You guys are so right. Thanks for the support. I do need an outlet, exercise is probably the key. Winter sucks!! I used to have some good exercise habits but anymore I work long hours 7am-7pm, get home and get 3 kids in bed, shit I barely have energy to eat dinner, LOL. Cant wait to get on the mountain bike again when winter is over. In the meantime I will try to get my ass to the gym.
Knock out some sit ups or push ups in front of the TV. Personally I used to do jumping jacks like a mother fucker when I was full to the brim with anxiety. Your body is in fight or fligh mode. Excersise wlill help. Read this:
Physical exercise can also turn down the activity of an overactive fight or flight response
Perhaps the simplest, best way to turn down the activity of our fight or flight response is by physical exercise. Remember that the natural conclusion of fight or flight is vigorous physical activity. When we exercise, we metabolize excessive stress hormones—restoring our body and mind to a calmer, more relaxed state.
For the purpose of stress reduction and counteracting the fight or flight response, we do not need to exercise for 30 to 40 minutes. Any form of activity where we "work up a sweat" for five minutes will effectively metabolize off—and prevent the excessive buildup of—stress hormones. Get down and do 50 pushups, 50 sit-ups, jumping jacks, jump rope, run in place, run up and down the stairs, whatever. By exercising to the point of sweating, we effectively counteract the ill effects of the fight of flight response, drawing it to its natural conclusion.
Sometimes when IÂ’m upset,I close the door to my office, do 25 quick pushups, work up a light sweat, and return to work, clearer and calmer. Frequent repetitions of short exercise are easy to fit into our busy schedules. For full cardiovascular fitness, longer periods of exercise do have additional benefits, but for the purpose of stress reduction, mini-exercise sessions are practical, effective and beneficial.
Exercise increases our natural endorphins, which help us to feel better. When we feel good, our thoughts are clearer, our positive beliefs are more accessible and our perceptions are more open. When we feel tired and physically run down, we tend to focus on what’s not working in our lives—similar to a cranky child needing a nap. It is difficult to be, feel or think positive when we are exhausted, sleep deprived or physically out of condition.
Here's a link to more if you're interested ....
http://www.thebodysoulconnection.com/Ed ... fight.html