Today is day 418 and I still have dreams that I can have just one dip. I wake up with relief. You all do the same. Quit forever. I quit for three years once and then had THAT one. Five years later and I am on day 418.
Stay Quit my friends, stay quit.
I'll be honest. I hate this post. Not because it was bad but because it forces me to face reality.
Fact is that sometimes truth is a hard pill to swallow. I tell myself everyday that I am an addict. My head tells me I am cured.
I read this and understand that I must keep my guard up every day I live.
I have said that I am at war for life. I think I am starting to understand what that means.
If nic wants a fight, I'm game. Thanks for the thoughts, It woke me up today.
Piss on tobacco. Dreams, Funks, Depression? I'll take it and hate nic more!