In retrospect, challenging myself at this stage was just stupid macho b.s. Not the drinking so much, b/c I knew I wouldn't dip, but rather the way I went about it. I'm not an ass and I'm not some jerk. I have no doubt there will come a day when I feel a crave or an urge. Just because I don't now doesn't mean I should mouth off about drinking. I have respect for every person on this site and respect for what they say - EVEN IF I DONT AGREE - because I know that every post made made by every guy on here is with the intention of helping someone quit. Themselves, Joe Schmo, a newbie, whomever.....
I quit every day anew because I'm addicted to nicotine. I post roll because just as I promise I WON'T dip by posting roll, I promise I WILL dip if I don't post roll. Posting roll every day is the only reason that keeps me quit everyday. I know I am riding high on emotion and balls right now and I am not even close to being out of the woods. I know I will have tough days. I know at some point I will think about caving and when I do I will reach out to one or more of my brothers to help me out. Right now I'm a fucking beast though...my heart and my head know I posted roll this morning and I am quit today. Looking forward to posting roll tomorrow on day 7.
Morgan,
There are different types of champions. Ali as a boxer was a talker. He talked trash, he made predictions and he backed it up. Michael Jordan and Larry Bird talked trash.
In my life, personality is more like a John Stockton, I am usually quiet because I don't want to eat my words.
My addiction is different though. I post and talk trash, I am cocky, I am relentless in my quit. I don't do stupid things to put my quit in jeopardy but a talk a good game.
This is a strategy for me. The more I talk, the more I promise, the more committed I am to back it up. I am so afraid of failing on this, my talking and stands that I take....It has made caving appear to be so humiliating that when the cravings do come, It loses its savor because the humiliation of a cave isn't worth it.
You may be like me, the more you talk, the more committed you are to your quit. I say do it.
Drink the Kool-aid, when you are done, ask for a refill. Never be stupid and challenge your addiction. If you are going to talk tough, be tough!
"You ain't cocky motherfucker if you back it up!" Kid Rock 'oh yeah'