Quitting for good this time

[srans]

Thanks Srans.... I appreciate your reply.... I would also love to hear other's take on this.. I battled sleepless ness during the Suck for sure, but I can't put a finger on why its come back.

Quit on brother.

Dude, I think at this point it is probably life. It might also be our deep seated anxiety about chewing.
Either way, Quit with you all day every day.

Wanted to add a positive. Before quitting i had difficulties initially falling asleep due to rls( restless leg syndrome) . Drove me nuts. Months after quitting i read that nocotine was a cause of this problem. It was then i realized i didn't experience the problem anymore. Users are losers. Quit with you today.

[Doc Chewfree]

Thanks Srans.... I appreciate your reply.... I would also love to hear other's take on this.. I battled sleepless ness during the Suck for sure, but I can't put a finger on why its come back.

Quit on brother.

Dude, I think at this point it is probably life. It might also be our deep seated anxiety about chewing.
Either way, Quit with you all day every day.

[Shorthorn]

Thanks Srans.... I appreciate your reply.... I would also love to hear other's take on this.. I battled sleepless ness during the Suck for sure, but I can't put a finger on why its come back.

Quit on brother.

[srans]

Wow... last two weeks have been brutal... Not so much craving wise, but I can't sleep for crap! Has anyone else had sleep issues again getting close to 200 days (at 174 today)?

I seem to fall asleep fine but have been waking up at 1 or 2 am and can't get back to sleep.... This sucks!

This is something I definitely can relate to shorthorn. Sometimes i can't really put a finger on it, if it's quit related, age, or just part of life in general. I've talked to one other friend that goes through the same thing on this site. I'm the type that just hates to take meds, so I just battle through the periods of sleep deprivation the best I can.

Would love to hear some more quitters hit on this. See if this is something that a lot of quitters experience. I"m on day 515 and I have experienced these periods off and on. Quit with you today.

[Shorthorn]

Wow... last two weeks have been brutal... Not so much craving wise, but I can't sleep for crap! Has anyone else had sleep issues again getting close to 200 days (at 174 today)?

I seem to fall asleep fine but have been waking up at 1 or 2 am and can't get back to sleep.... This sucks!

[wastepanel]

Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..

I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!

This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..

2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.

I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.

Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!

Something about this story sounds familiar...

You're owning this. Keep owning it.

Most returning members est themselves alive with regret. The key is to acknowledge what you've done and let it go. It is but a memory. What you were is not what you are now. We can't do anything about the past, but we sure as hell can move forward.

Good advice WP...

You are correct.. Where I am today is not where I was back then... Although I would add that I am where I am today because of where I was then... It is that failure that increases the strenght I have in my quit today... it is knowing defeat that keeps me winning today.

To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12

Agree. That's the whole point to the three questions. We acknowledge our failure, we acknowledge we're addicts, and we tell ourselves it won't happen again because we will plan to be quit in the future.

But actions speak louder than words my friend. The answers mean nothing if you aren't willing to move forward.

[Shorthorn]

Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..

I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!

This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..

2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.

I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.

Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!

Something about this story sounds familiar...

You're owning this. Keep owning it.

Most returning members est themselves alive with regret. The key is to acknowledge what you've done and let it go. It is but a memory. What you were is not what you are now. We can't do anything about the past, but we sure as hell can move forward.

Good advice WP...

You are correct.. Where I am today is not where I was back then... Although I would add that I am where I am today because of where I was then... It is that failure that increases the strenght I have in my quit today... it is knowing defeat that keeps me winning today.

[wastepanel]

Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..

I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!

This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..

2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.

I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.

Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!

Something about this story sounds familiar...

You're owning this. Keep owning it.

Most returning members est themselves alive with regret. The key is to acknowledge what you've done and let it go. It is but a memory. What you were is not what you are now. We can't do anything about the past, but we sure as hell can move forward.

[Shorthorn]

Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..

I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!

This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..

2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.

I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.

Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!

[Doc Chewfree]

Shorty- been so long since I looked at my own intro, didn't realize you gave me the HOG props yesterday. So wrapped up in the moment, I didn't say congrats to you. HOG is a stunning achievement for us. Lets get after some more milestones.

Congrats (albeit belated) on your HOG! Keep racking up the +1's.

[Lipizzaner]

Shorty- been so long since I looked at my own intro, didn't realize you gave me the HOG props yesterday. So wrapped up in the moment, I didn't say congrats to you. HOG is a stunning achievement for us. Lets get after some more milestones.

[Pinched]

Wow... here I am day 100....

I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...

I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...

I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.

Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!

Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.

The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.

I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.

So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'

Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!

Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!

Good stuff. Keep it up and glad you're sharing your knowledge with friends and family.

Awesome post, Shorthorn! Thanks.
Maybe you can post the old man's name in our roll to make him more accountable. He could be our James Gordon Endowed Fellow.
Quit with you every today.

Great work Shorthorn, collect that prize and enjoy basking in the glory of quit. Just remember to not change a thing for the next 100 days. You have hit the first milestone not the goal.

[Shorthorn]

Thanks Doc, Grizz, RDad!... I appreciate the support.

[Doc Chewfree]

Wow... here I am day 100....

I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...

I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...

I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.

Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!

Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.

The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.

I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.

So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'

Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!

Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!

Good stuff. Keep it up and glad you're sharing your knowledge with friends and family.

Awesome post, Shorthorn! Thanks.
Maybe you can post the old man's name in our roll to make him more accountable. He could be our James Gordon Endowed Fellow.
Quit with you every today.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Wow... here I am day 100....

I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...

I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...

I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.

Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!

Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.

The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.

I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.

So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'

Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!

Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!

Good stuff. Keep it up and glad you're sharing your knowledge with friends and family.