night I got back to my hotel after some drinks and networking. I walked in the room and there she was!!!! Fucking Nic Bitch!!!!! She looked fucking hott too!! 'boob'
You see, I had not faced this trigger yet. Back to the hotel while on the road for work was some huge chew time. Things have been going so well with my quit lately My moods are getting more stable and I have completely kicked the fake stuff out of my day to day routine so I was cruising. 'Sno'
PAY ATTENTION NEWBIES....This is where the lesson lies. 'help'
Even after 138 days of QUIT and no craves at all. I was completely unprepared for facing this. No fake.............OH SHIT............ I did find some gum that was mysteriously in my suit coat but that wasnt helping. The Nic Bitch had me right were she wanted me. I even fucking noticed that they sold chew in the gift shop when I was walking by. This was a fucking set up!! A coup de ta on my quit!! Grassy Knoll, Book Depository and the overhead bridge. They were all there waiting for me to walk into the cross fire!!
I immediately started doing push ups and sit ups like I was during my first week of quitting. I was a fucking mess............ Opened up the laptop and got on the KTC Chat. Thank the lord!!!!! Just like old times. Evil, Cmark, Kdip and the boys were all there and I ranted for like 5 min and then like Hank's Snow......It was all gone!
138-0 Fuck you Nic Bitch!! 'Finger'