My name is Dan, and I have made the decision to quiet dipping for the second official time. Before this latest blunder, I hadn't had a dip in long time, but I still wanted and craved them. I guess I didn't really quit for that year, I just kept telling myself I had quit. Before that I dipped Grizzly Wintergreen Long Cut, that was my choice of poison, and it became a part of my life at 12 years old. I had an older brother who dipped, and I just wanted to "be cool like the older guys"
Well it wasn't long after I started that I became addicted to it. Fast forward from the age of 12 to the age of 20, and I was going through 2 cans a day, easily.
As I said, I quit for about 1 year... And just last week, I found myself in the all to familiar position.. Standing in race trac, thinking about my job, bills, trying to save up to buy a house, and just about every other little thing that can cause stress...
And... I caved.... I bought a can of Grizzly Wintergreen pouches...
I sure enough dipped them...
Honestly I am ashamed of myself... I've always considered myself such a strong person, but here I am, not even strong enough to let a $3 plastic can control me.
I understand addiction, I was a police officer for 3 years and took plenty of classes on addiction...
But I hate to admit, that I am addicted...
Dip has caused more bad in my life than anything, it has caused issues with my marriage, past jobs, it looks and smells disgusting, is bad for you, and quite frankly is a waste of money...
Dip has controlled me... To the point I hid it from the ones I loved the most, only to be caught, and exposed for what I was doing... Choosing my habit over everyone and everything...
Well, I am tired of letting dip control me, I want to quit and quit for the rest of my life, I want to see someone with a dip in and not have any thought or care about them. I want to stand in race trac paying for gas and not even care that there is a can in the whole place.
I know this is long, but I just need guidance and support, I need to be able to talk to and vent to people who understand first hand what I'm dealing with... I want to win this fight so bad, I'm sick and tired of dip, using it or wanting it...
My quit date is 4/3/2015... Good Friday.
I'm so ready to put this behind me, and move on!
Thanks for reading, sorry so long winded.
- Dan