Anyways, I only dipped for about 2 and a half years, so this shouldn't be too difficult now that I know what to expect. Also, I don't think I should endure too many long term side effects and I know quitting now also makes the oral cancer risk almost as minimal as if I'd never dipped in my life. Today though, I had this weird thought about buying a pack of cigarettes
This is why you will cave again. This will be really, really, really difficult. It will be as difficult as fuck. Two and a half years? That's plenty, plenty of time for full-on full of denial addiction. That is exactly where you are my friend. The nicotine is speaking through you. It has control of your body like a bad 1970s B movie.
Long term side effects? Are you kidding me? Your next dip will be the dip that leads directly to lots of long term side effects, because unless you change your mindset, your next dip will lead to lots and lots of next dips.
The risk of oral cancer is huge. Why did you think about buying cigarettes? It's not weird, and it's not a mystery. You are an addict. You are a big time, huge nicotine addict. That addiction is getting a sense that you are flirting around with quitting nicotine. That nicotine addiction has one objective - survival at any cost.
Get serious about this shit. Because this shit is serious about you. You are addicted, and the addiction requires your respect.
Get active on this site. Post roll ever damn day. Get your head out of your ass.
I hope like fuck that I didn't just waste my time typing all of this out.