Quitter- Free to a good home

[ryan]

http://www.nicofix.com/nicofix.html

Nicotine hand gel.

What the fuck? Really?

Saw this shit at a gas station today. Tobacco industry is at a new low. New ways, new delivery systems for poison. I'm damn glad we're quit. Nicotine addiction is preposterous.

**New guys- using this hand gel as an anal lubricant is considered a cave. **

[Souliman]

I will not cave:

Today I have earned 580 days quit

I have 31 numbers in my phone

I nearly caved today.  It wasn't pretty.  Not my finest moment and I cannot wait till tomorrow.  I've been struggling how to describe the emotions of today.  I don't want to talk about it much.  Though after the last week I'm questioning many of life's choices.

Integrity is why I quit today.

I cannot go back on the promise made this morning.  I cannot let down the men whose phone numbers are a finger press away, that I promised to call if I was feeling the urge.  The guys in chat would kill me.  I cannot disappoint the big eyed girls at home who call me 'daddy'.  I cannot let myself down.

Roll call.  Tomorrow.  Be there.

Very sorry to hear this.

Hang in there.

The world loves shitting on a quitter.

Hang tough bro. You know that decision you make every morning is you saying who you are. All this crap we're faced with daily about moral choices and questioning what's true and honest in this world, you know the answer you make every morning is the absolute truth. You won't be owned. You control your destiny. You're worth more than a few dollars in some UST exec's pocket. That's the truth. That can't be argued by anyone.

[carumba10]

I will not cave:

Today I have earned 580 days quit

I have 31 numbers in my phone

I nearly caved today. It wasn't pretty. Not my finest moment and I cannot wait till tomorrow. I've been struggling how to describe the emotions of today. I don't want to talk about it much. Though after the last week I'm questioning many of life's choices.

Integrity is why I quit today.

I cannot go back on the promise made this morning. I cannot let down the men whose phone numbers are a finger press away, that I promised to call if I was feeling the urge. The guys in chat would kill me. I cannot disappoint the big eyed girls at home who call me 'daddy'. I cannot let myself down.

Roll call. Tomorrow. Be there.

Very sorry to hear this.

Hang in there.

[ryan]

I will not cave:

Today I have earned 580 days quit

I have 31 numbers in my phone

I nearly caved today. It wasn't pretty. Not my finest moment and I cannot wait till tomorrow. I've been struggling how to describe the emotions of today. I don't want to talk about it much. Though after the last week I'm questioning many of life's choices.

Integrity is why I quit today.

I cannot go back on the promise made this morning. I cannot let down the men whose phone numbers are a finger press away, that I promised to call if I was feeling the urge. The guys in chat would kill me. I cannot disappoint the big eyed girls at home who call me 'daddy'. I cannot let myself down.

Roll call. Tomorrow. Be there.

[ryan]

Day 468

Woah. What a week. Worked some crazy amount of hours this week. Don't even want to total it up, cause I would be depressed. I live an hour on the MO side of St. Louis and have been working about 30 mins on the Il side of the river. I stained  epoxy'd a floor for a hair salon. Good folks, great to work for, made decent money.

But I've had a hard time with staying quit. All week long, I had terrible urges and craves just like I was back in the first 10 days. For fuck sake, shouldn't I be past all that? Can I not go into a c-store for a drink and not stare at the cancer cans behind the counter?

Guess what I'm saying is..... Fuck Illinois. Fuck, fuck fuck fuck Illinois. Fuck you and your shitty roads. Fuck everyone driving there, they don't know how to change lanes or signal properly. Fuck your ugly women who think they look good since the makeup is 3/4" thick and applied with a shotgun. Fuck all the BMW's. There must be more BMW's in Il than any other state. And they all drive like cunts.

Fuck Illinois people who work in stores and restaurants. I'm not looking for a hand job; just want to buy something off the shelf. Yeah, I do want to pay cash. Don't roll your eyes cause you can't do math without the cash register. You're not doing me a favor by pressing the magic buttons; I am helping fund your useless life by participating in commerce at the store that pays you.

That feels better

Now, I do know some wonderful people that live in the cesspool that is Illinois. One quitter (name deleted to show respect in this expetive filled rant) in particular is a fine man and his family and friends are great people. I'm sure there are other quitters from IL, and I'll give them a pass. They must be cool if they hang out here. The people I worked for- good people. The rest of the population needs an attitude adjustment.

But by and large- Illinois is a toilet. Any state that I can't carry a gun into because of your stupid reciprocity laws is gay.

IÂ’ve had a tough week staying quit. But I will. I cannot and will not break that promise I make here each day. I couldnÂ’t stand coming back here a caver. Or not coming here at all if I were a user.

If I failed I would be letting down so many. The other night when having a crave I pulled out my phone to call kbdavear, by the time I found his number the crave passed. Then I noticed how many fucking numbers were in my phone tagged with KTC. I would be letting all these folks down. Not to mention the guys in chat. Would I ever get to call someone ghey again? Not if I caved. That’s my ‘skin in the game’

IÂ’m not letting myself down or anyone else.

See you at roll in the morning

[ryan]

Today's thought upon waking up. I might die at any time due to many different causes. Tobacco will not kill me. I have taken away that option from ust. I will no longer allow a corporation to determine when I will leave this life.

If I could choose, I would like to die on top of someone else's wife. Let her explain it. :D

[ryan]

I'm a part of Jan 2011 quit group. Tittie avatars are what we are known for.

I just went out and found the biggest I could get.

No serial killer, but don't look behind the barn

it puts the lotion on its skin or it gets the hose again

[minuteofangle]

OK, I remember when I first saw your avatar and I thought it a little bizarre. Whats with the bondage? Please tell me that you arent some serial killer with bodies buried under your house or something. But those are some huge 'boob' .

MOA

[ryan]

My new business:

Here will be my new way to make money. First, I find one of these caving dipshits. Follow em around for awhile and learn their habits.

Then I get to know the family. That way when said caver dies early from some horrible tobacco related cancer I slip in. Comfort the bereved widow. Be the shoulder to cry on.

Then I'll move in with her, cash the life insurance policy and enjoy myself.

So before you cave, remember this:

I will move in with your wife and become the stepfather that ignores your kids. Once I cash in on the life insurance I can buy myself whatever boats and cars I want. Keep paying those premiums, I have expensive tastes.

Your wife? I'll be balls deep in her before your corpse goes cold. Putting down pecker tracks all over the bed you bought, in the house you made the payments on. I'll suck every dime out of your kids college funds and go on a nice vacation.

I want to be around for my family. Pending getting hit by a truck or some horrible workplace accident, I will grow old and watch my family grow. I want to see my kids become adults and start families of their own. If I was still on the can, there is a very good chance I wouldn't make it.

[ryan]

I've been wanting to start an intro thread for myself for awhile. A place to call home. A place for me to ramble on with all the bullshit thoughts running around in my head.

This morning I saw that DO5 caved and has been posting roll. This has bothered me all day long. Does another man's cave effect me?

Yes it does. I stopped at a c-store after lunch to get some fuel and something to drink. While at the counter the thought popped into my head. DO5 caved, what makes me different? Why not get a can? Just one.

Different. I am different. I will not cave. My promise was posted first thing and I will honor that. Besides, in order to cave I've gotta make about 12 phone calls and get permission. That shit would take time, and it has been a busy day. I will post the same promise tomorrow.

173 days. I didn't get here by accident.