Gentlemen and perhaps Ladies,
My name is Mike, I'm 41 years old, I live in Colorado and have been on the Copenhagen snuff train for 26 years. As much as a can a day early on, but for the past 10 or so years it's more like a can every two or three days. I don't believe in the past 26 years that I've gone a full 24 hours without having a dip in at some point. Like so many others, I've lied and cheated to myself and others in the name of the tin-bitch. This is a terrible track record.
Since January 01 of this year, I've really backed off my dipping and have been using a can or two per week in concert with nic-gum....so the nic amount is not changed I'm sure and I'm not doing myself any good thinking "I'm getting somewhere". Did I mention I'm a dumbass?
Last night I found you guys while surfing the internet with a dip in. I read a bunch. I stood up, got pissed off and told my wife "this is fucking it!" I grabbed the new can I bought yesterday and dumped it down the toilet at 8:30pm. I slept well last night (surely to be a rarity in short order).
Though I refuse to use tobacco today, I can't say I'm quit right now since I already had a piece of nic gum today. I will save my official quit until tommorrow (when I WILL NOT use the nic gum as a crutch) when the July 2009 group starts and I will introduce myself to them.
When I joined the site this morning, I thought useage of nic gum would be accepted by the community as an alternative, but I see that it is not. AND I FULLY UNDERSTAND WHY. It's the wussy way out.
Fuck, this is going to be tough.
Mike