Day 546
The reason I put I'm a slow learner in my title is this. I chewed for 38 years before finally deciding to quit. 38 years. That is probably longer than some of you reading have been alive... I had tons of legitimate reasons to quit during those 38 years, but I just couldn't stop dancing with the bitch. Cope was part of my image and persona, literally part of me.
I had "stopped" only twice before, once accidently when I went to Australia and found they didn't sell the stuff there, the other time I purposely stopped for about 3 weeks during some dentistry issues. Never intended to quit.
Finally, the last year or two of chewing were not enjoyable. My mouth was tore up, and I couldn't put enough crap in there to keep the withdraw symptoms from happening. I started realizing I was exhibiting addict behaviors and became increasingly irritated with myself for being so weak and being a slave. I started to realize my life revolved around securing the next can...
Right about then a pal recommended KTC, and my life changed. I was all in on day 1, I knew I was an addict. I am no longer a slave, I am in charge of my addiction. I own it. It has become my bitch, not the other way around.
Newbies, you have to go all in. I've seen way too many quitters show up here who are special butterflies, half-asses, people who are not committed to their quits. Don't be that person, own your quit. Make it large.