Well not really today.....kinda awkward. It was 04/13/2018. The first day of the rest of my life. The first day i experience what my current life is like without the help of my "friend" nicotine. I woke up feeling normal, excited even to finally kick this bad habit. I had been weaning off of the good ol' red seal the past week and had only had a single dip the prior day. I had a can of Smokey Mountain Herbal Snuff ready to go as well. I started my coffee and hopped in the shower like normal (i am as addicted to coffee as i am nicotine). Get dressed, down 3 cups of coffee as i read the news, fill both of my mugs with the remainder of the coffee and head out the door. I get into my car, put my seat belt on, start it up, and reach for my can of.....fuck wait, i don't have any dip?! Fuck now i have to stop by the gas station and i'm already fucking running late. Wait,....that's right i flushed it all down the toilet the night before. Get to work and feel groggy. I feel like i haven't had my coffee yet, even though im on my 6th cup at this point. I feel like i am not awake. Did i not sleep well last night? Actually i got a solid 9 hours compared to my usual 6, so that cant be it. Fuck ill just put a dip in and shrug it off. I open my desk where i always keep that spare can just in case. SHIT! Where is my emergency can?! "HEY BOBBY DID YOU FUCKING STEAL MY FUCKING DIP?!" "Uhhh, no, i don't even like red seal you shit". Oh yeah thats right i threw that one away too. Almost forgot that i'm quitting.
As the day goes by, i start getting nervous. I start to get minor headaches. I feel anxious, always checking my pockets and desk for a can of dip even though i know i have made up my mind to quit. I get home after work and proceed to have dinner. After dinner i sit at my desk, reach over for my can of....you guessed it. I reached for my can of dip that was so integrated into my life at this point that is was like second nature to me. By this time i did not over react like before, i just sighed and said to myself "oh yeah, im quitting".
Day two:
The whole day was shit. Headaches get worse, my hands shake uncontrollably, i don't think i had a clear thought run through my head other than "fuck i really could go for a dip right about now"
I am currently on day 4. The headaches have gotten slightly better, and i am getting used to not having a dip. I don't reach for it and panic when i don't have it. I can think more clearly now, and my gums are screaming thank you! Don't get me wrong the feeling still blows. But compared to day 1 and 2 this is much better.
I am 23 years old and have been dipping for 6 years. I have quit once before for 9 months and went through hell to get there. I went through a rough time in life and fell back in to it. That was 3 years ago. I am here, on this forum, to get the fuck rid of this shitty ass habit that is rotting my teeth out and slowly killing me one pinch at a time. I will kick this habit once and for all. This is the last time. Period. I am doing this for MYSELF, no one else. Fuck nicotine
Thats all.