Welcome Mike,
Its great to have you on board and ready to take on your quit. I'm going to disect your first post and hopefully add some insight and/or advice. I'm only at day 20, not far from where you are at now, but I am fully commited to quitting and helping anybody I can.
Before my quit 2days ago I had a chew 90% of every waking hour.
I used to be just like this, chewing for 17 years. The only time I spit it out was for eating, sleeping, or sex. Fucking pathetic
95% of the team chewed and I wanted to be a part of it.
I, too, wanted to be a part of the fire crew that I was working with. Chewing was the cool thing to do.
it's the whole reason I got started in this deadly game.
Fucking peer pressure. When minds are young and impressionable, as was mine, I thought it was cool and never thought of the consequences of the DEADLY GAME.
how chewing became such a positive/reward for me?
all kinds of stuff had warped my mind into believing chewing was helping me.
It is an addiction, like cocaine, heroin, meth - YEP - It fucks with your mind.
vowed I would quit only to have a chew a couple hours after.
Been there brother! I tell people have "stopped" many times and yet to "quit" - UNTIL I CAME TO THIS WEBSITE. This is the longest I have ever gone without the nic bitch. And I'm damn proud of it!
I realized I was truly addicted.
Knowing this is part of the quit process - never forget we ARE addicts.
I realize it's going to be hard it's something that needs to be done.
Its damn hard, but can be done. Look at all of the vets on this site!!! Listen to them and read what they have to say.
they try to wreck it for them and make quitting so hard.
Time to man up and be the person you want to be. As for your so-called friends - tell them to stuff that cancer in their mouth and while they are at it, go suck a bit fat donkey dick.
Plain and simple though I'm sick of giving into the addiction,
You're ready! Let the adventure begin! Post roll call, give your word and never put that shit in your mouth again!
If I keep this dumb addiction up I could be the one who leaves life early
There isn't any IF's, you will die from this shit.
In order to get to 100days, I'm going to have to take it one day at a time, one battle at a time, but I know I can make it with this team's support (killthecan.org) IÂ’m going to work as hard as I can to do my best and when tough times pop up I'll be ready to fight my way through it so I can finally do the right thing and kick this bad habit!
One day at a time brother! Stay close to this site, post often, and ask for help. That why we are here. To quit, and help each other stay quit. PM any of us for help at any time. Get some phone numbers from other quitters. Post roll every day and give your word. NEVER DIP AGAIN.