I think you are right about that being a little too much Smokey Mountain, but if that is what it takes for now it is still better than the real stuff. I have probably used half of that if you need something for comparison. But I donÂ’t have to "ninja" dip either. I can hide it well enough to suit my need with where it is placed in my mouth.
We are a lot alike here. I think now my issue is more of the oral fixation. I have been researching oral fixation and it may benefit you to do some reading on it. Sigmund Freud's research seems very familiar to my own way of thinking. I know this sounds a little nuts, but I've always been certain one reason I liked smoking and dipping was that I used pacifier much longer than most kids.
This is a snippet from Wikipedia about the subject:
The infant who is neglected (insufficiently fed) or who is over-protected (over-fed) in the course of being nursed, might become an orally-fixated person. Said oral-stage fixation might have two effects: (i) the neglected child might become a psychologically dependent adult continually seeking the oral stimulation denied in infancy, thereby becoming a manipulative person in fulfilling his or her needs, rather than maturing to independence; (ii) the over-protected child might resist maturation and return to dependence upon others in fulfilling his or her needs. Theoretically, oral-stage fixations are manifested as garrulousness, smoking, continual oral stimulus (eating, chewing objects), and alcoholism. Psychologically, the symptoms include a sarcastic, oral sadistic personality, nail biting, oral sexual practices (fellatio, cunnilingus, analingus, irrumatio),
