I was inspired by Gremlin to write this, because I believe this may help future quitters. I have used tobacco in some form for the past 25 years. It was never uncommon for me to have a dip and cigarette at the same time. Like everyone else, I didn't plan on being a 25 year user. I haven't had a cigarette in several years, I was just 100% wintergreen dip for probably the past 15.
For the past few months I would wake up every morning and decide this was the day to quit. Then I would eat breakfast, brush my teeth, grab a dip and shower. Probably did that for a month, my will power wouldn't last 10 minutes.
Then one day I went to work. A coworker said he quit dipping. I said I had been trying myself. He then suggested I check out this website. That night I ran out of dip and decided I was done. I went to work the following day and said it was my first full day with no dip. Again, he mentioned this website. I couldn't see how a website could help with the inevitable internal turmoil that I must face, but I got on board really fast.
(Day 1) was really hard for me. The oral fixation was probably the worst. After lunch I instinctively reached for my can. I did this several times, telling myself there was nothing there. It was like I was on autopilot. I bought gum, seeds, and anything else I could stuff in my mouth. But my biggest issue was anger. I felt like a volcano brewing inside. I've always kept my emotions in check, but this was a struggle for me. I made a few comments to some people, but nothing extremely bad. I do remember wanting to ram someone that passed me on the interstate, only to get in front of me and slow down. Probably the first (3 Days) was anger. I felt like my muscles were tight and slightly aching. I'm not a huge Star Wars nut, but I felt like Vader wanting to destroy everything.
(Day 2) My jaw felt like someone punched me. I swap sides, but like most I used one side more than the other. My primary side was hurting bad. It was almost as if my body was pissed because I was denying it nicotine. The my coworker told me his hurt to. His hurt longer than mine, but I would use more tobacco than him per day.
(Day 4) I took my daughter to play softball, which was all day. Everyone there dips. It was real hard, but I managed to make it through. I used a can of Smokey Mountain Wintergreen that day. The anger did begin to ease off this day.
The first 4 Days I was tired. I would go to bed early and not want to get out of bed the following morning. Around Day 5, I would go to sleep a modest time and awake within a few hours. I did that for a few days. Around Day 7, my sleep got back to normal. I also noticed I was HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. Happier than prior to dipping. Maybe it was the satisfaction of winning or having a cleaner system.
It has been said that nicotine only last a few days in your system. So those first days were hard, but then after it was gone there was other adjustments that my body had to make. Now I just have to work on the oral fixation.
I can't say that I will never dip again. I wish I could. But I can say that it will not be tomorrow. Everyday I plan to keep that nic bitch away 'Remshot' . I can only take credit for my quit. I owe not starting back to the family I joined on this forum. We are some hard nosed sons of bitches.
I hope my rambling may help some new quitters, hit me up if I can ever help. 'Popcorn'
