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Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

Sorry to hear about your dad, I'm quitting with you today.

That blows. We are quit with you, bro.

Stay strong and realize you are doing the right thing.

Thanks guys. What a bummer. I never sensed a true NAFAR attitude with him. I gave him the Alan Carr book that SM gave to me and he never read it.

It was great to celebrate being quit with him. A strong common bond while it lasted. Oh well. I have nothing left to say to him about nicotine, although I will probably make it a point to brag to him about my milestones. Nothing wrong with that. He has made his choice............ And I have made mine.

IG2H 593 QLF today

Really proud for you, and sad for your dad. Some people don't want to be free. Remember shawshank redemption and how brooks didn't understand freedom after so many years?

You are no brooks.

Sorry to hear, and baffled that your Dad would choose to go back to the poison... QLF with you EDD.

That completely sucks. This hits me for a couple of reasons:

A - you basically lost a co-quitter with you that has had a long term bond with you.

B - your father is still alive and has the ability to change and to help celebrate your quit along the way; my father didn't have that chance or I should say I didn't

It sucks when you see a hero fail! If your father means half as much to you as my father did to me then you are feeling that sense of "DAMN" I can't believe that man that I looked up to for so long who seemed to do no wrong fucked up.

I know the 30 from KTC would be ready to tie into someone for caving like this and I am sure that same man has spoken some words, but I urge you to try again and explain to him how much his addiction affected your life prior and how it is affecting your life now.

You don't need luck because you are you, but I pray for you to have resolve and patient words while you work through things.

[B-loMatt]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

Sorry to hear about your dad, I'm quitting with you today.

That blows. We are quit with you, bro.

Stay strong and realize you are doing the right thing.

Thanks guys. What a bummer. I never sensed a true NAFAR attitude with him. I gave him the Alan Carr book that SM gave to me and he never read it.

It was great to celebrate being quit with him. A strong common bond while it lasted. Oh well. I have nothing left to say to him about nicotine, although I will probably make it a point to brag to him about my milestones. Nothing wrong with that. He has made his choice............ And I have made mine.

IG2H 593 QLF today

Really proud for you, and sad for your dad. Some people don't want to be free. Remember shawshank redemption and how brooks didn't understand freedom after so many years?

You are no brooks.

Sorry to hear, and baffled that your Dad would choose to go back to the poison... QLF with you EDD.

[worktowin]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

Sorry to hear about your dad, I'm quitting with you today.

That blows. We are quit with you, bro.

Stay strong and realize you are doing the right thing.

Thanks guys. What a bummer. I never sensed a true NAFAR attitude with him. I gave him the Alan Carr book that SM gave to me and he never read it.

It was great to celebrate being quit with him. A strong common bond while it lasted. Oh well. I have nothing left to say to him about nicotine, although I will probably make it a point to brag to him about my milestones. Nothing wrong with that. He has made his choice............ And I have made mine.

IG2H 593 QLF today

Really proud for you, and sad for your dad. Some people don't want to be free. Remember shawshank redemption and how brooks didn't understand freedom after so many years?

You are no brooks.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit.  I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

Sorry to hear about your dad, I'm quitting with you today.

That blows. We are quit with you, bro.

Stay strong and realize you are doing the right thing.

Thanks guys. What a bummer. I never sensed a true NAFAR attitude with him. I gave him the Alan Carr book that SM gave to me and he never read it.

It was great to celebrate being quit with him. A strong common bond while it lasted. Oh well. I have nothing left to say to him about nicotine, although I will probably make it a point to brag to him about my milestones. Nothing wrong with that. He has made his choice............ And I have made mine.

IG2H 593 QLF today

[Diesel2112]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

Sorry to hear about your dad, I'm quitting with you today.

That blows. We are quit with you, bro.

Stay strong and realize you are doing the right thing.

[mich 34]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

Sorry to hear about your dad, I'm quitting with you today.

[wastepanel]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

It doesn't have to happen.

You make it happen, and you've done that for a long time. Control your actions. You can't control his. You pegged the addict talk. We think of our dads as superheroes, but they are humans like us.

I'm sorry man and I got your back.

[SirDerek]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

my heart goes out to you as would feel similar if my dad would start again (he quit in the late 1990's).

you just remain strong my friend.

[Its_Got2Happen]

Unfuckingbelievable. I am dumbfounded.

I just returned from my fathers house after in impromptu visit this evening. He broke the bad news to me that decided to have a smoke last week, after having quit 1/1/13.

He quit on the same day that I did. We had no knowledge of each others intentions to quit. I did not even know that he quit smoking until around my HOF time when I called to tell him about my success hoping to inspire him. He informed me that he had not had a smoke since NY eve and that after 52 years of heavy smoking he was done. His quit road to quit was much different than mine in that it involved heavy doses of habitrol, a giant patch that he used for six months. The NRT seemed to work for him, after the six month step down he did in fact quit, along with the help of a site called Quit Net.

He and I supported each other a great deal during this journey. Quitting nicotine gave us a strong bond and brought us much closer. Well last week he threw all that away and is now back to a pack/day just like that. I thought he was solid. He struggled for a many, many months. Battling depression mostly. But he seemed to snap out of it and really get his shit together. Oh he has all kinds of rationale for his return to smoking............................

doctor said my lungs are clear
now I know I can quit anytime I need to
I am sick of being miserable
I need to get off of the paxil
I used to sleep much better when I smoked
I can finally enjoy a cup of coffee again
I am so relaxed when I smoke
blah, blah, blah and on and on and on..............................................

I was so crushed that I did not really know what to say. I told him that all of his justifications sounded like addict babble to me. I told him that if really WANTS to smoke that nothing can help him. He told me that I couldn't possibly understand. 52 years was just too long. My 25 years didn't compare at all. He said it is worth it for me to quit because I am so young, but it is too late for him and doesn't matter. 65 years old. Pathetic. WTF.

I am angry. I am hurt. I am disappointed. I thought my dad was a bad ass quitter and it turns out he is a weak caver. Addiction is a bitch. 593 for me tomorrow. NAFAR. I guess I will celebrate 600 with someone else. At least I am I good company on here.

Quit on.

[SirDerek]

Spent a couple days at the hunting camp this weekend. Walked behind the DR field and brush mower for 6 hours, removed about 20 monster autumn olive bushes, relocated a 20 ft ladder stand, hung 2 other stands, and accomplished a bunch of other hunting related tasks. What an awesome day in the woods.

When I was through I drove over to an old friends house and spent the evening on his boat, drinking beer and talking by the bonfire. Normally on a weekend like this I would have plowed through at least a full log of grizzly wintergreen. Around 600 days ago I was fully convinced that I would never be able to do things like this without dipping. WELL I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO HAVE BEEN SO WRONG. Fuck you nicotine, I win again. 'Finger'

Newbies listen up........................ If you are new to this quitting thing, STAY THE COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It gets so much better. You do NOT need nicotine. PERIOD. I realize this now. It was never the crutch that I thought it was. It was a fucking anchor.

Say whaaaaat?????

You CAN do all that stuff without a mouth full of shit and still enjoy it?????

Get the fuck out of here.

Seriously, take note newbies....this guy knows his shit. You want proof it gets better, here it is.

Quit on, bitches...

Sounds like you've been busy!

Congratulations Ryan! Yesterday a guy with about 120 days under his belt was having a hard time. He doesn't think it will ever get better. He's in a funk. Hall of fame wasn't the victory day he had hoped for. He is tired of fighting and kind of hopeless.

I read his words, and I remembered your intro. The struggle. The fight. The waiting. But, always honoring your word. And now, the reward! Everyone's journey is different, but freedom tastes the same to all that have fought for it.

I hope a lot of new quitters read this start to finish, because you, better than just about anyone, told your story. From darkness to light, one day at a time.

Awesome! Love that you are winning every day! The newbies need to know that there is hope for a better life without the poison. Keep killing it Ryan.

Ryan, you have come a long long way, I only wish others could hang through it all and see what you do at this time.

Well done and proud to call you a member of my family.

[B-loMatt]

Spent a couple days at the hunting camp this weekend. Walked behind the DR field and brush mower for 6 hours, removed about 20 monster autumn olive bushes, relocated a 20 ft ladder stand, hung 2 other stands, and accomplished a bunch of other hunting related tasks. What an awesome day in the woods.

When I was through I drove over to an old friends house and spent the evening on his boat, drinking beer and talking by the bonfire. Normally on a weekend like this I would have plowed through at least a full log of grizzly wintergreen. Around 600 days ago I was fully convinced that I would never be able to do things like this without dipping. WELL I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO HAVE BEEN SO WRONG. Fuck you nicotine, I win again. 'Finger'

Newbies listen up........................ If you are new to this quitting thing, STAY THE COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It gets so much better. You do NOT need nicotine. PERIOD. I realize this now. It was never the crutch that I thought it was. It was a fucking anchor.

Say whaaaaat?????

You CAN do all that stuff without a mouth full of shit and still enjoy it?????

Get the fuck out of here.

Seriously, take note newbies....this guy knows his shit. You want proof it gets better, here it is.

Quit on, bitches...

Sounds like you've been busy!

Congratulations Ryan! Yesterday a guy with about 120 days under his belt was having a hard time. He doesn't think it will ever get better. He's in a funk. Hall of fame wasn't the victory day he had hoped for. He is tired of fighting and kind of hopeless.

I read his words, and I remembered your intro. The struggle. The fight. The waiting. But, always honoring your word. And now, the reward! Everyone's journey is different, but freedom tastes the same to all that have fought for it.

I hope a lot of new quitters read this start to finish, because you, better than just about anyone, told your story. From darkness to light, one day at a time.

Awesome! Love that you are winning every day! The newbies need to know that there is hope for a better life without the poison. Keep killing it Ryan.

[worktowin]

Spent a couple days at the hunting camp this weekend. Walked behind the DR field and brush mower for 6 hours, removed about 20 monster autumn olive bushes, relocated a 20 ft ladder stand, hung 2 other stands, and accomplished a bunch of other hunting related tasks. What an awesome day in the woods.

When I was through I drove over to an old friends house and spent the evening on his boat, drinking beer and talking by the bonfire. Normally on a weekend like this I would have plowed through at least a full log of grizzly wintergreen. Around 600 days ago I was fully convinced that I would never be able to do things like this without dipping. WELL I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO HAVE BEEN SO WRONG. Fuck you nicotine, I win again. 'Finger'

Newbies listen up........................ If you are new to this quitting thing, STAY THE COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It gets so much better. You do NOT need nicotine. PERIOD. I realize this now. It was never the crutch that I thought it was. It was a fucking anchor.

Say whaaaaat?????

You CAN do all that stuff without a mouth full of shit and still enjoy it?????

Get the fuck out of here.

Seriously, take note newbies....this guy knows his shit. You want proof it gets better, here it is.

Quit on, bitches...

Sounds like you've been busy!

Congratulations Ryan! Yesterday a guy with about 120 days under his belt was having a hard time. He doesn't think it will ever get better. He's in a funk. Hall of fame wasn't the victory day he had hoped for. He is tired of fighting and kind of hopeless.

I read his words, and I remembered your intro. The struggle. The fight. The waiting. But, always honoring your word. And now, the reward! Everyone's journey is different, but freedom tastes the same to all that have fought for it.

I hope a lot of new quitters read this start to finish, because you, better than just about anyone, told your story. From darkness to light, one day at a time.

[Diesel2112]

Spent a couple days at the hunting camp this weekend. Walked behind the DR field and brush mower for 6 hours, removed about 20 monster autumn olive bushes, relocated a 20 ft ladder stand, hung 2 other stands, and accomplished a bunch of other hunting related tasks. What an awesome day in the woods.

When I was through I drove over to an old friends house and spent the evening on his boat, drinking beer and talking by the bonfire. Normally on a weekend like this I would have plowed through at least a full log of grizzly wintergreen. Around 600 days ago I was fully convinced that I would never be able to do things like this without dipping. WELL I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO HAVE BEEN SO WRONG. Fuck you nicotine, I win again. 'Finger'

Newbies listen up........................ If you are new to this quitting thing, STAY THE COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It gets so much better. You do NOT need nicotine. PERIOD. I realize this now. It was never the crutch that I thought it was. It was a fucking anchor.

Say whaaaaat?????

You CAN do all that stuff without a mouth full of shit and still enjoy it?????

Get the fuck out of here.

Seriously, take note newbies....this guy knows his shit. You want proof it gets better, here it is.

Quit on, bitches...

[Its_Got2Happen]

Spent a couple days at the hunting camp this weekend. Walked behind the DR field and brush mower for 6 hours, removed about 20 monster autumn olive bushes, relocated a 20 ft ladder stand, hung 2 other stands, and accomplished a bunch of other hunting related tasks. What an awesome day in the woods.

When I was through I drove over to an old friends house and spent the evening on his boat, drinking beer and talking by the bonfire. Normally on a weekend like this I would have plowed through at least a full log of grizzly wintergreen. Around 600 days ago I was fully convinced that I would never be able to do things like this without dipping. WELL I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO HAVE BEEN SO WRONG. Fuck you nicotine, I win again. 'Finger'

Newbies listen up........................ If you are new to this quitting thing, STAY THE COURSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It gets so much better. You do NOT need nicotine. PERIOD. I realize this now. It was never the crutch that I thought it was. It was a fucking anchor.

[worktowin]

I have been quit for 567 days. Is there strength in that number? Perhaps? Perhaps not though. The only day that matter is still today.

I hear a lot of talk about not needing to post roll anymore. After all I really don't crave much anymore, roll is a hassle, don't really need the site, my quit is really strong, etc, etc, blah, blah, blah. I hear this talk not only around here but also in my own head.

I recognize these words, (and thoughts) for what they are. That is, the whispers of the nic bitch. She doesn't care about your day count. If I were to ever step away from the site I would do so with the full knowledge that I am choosing to remove my armor. I sure don't see that happening anytime soon.


Even just yesterday for a about 2 seconds the thought of dipping crossed my mind. I thought the following,


"I am off work for the next 4 days, ahhhhh, I could get some dip, and really blaze through all this yardwork that I have to do. I could just use this weekend and pitch it again on Monday".

WTF, where do these thoughts come from at 567 days quit? If this occurred and I had not posted roll, I may be in trouble. If this occurred and I not been on the site in weeks or months, I may be in trouble. If this occurred and I had somehow forgotten I was at addict, I may in trouble. Damn, I am glad I have this site and these friends who I commit to each day. This is why I am here. No more nicotine. No fucking way. It was way to much work to get here and I have too much at stake. This armor is staying on.

By the way 25 lawn bags full of yard waste. NO DIP. Just a bag of seeds. 'na na' Fuck you nicotine, I win.

Ryan

The 500s are a great time. Feel good. Rarely think about nicotine except when I'm on ktc, and I need that reminder. The rare other times are like a reflex, which I guess after us doing something for 25 years and stopping for 1.5 years kinds makes sense, but it still pisses me off.

One thing that I, and I'm sure you, have noticed is that after HOF the only people that fail and come back to the site posting a day 1 again are the peeps that stop posting roll. No thanks. I failed every day for 25 years. You'll see my name on roll. I'm not going anywhere.

I equate posting roll to wearing a seatbelt. Remember when it became law? (Man I feel old). Everyone complained and it took years for everyone to adapt. Now it seems insane that someone would choose to not wear a seatbelt. Same with posting roll.

Some good poop right there fellas. Thanks for posting that up.

Damn straight!

Good post ryan.

I noticed after i posted roll and while I'm writing in this intro that it really hasn't taken to much of my effort. I'm still going be able to conduct business as usual today. My hands and fingers are not to tired from hitting keys on a keyboard. I am still able to drink my coffee, watch the news and take in breakfast. I'll begin my run shortly and still get to the yard work.

I too have heard excuse after excuse not to post roll, not only from others, but my own inner addict. When i hear a good excuse to believe an addict I'll let you know, but until then I'll keep posting with my friends here. It's worked for 526 days. All I've had to do is keep my word and it took time to get where I'm at. What do i mean!?!? 527 days ago my word wasn't worth spit! Now it means something! If i stop posting my word daily,,, how long before i begin listening to an addict once again. It won't be today,,, you got MY WORD!

Day 782 you won't even have that silly thought.

28 bags?

Do you have a horse buried in your backyard?