Introduction

[kana]

152 days quit. I could not be happier. For anyone just starting out.... please know this, IT GETS BETTER, IT IS WORTH IT. People told me that 5 months ago and I was convinced they were lying.

I cannot begin to describe how it feels to no longer be feeding this addiction. I didnt know at that time but entire existance was wrapped in "the fix". How and when can I get it. Nothing could stand in the way. I see now that when I was using I was behaving as if "it" were the most important thing in the world. Addiciton is sad and pathetic. In the begining of my quit I saw people dipping and smoking I was envious. Now I am anything but that. Actually I am deeply saddened when I see it now. I feel sorry for those who are still enchained. I wonder about their future. Will they ever choose to be free of it, or will they bring that addiction to their grave.

I am grateful for this site and grateful for the connections I have made. Time to start paying it forward. My goal is to connect solidly to at least 2 newbies/month.

Stay quit friends.

what a great way to start the day, some swollen quit juice... nice work boo! :D

[Its_Got2Happen]

152 days quit. I could not be happier. For anyone just starting out.... please know this, IT GETS BETTER, IT IS WORTH IT. People told me that 5 months ago and I was convinced they were lying.

I cannot begin to describe how it feels to no longer be feeding this addiction. I didnt know at that time but entire existance was wrapped in "the fix". How and when can I get it. Nothing could stand in the way. I see now that when I was using I was behaving as if "it" were the most important thing in the world. Addiciton is sad and pathetic. In the begining of my quit I saw people dipping and smoking I was envious. Now I am anything but that. Actually I am deeply saddened when I see it now. I feel sorry for those who are still enchained. I wonder about their future. Will they ever choose to be free of it, or will they bring that addiction to their grave.

I am grateful for this site and grateful for the connections I have made. Time to start paying it forward. My goal is to connect solidly to at least 2 newbies/month.

Stay quit friends.

[kana]

Memorial weekend is typically a time that I pull a couple days off work and string together 4 or 5,  15 hour days in a row in which I kick ass around my house and yard.  My unwritten rule is that all projects that need to be completed for the year must be completed by Memorial Day. 

Paint, caulk, plant some trees, move 2000 pounds of boulders, move 3 yrds of mulch, fix the fence, plant the garden, open the pool, clean the garage, prune hedges, fix the roof on shed, etc.  Well that is the list so far and I have 2 days to go.

That said I realize today that weekends like this were also weekends in which I would plow through a ridiculous amount of dip.  3+ cans a day.  It was a messed up reward game mentality that I designed in my head.  " finish this small task, pack a big dip, you know the drill.  And I remember vividly how times I planned to quit on the Tuesday after Memorial day.  I would justify the chew filled weekend because it was always going to be the last one.  Sad.

I can tell you that this weekend has not been easy.  I realize just how dependent I was on nicotine.  Not just the physical chemical dependence part.  I mean my entire emotional and psychological state of being.  I had no idea that this healing would take so much time. 

I am very happy to be quit.  I still have to remind myself daily of all the reasons that I want to be.  It would be great if I could just be done, and not have to put any work into it.  But passive quitting hasn't worked for me.  It leaves to much to chance and leaves me open to failure should I all of a sudden decide that I want or need dip.  I understand now that my quit must be an active one.  I must force myself to think about it daily so that I can remember how hard it was to get free of this. 

I think at this point in time, 145 days quit, I am just looking to replace the stimulant factor.  Sunflower seeds don't quite do it. 

Ok, I think I am just procrastinating at this point, I have to go dig some post holes and stain a fence.  Happy Memorial Day everyone.  Stay quit.

Ryan

Yes sir, I know the feeling for sure. I have now seen the light that all my life is a trigger. Shower=dip, yard work=dip, feed fish=dip, ect ect ect...

No way to avoid triggers for me so I just blow right on by the start of things and keep on keeping on.


Quit 14 days !

Have a great weekend brother. :D

Good stuff got2. I always enjoy reading your posts. You always seem to hit me right in the jaw when I'm reading them.

It wasn't long ago, my wife says "are you still having troubles". All I can do is shake my head and move on. That's one of the reasons this site is so important,, nobody understands us like us. I love the fact we can come here, put our thoughts out there and somebody actually gets it. Anyone I talk to that has never had this addiction has no clue. They are dumbfounded. Glad to be quit with you got2.

Thanks Srans, that is what made me fall in love with this site. For the first time in my dipping career I found someone who knew exactly how I felt. And all the things I was experiencing trying to quit were described by others all over the country. I was blown away at how similar peoples quits can be. That is the power of this site. When I realized it could be done and people were on here doing it everyday, I had no choice but to quit. This place gave me the knowledge and the tools. Have a great weekend and stay quit.

Ryan

last week I had a huge project list as well.. went through the whole day just scratchin things off the list. at the end of the day, In the hot shower I was just relaxing and thought WOW I didn't think about dip at all, the whole day? Then I thought holy shit, I even forgot to grab some gum.. I went the whole day with NOTHING in my mouth, and believe it or not everything got done. just keep quitting, it get's better..

[Its_Got2Happen]

Memorial weekend is typically a time that I pull a couple days off work and string together 4 or 5,  15 hour days in a row in which I kick ass around my house and yard.  My unwritten rule is that all projects that need to be completed for the year must be completed by Memorial Day. 

Paint, caulk, plant some trees, move 2000 pounds of boulders, move 3 yrds of mulch, fix the fence, plant the garden, open the pool, clean the garage, prune hedges, fix the roof on shed, etc.  Well that is the list so far and I have 2 days to go.

That said I realize today that weekends like this were also weekends in which I would plow through a ridiculous amount of dip.  3+ cans a day.  It was a messed up reward game mentality that I designed in my head.  " finish this small task, pack a big dip, you know the drill.  And I remember vividly how times I planned to quit on the Tuesday after Memorial day.  I would justify the chew filled weekend because it was always going to be the last one.  Sad.

I can tell you that this weekend has not been easy.  I realize just how dependent I was on nicotine.  Not just the physical chemical dependence part.  I mean my entire emotional and psychological state of being.  I had no idea that this healing would take so much time. 

I am very happy to be quit.  I still have to remind myself daily of all the reasons that I want to be.  It would be great if I could just be done, and not have to put any work into it.  But passive quitting hasn't worked for me.  It leaves to much to chance and leaves me open to failure should I all of a sudden decide that I want or need dip.  I understand now that my quit must be an active one.  I must force myself to think about it daily so that I can remember how hard it was to get free of this. 

I think at this point in time, 145 days quit, I am just looking to replace the stimulant factor.  Sunflower seeds don't quite do it. 

Ok, I think I am just procrastinating at this point, I have to go dig some post holes and stain a fence.  Happy Memorial Day everyone.  Stay quit.

Ryan

Yes sir, I know the feeling for sure. I have now seen the light that all my life is a trigger. Shower=dip, yard work=dip, feed fish=dip, ect ect ect...

No way to avoid triggers for me so I just blow right on by the start of things and keep on keeping on.


Quit 14 days !

Have a great weekend brother. :D

Good stuff got2. I always enjoy reading your posts. You always seem to hit me right in the jaw when I'm reading them.

It wasn't long ago, my wife says "are you still having troubles". All I can do is shake my head and move on. That's one of the reasons this site is so important,, nobody understands us like us. I love the fact we can come here, put our thoughts out there and somebody actually gets it. Anyone I talk to that has never had this addiction has no clue. They are dumbfounded. Glad to be quit with you got2.

Thanks Srans, that is what made me fall in love with this site. For the first time in my dipping career I found someone who knew exactly how I felt. And all the things I was experiencing trying to quit were described by others all over the country. I was blown away at how similar peoples quits can be. That is the power of this site. When I realized it could be done and people were on here doing it everyday, I had no choice but to quit. This place gave me the knowledge and the tools. Have a great weekend and stay quit.

Ryan

[srans]

Memorial weekend is typically a time that I pull a couple days off work and string together 4 or 5,  15 hour days in a row in which I kick ass around my house and yard.  My unwritten rule is that all projects that need to be completed for the year must be completed by Memorial Day. 

Paint, caulk, plant some trees, move 2000 pounds of boulders, move 3 yrds of mulch, fix the fence, plant the garden, open the pool, clean the garage, prune hedges, fix the roof on shed, etc.  Well that is the list so far and I have 2 days to go.

That said I realize today that weekends like this were also weekends in which I would plow through a ridiculous amount of dip.  3+ cans a day.  It was a messed up reward game mentality that I designed in my head.  " finish this small task, pack a big dip, you know the drill.  And I remember vividly how times I planned to quit on the Tuesday after Memorial day.  I would justify the chew filled weekend because it was always going to be the last one.  Sad.

I can tell you that this weekend has not been easy.  I realize just how dependent I was on nicotine.  Not just the physical chemical dependence part.  I mean my entire emotional and psychological state of being.  I had no idea that this healing would take so much time. 

I am very happy to be quit.  I still have to remind myself daily of all the reasons that I want to be.  It would be great if I could just be done, and not have to put any work into it.  But passive quitting hasn't worked for me.  It leaves to much to chance and leaves me open to failure should I all of a sudden decide that I want or need dip.  I understand now that my quit must be an active one.  I must force myself to think about it daily so that I can remember how hard it was to get free of this. 

I think at this point in time, 145 days quit, I am just looking to replace the stimulant factor.  Sunflower seeds don't quite do it. 

Ok, I think I am just procrastinating at this point, I have to go dig some post holes and stain a fence.  Happy Memorial Day everyone.  Stay quit.

Ryan

Yes sir, I know the feeling for sure. I have now seen the light that all my life is a trigger. Shower=dip, yard work=dip, feed fish=dip, ect ect ect...

No way to avoid triggers for me so I just blow right on by the start of things and keep on keeping on.


Quit 14 days !

Have a great weekend brother. :D

Good stuff got2. I always enjoy reading your posts. You always seem to hit me right in the jaw when I'm reading them.

It wasn't long ago, my wife says "are you still having troubles". All I can do is shake my head and move on. That's one of the reasons this site is so important,, nobody understands us like us. I love the fact we can come here, put our thoughts out there and somebody actually gets it. Anyone I talk to that has never had this addiction has no clue. They are dumbfounded. Glad to be quit with you got2.

[HDsnake]

Memorial weekend is typically a time that I pull a couple days off work and string together 4 or 5,  15 hour days in a row in which I kick ass around my house and yard.  My unwritten rule is that all projects that need to be completed for the year must be completed by Memorial Day. 

Paint, caulk, plant some trees, move 2000 pounds of boulders, move 3 yrds of mulch, fix the fence, plant the garden, open the pool, clean the garage, prune hedges, fix the roof on shed, etc.  Well that is the list so far and I have 2 days to go.

That said I realize today that weekends like this were also weekends in which I would plow through a ridiculous amount of dip.  3+ cans a day.  It was a messed up reward game mentality that I designed in my head.  " finish this small task, pack a big dip, you know the drill.  And I remember vividly how times I planned to quit on the Tuesday after Memorial day.  I would justify the chew filled weekend because it was always going to be the last one.  Sad.

I can tell you that this weekend has not been easy.  I realize just how dependent I was on nicotine.  Not just the physical chemical dependence part.  I mean my entire emotional and psychological state of being.  I had no idea that this healing would take so much time. 

I am very happy to be quit.  I still have to remind myself daily of all the reasons that I want to be.  It would be great if I could just be done, and not have to put any work into it.  But passive quitting hasn't worked for me.  It leaves to much to chance and leaves me open to failure should I all of a sudden decide that I want or need dip.  I understand now that my quit must be an active one.  I must force myself to think about it daily so that I can remember how hard it was to get free of this. 

I think at this point in time, 145 days quit, I am just looking to replace the stimulant factor.  Sunflower seeds don't quite do it. 

Ok, I think I am just procrastinating at this point, I have to go dig some post holes and stain a fence.  Happy Memorial Day everyone.  Stay quit.

Ryan

Yes sir, I know the feeling for sure. I have now seen the light that all my life is a trigger. Shower=dip, yard work=dip, feed fish=dip, ect ect ect...

No way to avoid triggers for me so I just blow right on by the start of things and keep on keeping on.


Quit 14 days !

Have a great weekend brother. :D

[Its_Got2Happen]

Memorial weekend is typically a time that I pull a couple days off work and string together 4 or 5, 15 hour days in a row in which I kick ass around my house and yard. My unwritten rule is that all projects that need to be completed for the year must be completed by Memorial Day.

Paint, caulk, plant some trees, move 2000 pounds of boulders, move 3 yrds of mulch, fix the fence, plant the garden, open the pool, clean the garage, prune hedges, fix the roof on shed, etc. Well that is the list so far and I have 2 days to go.

That said I realize today that weekends like this were also weekends in which I would plow through a ridiculous amount of dip. 3+ cans a day. It was a messed up reward game mentality that I designed in my head. " finish this small task, pack a big dip, you know the drill. And I remember vividly how times I planned to quit on the Tuesday after Memorial day. I would justify the chew filled weekend because it was always going to be the last one. Sad.

I can tell you that this weekend has not been easy. I realize just how dependent I was on nicotine. Not just the physical chemical dependence part. I mean my entire emotional and psychological state of being. I had no idea that this healing would take so much time.

I am very happy to be quit. I still have to remind myself daily of all the reasons that I want to be. It would be great if I could just be done, and not have to put any work into it. But passive quitting hasn't worked for me. It leaves to much to chance and leaves me open to failure should I all of a sudden decide that I want or need dip. I understand now that my quit must be an active one. I must force myself to think about it daily so that I can remember how hard it was to get free of this.

I think at this point in time, 145 days quit, I am just looking to replace the stimulant factor. Sunflower seeds don't quite do it.

Ok, I think I am just procrastinating at this point, I have to go dig some post holes and stain a fence. Happy Memorial Day everyone. Stay quit.

Ryan

[mich 34]

Actually gave serious thought to not posting roll today.  Just in case??  I am off work for a long weekend and started thinking about the "good old days" of drinking and dipping and doing yardwork etc.  What a dumbass!!  This bitch don't give up easy, does she?  WTF, one hundred and forty something days and I still have these thoughts.  Is this normal??  What the hell is wrong with me??

Can't ever go back. Gotta go post, later.

IG2H the "good ole days" of being a slave to a fuckin weed? ODAAT is the way we do it here you know that. Don't get caught up in the past and start giving Nic any credit for the "good times". Post roll everyday and make the promise to me, billy bob, johnny, and most importantly to yourself. Proud to be quit with you today. NAFAR!!

^^^^ x2.

Keep fighting, guys. Keep fighting.

Bro, after that long.... the chew doesn't even smell or taste the same as you remember. It taste sour after a long time quit. Glad ur posting roll, I know from experience that a cave turns into a time of regret and self hate. You are an example to us new guys. We quit with you today!

She won't give up. Ever. But that's ok because we're stronger than her now. Because of this place, we have more power than she does. When we quit her, she looked a lot like KKLJINC's avatar. Not she looks like a crack-whore looking for a fix. Glad you fought off the premeditated cave. Watch out for her this weekend. She'll be looking for you.

you've got my cell, throw a text my way before you decide not to post roll - I'll talk anytime man. Glad you had it licked on your own today. Remember your tools and use them or they will rust.

[per034]

Actually gave serious thought to not posting roll today.  Just in case??  I am off work for a long weekend and started thinking about the "good old days" of drinking and dipping and doing yardwork etc.  What a dumbass!!  This bitch don't give up easy, does she?  WTF, one hundred and forty something days and I still have these thoughts.  Is this normal??  What the hell is wrong with me??

Can't ever go back. Gotta go post, later.

IG2H the "good ole days" of being a slave to a fuckin weed? ODAAT is the way we do it here you know that. Don't get caught up in the past and start giving Nic any credit for the "good times". Post roll everyday and make the promise to me, billy bob, johnny, and most importantly to yourself. Proud to be quit with you today. NAFAR!!

^^^^ x2.

Keep fighting, guys. Keep fighting.

Bro, after that long.... the chew doesn't even smell or taste the same as you remember. It taste sour after a long time quit. Glad ur posting roll, I know from experience that a cave turns into a time of regret and self hate. You are an example to us new guys. We quit with you today!

She won't give up. Ever. But that's ok because we're stronger than her now. Because of this place, we have more power than she does. When we quit her, she looked a lot like KKLJINC's avatar. Not she looks like a crack-whore looking for a fix. Glad you fought off the premeditated cave. Watch out for her this weekend. She'll be looking for you.

[kkljinc]

I quit with you today...

Thanks man. I would like to quit with your avatar. Damn boy, who dat??

She is just "QUIT LIKE SHIT" inspiration!

[Its_Got2Happen]

I quit with you today...

Thanks man. I would like to quit with your avatar. Damn boy, who dat??

[dgreak]

Man I have been pretty quiet on here since I am new, but I wanted to say you got this and I have your back. You've come this far, just keep doing what you're doing and lean on the guys here. I am sure you have tons of support, but if you need mine shoot me a PM and I will be glad to help out.

[jake frawley]

Actually gave serious thought to not posting roll today.  Just in case??  I am off work for a long weekend and started thinking about the "good old days" of drinking and dipping and doing yardwork etc.  What a dumbass!!  This bitch don't give up easy, does she?  WTF, one hundred and forty something days and I still have these thoughts.  Is this normal??  What the hell is wrong with me??

Can't ever go back. Gotta go post, later.

IG2H the "good ole days" of being a slave to a fuckin weed? ODAAT is the way we do it here you know that. Don't get caught up in the past and start giving Nic any credit for the "good times". Post roll everyday and make the promise to me, billy bob, johnny, and most importantly to yourself. Proud to be quit with you today. NAFAR!!

^^^^ x2.

Keep fighting, guys. Keep fighting.

Bro, after that long.... the chew doesn't even smell or taste the same as you remember. It taste sour after a long time quit. Glad ur posting roll, I know from experience that a cave turns into a time of regret and self hate. You are an example to us new guys. We quit with you today!

[kkljinc]

I quit with you today...

[Morgan1]

Actually gave serious thought to not posting roll today.  Just in case??  I am off work for a long weekend and started thinking about the "good old days" of drinking and dipping and doing yardwork etc.  What a dumbass!!  This bitch don't give up easy, does she?  WTF, one hundred and forty something days and I still have these thoughts.  Is this normal??  What the hell is wrong with me??

Can't ever go back. Gotta go post, later.

IG2H the "good ole days" of being a slave to a fuckin weed? ODAAT is the way we do it here you know that. Don't get caught up in the past and start giving Nic any credit for the "good times". Post roll everyday and make the promise to me, billy bob, johnny, and most importantly to yourself. Proud to be quit with you today. NAFAR!!

Hey Ryan that's one of Nikki's oldest tricks - making you remember dipping fondly. Making you believe it enhanced those weekends. It's all a lie bro. Dipping did not enhance those fishing trips or golf games or yardwork, it made all of those events worse. Think about this : Is it more enjoyable to do yardwork and have a couple of beers OR is it more enjoyable to do yardwork, have a couple of beers, and actively poison your body with something that could actually result in your death? The answer is simple my friend. Tobacco is nothing but a pack of lies man every bit of it. You were tricked into paying your own hard earned money to poison yourself. Don't let that bitch come whispering in your ear...kick her to the curb. By FAR the worst craving I ever had was around day 143 or 144 so its normal - it happens. Go into my intro and find my post from that day and you will see what I mean. It damn near brought me to tears I was so upset. She is persistent but easy to defeat when your mind is in the right place. Never glorify or romanticize tobacco - thats part of the lie - probably the biggest part. Not considering posting roll? That's Nikki getting way to close to you bro. Keep your guard up at all times. AGGRESSIVELY quit. Own your quit like I know you do - like you have so far. We all hit speed bumps man - let it reinvigorate you and empower your quit. You're a bad man. A lot badder than a little can of lying poison. Reach out if you need anything you've got my number. Quit on.