Introduction

[Its_Got2Happen]

226

Just finished the single shittiest work day in my adult life.  14 hours of pure can go wrong did go wrong bullshit.  At every turn the day got worse, almost comically on some level. 

It occurred to me when I finally got in my truck and began to proceed home.  Not once did I think about the poison.  It never ever crossed my mind for even one fleeting second.  A few months ago, dip would have dominated my every thought on a day like today. 

Now on my drive home that was another story.......................Again as I have said before, my rationale mind thought and knew, dip couldnt possibly do anything to make this shitty day better.  But dammit if my addict mind didnt try to execute its will.  Couldnt help but think over and over how great it would be to have a dip right now.  Oh the blasted addict mind, thank God it is no longer in control of my behavior.  I guess it is good to know and remember that the bitch will still try to sneak in.  Constantly prowling, ready to devour, looking for the smallest chink in our armor to exploit. 

Make a decision, post roll, keep your guard up.  Focus, focus, focus.  It has gotten so much easier.  Newbies, keep the faith.  Learn the program, use the tools.  This can be done.  It is so worth it.

Preach it brother! Keep the fucking faith.

I know I texted this to you but decided to memorialize this of your thread - I believe the solution to this is a new vehicle. You've mentioned several times that your truck is a trigger. The trigger. Trade that Ford in!!!!

I here ya worktowin. Drove the last F-150 for 300,000 miles. I just cant let go of the old 2008 yet, it only has 90,000 on it. I drive them until the wheels fall off. And besides I finally scrubbed all of the spilled dip scum out of the carpet and seats. This baby is showroom detailed.

Fuck triggers, I do not "avoid" them anymore, I mow that fuggers right over.

Quit on boys and girls, I am gonna. On the good days and the bad days. UUUUHHMMMM, get some!!

[worktowin]

226

Just finished the single shittiest work day in my adult life.  14 hours of pure can go wrong did go wrong bullshit.  At every turn the day got worse, almost comically on some level. 

It occurred to me when I finally got in my truck and began to proceed home.  Not once did I think about the poison.  It never ever crossed my mind for even one fleeting second.  A few months ago, dip would have dominated my every thought on a day like today. 

Now on my drive home that was another story.......................Again as I have said before, my rationale mind thought and knew, dip couldnt possibly do anything to make this shitty day better.  But dammit if my addict mind didnt try to execute its will.  Couldnt help but think over and over how great it would be to have a dip right now.  Oh the blasted addict mind, thank God it is no longer in control of my behavior.  I guess it is good to know and remember that the bitch will still try to sneak in.  Constantly prowling, ready to devour, looking for the smallest chink in our armor to exploit. 

Make a decision, post roll, keep your guard up.  Focus, focus, focus.  It has gotten so much easier.  Newbies, keep the faith.  Learn the program, use the tools.  This can be done.  It is so worth it.

Preach it brother! Keep the fucking faith.

I know I texted this to you but decided to memorialize this of your thread - I believe the solution to this is a new vehicle. You've mentioned several times that your truck is a trigger. The trigger. Trade that Ford in!!!!

[Wade]

226

Just finished the single shittiest work day in my adult life.  14 hours of pure can go wrong did go wrong bullshit.  At every turn the day got worse, almost comically on some level. 

It occurred to me when I finally got in my truck and began to proceed home.  Not once did I think about the poison.  It never ever crossed my mind for even one fleeting second.  A few months ago, dip would have dominated my every thought on a day like today. 

Now on my drive home that was another story.......................Again as I have said before, my rationale mind thought and knew, dip couldnt possibly do anything to make this shitty day better.  But dammit if my addict mind didnt try to execute its will.  Couldnt help but think over and over how great it would be to have a dip right now.  Oh the blasted addict mind, thank God it is no longer in control of my behavior.  I guess it is good to know and remember that the bitch will still try to sneak in.  Constantly prowling, ready to devour, looking for the smallest chink in our armor to exploit. 

Make a decision, post roll, keep your guard up.  Focus, focus, focus.  It has gotten so much easier.  Newbies, keep the faith.  Learn the program, use the tools.  This can be done.  It is so worth it.

Preach it brother! Keep the fucking faith.

[Pinched]

226

Just finished the single shittiest work day in my adult life. 14 hours of pure can go wrong did go wrong bullshit. At every turn the day got worse, almost comically on some level.

It occurred to me when I finally got in my truck and began to proceed home. Not once did I think about the poison. It never ever crossed my mind for even one fleeting second. A few months ago, dip would have dominated my every thought on a day like today.

Now on my drive home that was another story.......................Again as I have said before, my rationale mind thought and knew, dip couldnt possibly do anything to make this shitty day better. But dammit if my addict mind didnt try to execute its will. Couldnt help but think over and over how great it would be to have a dip right now. Oh the blasted addict mind, thank God it is no longer in control of my behavior. I guess it is good to know and remember that the bitch will still try to sneak in. Constantly prowling, ready to devour, looking for the smallest chink in our armor to exploit.

Make a decision, post roll, keep your guard up. Focus, focus, focus. It has gotten so much easier. Newbies, keep the faith. Learn the program, use the tools. This can be done. It is so worth it.

That is a great example of mind over matter. Way to stay QUIT! Posting that had to be great self gratification. I QUIT with you any day.

[Its_Got2Happen]

226

Just finished the single shittiest work day in my adult life. 14 hours of pure can go wrong did go wrong bullshit. At every turn the day got worse, almost comically on some level.

It occurred to me when I finally got in my truck and began to proceed home. Not once did I think about the poison. It never ever crossed my mind for even one fleeting second. A few months ago, dip would have dominated my every thought on a day like today.

Now on my drive home that was another story.......................Again as I have said before, my rationale mind thought and knew, dip couldnt possibly do anything to make this shitty day better. But dammit if my addict mind didnt try to execute its will. Couldnt help but think over and over how great it would be to have a dip right now. Oh the blasted addict mind, thank God it is no longer in control of my behavior. I guess it is good to know and remember that the bitch will still try to sneak in. Constantly prowling, ready to devour, looking for the smallest chink in our armor to exploit.

Make a decision, post roll, keep your guard up. Focus, focus, focus. It has gotten so much easier. Newbies, keep the faith. Learn the program, use the tools. This can be done. It is so worth it.

[omahaflyer]

Thanks everyone. I received a ton of support and encouragement on here and via text over the last few days. You guys are great. I don't know what the hell it is about vacation but that anxiety rocked my world for a couple days. I am still kind of in survival mode, but I guess so it goes with addiction. Anyone you slice it, this addiction must be battled one day at a time.

I just hate the substitution factor. I am constantly feeling like something is missing, and that bothers me after all this time, 210 days. So what do I do? Start eating like crazy, doritos , pringles, seeds, whatever. I didn't even realize I was developing this habit, but now that I think about it, it really began in Jan when I quit. I used to stay up late and have those last couple of dips. Really packing it in so I could make it thru a nights sleep without the blood nicotine level getting too low. Well now that I don't dip I am just eating a shit load more. Evidenced by the 25-30 I have gained since I quit. I wonder if anyone else has struggled with this. I have known a few former smokers who were thin when they smoked but gained a significant amount of weight after having quit. Maybe it is a good trade off but to me IT IS UNACCEPTABLE. I have to get a handle on this shit. I am embarrassed to admit that I seem to have some kind of emotional eating thing going on now. Where does that end? Oh well, everyone has some kind of struggle, I guess it could be far worse.

Is there room in your boat for me ?

[Its_Got2Happen]

Thanks everyone. I received a ton of support and encouragement on here and via text over the last few days. You guys are great. I don't know what the hell it is about vacation but that anxiety rocked my world for a couple days. I am still kind of in survival mode, but I guess so it goes with addiction. Anyone you slice it, this addiction must be battled one day at a time.

I just hate the substitution factor. I am constantly feeling like something is missing, and that bothers me after all this time, 210 days. So what do I do? Start eating like crazy, doritos , pringles, seeds, whatever. I didn't even realize I was developing this habit, but now that I think about it, it really began in Jan when I quit. I used to stay up late and have those last couple of dips. Really packing it in so I could make it thru a nights sleep without the blood nicotine level getting too low. Well now that I don't dip I am just eating a shit load more. Evidenced by the 25-30 I have gained since I quit. I wonder if anyone else has struggled with this. I have known a few former smokers who were thin when they smoked but gained a significant amount of weight after having quit. Maybe it is a good trade off but to me IT IS UNACCEPTABLE. I have to get a handle on this shit. I am embarrassed to admit that I seem to have some kind of emotional eating thing going on now. Where does that end? Oh well, everyone has some kind of struggle, I guess it could be far worse.

[omahaflyer]

Stay strong. This too shall pass.

[Diesel2112]

208 today. Another funk, WTF, cant believe it. Leaving on vacation for a week and I feel frozen. Usually this is when I get 1000 things done before I leave and I feel great and accomplished and deserving of a vacation. These past 2 days I feel like a useless slug. I can't pack, can't get yardwork done and I am driving my wife nuts. Feel like something is missing. 3 days of megafunk?? Work has been shitty, tons of hours, may also be a contributing factor, I dont know.

I almost walked right into a cave on Friday, thought about not posting roll. Actually waited until way later in the morning than usual, but of course came to my senses. Then I got a text from a newbie on day 30 who wanted to talk, He said he was struggling. He was also getting ready to leave for a vacation and that stirred some old feelings. I am glad I was able to help him. It also helped me greatly and reminded me of why I choose this journey.

I do not want dip in any way shape or form, I know this but damn why these odd feelings even after 7 months, really?? I think I am missing the stimulant factor. I feel like nicotine used to give me this conquer the world kind of upper feeling. Coffee seems to help for a few hours in the morning but that only goes so far. I sometimes find myself trying to replace that hyper kick ass felling by drinking more. I have found that it has quite the opposite effect. So I have 5 or 6 beers and it puts me on my ass and I get even less done.

Oh well, just venting. Another day ends just like it started, QUIT. Everyday doesn't have to be great. I will take the good with the bad, all the while basking in the knowledge that nicotine would help nothing. I know for certain that these feelings will pass and I will carry on with my life.

The strange thing about this funk is that I did not feel compelled to reach out to my quit friends. This concerns me a bit however I do not wish to discourage anyone. I feel like I should be farther along at this point?? I especially do not want to discourage newer quitters, which is why I hesitate to even hit the send button on this post.

Add reply or delete? heads or tails? Tails it is. OK I post it.

Newbies....... know this. This shit is hard, but it can be done, and it is so worth it. For the last 2 months I have barely even thought about using, I dont know what this little funk is all about but I know it will pass. I suspect I may have another hurdle once bow season comes around. Guess what? I will be ready for that too, and I will leap that hurdle and have the greatest bow season of my life.

Im 420 days quit and just returned from a week's vacation. Silver Lake, Ludington, Muskegon, Traverse City, Frankenmuth and then home.

I too had the pre vacation blahs.

Think there's some kind of Pavlovian thing with vacation where it makes you think of dipping. Once I got there I was fine. I still did "think" about it but not in a bad or overwhelming way.

I used to ninja so I noted all the gas stations that carried my old brand and noted certain points or spots where iI would have dipped in the past. I didn't obsess over it or let it ruin my vacation, I just couldn't help thinking about it now and again. This was only my 2nd family vacation dip free.Last year was my first after being quit for a little over a month and was a fucking disaster. So this was actually great progress in my book.

I feel you though. Even at 420 days sometimes I feel I shouldn't be having certain thoughts or feelings. Most times I'm on cruise control but I'm finding this process can wear on you sometimes.

I'm thinking of posting role and backing away from this site a bit. I sometimes wonder if it contributes to me over thinking shit.

Anyway, I'm probably gonna ramble about this in my own thread soon. Don't mean to hijack yours.

Enjoy you vacation, you will be fine. No doubt about it.

[srans]

208 today. Another funk, WTF, cant believe it. Leaving on vacation for a week and I feel frozen. Usually this is when I get 1000 things done before I leave and I feel great and accomplished and deserving of a vacation. These past 2 days I feel like a useless slug. I can't pack, can't get yardwork done and I am driving my wife nuts. Feel like something is missing. 3 days of megafunk?? Work has been shitty, tons of hours, may also be a contributing factor, I dont know.

I almost walked right into a cave on Friday, thought about not posting roll. Actually waited until way later in the morning than usual, but of course came to my senses. Then I got a text from a newbie on day 30 who wanted to talk, He said he was struggling. He was also getting ready to leave for a vacation and that stirred some old feelings. I am glad I was able to help him. It also helped me greatly and reminded me of why I choose this journey.

I do not want dip in any way shape or form, I know this but damn why these odd feelings even after 7 months, really?? I think I am missing the stimulant factor. I feel like nicotine used to give me this conquer the world kind of upper feeling. Coffee seems to help for a few hours in the morning but that only goes so far. I sometimes find myself trying to replace that hyper kick ass felling by drinking more. I have found that it has quite the opposite effect. So I have 5 or 6 beers and it puts me on my ass and I get even less done.

Oh well, just venting. Another day ends just like it started, QUIT. Everyday doesn't have to be great. I will take the good with the bad, all the while basking in the knowledge that nicotine would help nothing. I know for certain that these feelings will pass and I will carry on with my life.

The strange thing about this funk is that I did not feel compelled to reach out to my quit friends. This concerns me a bit however I do not wish to discourage anyone. I feel like I should be farther along at this point?? I especially do not want to discourage newer quitters, which is why I hesitate to even hit the send button on this post.

Add reply or delete? heads or tails? Tails it is. OK I post it.

Newbies....... know this. This shit is hard, but it can be done, and it is so worth it. For the last 2 months I have barely even thought about using, I dont know what this little funk is all about but I know it will pass. I suspect I may have another hurdle once bow season comes around. Guess what? I will be ready for that too, and I will leap that hurdle and have the greatest bow season of my life.

I know what your feeling. A couple Weeks ago i got back from my vacation. Before i went i felt the same way. You got the pre vacation blues. You'll be fine once you get under way and that mind starts its vacation. Word of warning. It took about 2 days on vacation before my brain caught up. After that it was on. My first vacation without the poison. Didn't miss it at all. You won't either. Enjoy your vacation brother. You deserve it.

I'll quit with you any day and don't forget you got my digits brother. Your feeling down, give me a buzz so i can tell you some things that will make your mully grubs a little easier to handle.

[Its_Got2Happen]

208 today. Another funk, WTF, cant believe it. Leaving on vacation for a week and I feel frozen. Usually this is when I get 1000 things done before I leave and I feel great and accomplished and deserving of a vacation. These past 2 days I feel like a useless slug. I can't pack, can't get yardwork done and I am driving my wife nuts. Feel like something is missing. 3 days of megafunk?? Work has been shitty, tons of hours, may also be a contributing factor, I dont know.

I almost walked right into a cave on Friday, thought about not posting roll. Actually waited until way later in the morning than usual, but of course came to my senses. Then I got a text from a newbie on day 30 who wanted to talk, He said he was struggling. He was also getting ready to leave for a vacation and that stirred some old feelings. I am glad I was able to help him. It also helped me greatly and reminded me of why I choose this journey.

I do not want dip in any way shape or form, I know this but damn why these odd feelings even after 7 months, really?? I think I am missing the stimulant factor. I feel like nicotine used to give me this conquer the world kind of upper feeling. Coffee seems to help for a few hours in the morning but that only goes so far. I sometimes find myself trying to replace that hyper kick ass felling by drinking more. I have found that it has quite the opposite effect. So I have 5 or 6 beers and it puts me on my ass and I get even less done.

Oh well, just venting. Another day ends just like it started, QUIT. Everyday doesn't have to be great. I will take the good with the bad, all the while basking in the knowledge that nicotine would help nothing. I know for certain that these feelings will pass and I will carry on with my life.

The strange thing about this funk is that I did not feel compelled to reach out to my quit friends. This concerns me a bit however I do not wish to discourage anyone. I feel like I should be farther along at this point?? I especially do not want to discourage newer quitters, which is why I hesitate to even hit the send button on this post.

Add reply or delete? heads or tails? Tails it is. OK I post it.

Newbies....... know this. This shit is hard, but it can be done, and it is so worth it. For the last 2 months I have barely even thought about using, I dont know what this little funk is all about but I know it will pass. I suspect I may have another hurdle once bow season comes around. Guess what? I will be ready for that too, and I will leap that hurdle and have the greatest bow season of my life.

[Nickald]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

I agree me too x2 et c. You are one of my quit heroes Ryan congrates on the second floor! Quit on!

Congrats man!!! I appreciate all that you have done fr me. Your reaching out and words of wisdom have helped. Again well done on the 200!

You are another great example of how to quit! Crazy to look back on the first few posts and see how much has changed. Thanks for making my quit stronger!

I surround myself with strength.. That's why I follow your quit... Proud of you  your journey. peace :D

Outstanding!
'clap'
I also hate few things, but, nicotine addiction and what it stole from me I despise.

It is great to be quit with you. Thanks for the texts they always come at a good time. We still need to get to gether and go fishing.
NICK

[Wt57]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

I agree me too x2 et c. You are one of my quit heroes Ryan congrates on the second floor! Quit on!

Congrats man!!! I appreciate all that you have done fr me. Your reaching out and words of wisdom have helped. Again well done on the 200!

You are another great example of how to quit! Crazy to look back on the first few posts and see how much has changed. Thanks for making my quit stronger!

I surround myself with strength.. That's why I follow your quit... Proud of you  your journey. peace :D

Outstanding!
'clap'
I also hate few things, but, nicotine addiction and what it stole from me I despise.

[kana]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

I agree me too x2 et c. You are one of my quit heroes Ryan congrates on the second floor! Quit on!

Congrats man!!! I appreciate all that you have done fr me. Your reaching out and words of wisdom have helped. Again well done on the 200!

You are another great example of how to quit! Crazy to look back on the first few posts and see how much has changed. Thanks for making my quit stronger!

I surround myself with strength.. That's why I follow your quit... Proud of you  your journey. peace :D

[mich 34]

Not claming to be a bigger addict, maybe just a weaker individual??  I want to quit, I am quit, 6 days.  Might not be much but its something to me.

I won't be dipping today either, but I am seeing that I need some help.  I am not coping well at all.  I will seek some professional help tomorrow.  I dont think the asshole talk is gonna help much.  I have to talk to a doctor or something.  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I cannot drink coffee, I cannot drink beer.  So many triggers I am losing my mind.  If there are meds are something that will help me I have to see. 

I may not know what TO DO, but I know what NOT to do.  No dip for me today, I know it will not make this whirlwind go away, it is the cause of it.  Dont know how to PM and wouldnt know what to say.  Gotta go post roll.  Later.

Good, just get through today with no nicotine.

You're not going to like to hear this but to be quite honest, unless you doctor is a former user, he don't shut about quitting this. He will most likely give you a nicotine supplement, chantix, Wellbutrin, or some other aid.

You do not need this stuff. Maybe some melatonin or some other sleep aid, but that's it.

Just trust what we are telling you.

Bump for a reminder of what nicotine did to me and what I did to myself with nicotine.

I don't hate many things, there is almost no hate within me, BUT DAMN, I HATE ADDICTION, AND I HATE TOBACCO.

Thank God that time can heal most things. As I sit here today I feel so much more whole as a person.

It feels good to hit 200 today. However....................I know that I am but an infant in this quit. Maybe today I graduated kindergarden or preschool. That is how I look at it anyway. See you tomorrow boys and girls.

Ryan

Got2, been watching you sense my first day here. Watching you and learning from you has been one of the reasons i'm still here. I keep looking at the days your stacking up and that's some of my motivation. I live one day at a time, but do look forward to walking in that door at 200. If you don't mind, keep the place clean. I hear some of the members in your group like critters. They have really dirtied the place up around here. Darn them critters. Glad to be quit with you bro.

Congrats to you.

Now that I am over the shock of thinking that this was a cave speech I have to read dates closer, I am good. Yes Ryan I always like to read your posts you are an anchor here keep it up...qlf w you today

Nice Job Ryan.

Well Done Sir!!!

PS i never got my dry ice packed Walleye filets in the mail.

Thanks guys. I dig the milestone thing but on the other I realize it is just another +1.

Razd sorry about the walleye, lol, long gone. Guess youll have to come out here and fish with me sometime.

Trauma, sorry to give you a scare. Definately not a cave speech. If it were it would sound something like this

"so I hit 200 today right. So I decided that I will go out and buy me a big juicy can of Kodiac to celebrate. After all I just need to see if I still like the taste. Or better yet, maybe I will go have a cigar on the golfcourse with my father in law."

What do you think guys? Great idea huh?

Sorry Thor and Minnie I dont mean to pick on you, I just want to see if you can hear how stupid that sounds when it comes from someone else.

You wont ever see a cave speech from me. If I were to cave, you would simple never see me again. I would just vanish. This is the last hurrah for me and KTC my last hope. I have tried everything, everything that is, except brotherhood and accountability. And as it turns out brotherhood and accountability was all it took.

Thanks everyone.

Congrats Ryan on 200!!!! Proud to be part of this journey with you.

I agree me too x2 et c. You are one of my quit heroes Ryan congrates on the second floor! Quit on!

Congrats man!!! I appreciate all that you have done fr me. Your reaching out and words of wisdom have helped. Again well done on the 200!

You are another great example of how to quit! Crazy to look back on the first few posts and see how much has changed. Thanks for making my quit stronger!