My good cave

[Wt57]

Day 69 Im back and my funk has passed! finally!

ONE DAY (unit) AT A TIME!

What a simple concept, almost too simple to take serious until you think about it.

Life is about one day at a time. Each of our lives began as one day at a time. One word, one step, one friend, some of the days were rewarding and successful others not so much. (IÂ’ve been working on this one for 55 yrs)

Those of you that are married: marriage is one day at a time, some fun and rewarding others difficult and depressing. (IÂ’ve been working on this one for 32 yr)

Raising children: One exciting moment and success after another, stumbles and falls, ups and downs, happy days and really sad days. One sleepless night after another when they are newborn to one sleepless night after another when they are teens. (IÂ’ve been working on this one for 31 yrs)

Addiction to NICOTINE: That happened one day (one pinch) at a time; I seriously doubt that any of you started dipping a full can a day. For me it was probably a small pinch every day or two, then a pinch a day, a pinch two or three times a day, Till I had the shit in my mouth literally 24/7. (IÂ’ve been working on this one for nearly 40 yrs.)

QUIT: Why should our quit be any different? Simply stated it canÂ’t be. Quitting our addiction to nicotine is a process, a long process, one day at a time. It may end up being one minute at a time when we first start the process. Remember ONE UNIT AT A TIME. One day, one minute, one success, one triumph, one crave, one trigger, one cry, one rage , etc. (IÂ’ve been working on this one for 69 days)

When each day ends I will continue to examine how I preformed that day and how I can improve on it, when I report in the next day. This is the process of Life, Live it to your greatest potential and be proud of your accomplishments. I have got to say that I am proud of my quit and proud to be quit with each of you addicts. Because of my addiction I haven't allowed myself to be proud of much for a very long time.

[Wt57]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.     'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

This is sadly part of the process....

Don't stop posting but maybe just do some HOF speech reading but stay away from some of the drama!

I can see the usefulness to stay at arms length for a little bit but dont shut this place out completely we all need the accountability even if we dont like the accountability!

PM me if you need any help brother

I agree with Grizzly. I also understand the feelings. My quit has been very bi-polar, I have had some of the highest highs and then suddenly hit with the lowest of lows. It amazed me how fast it could change.

You just have a quick storm burst in your mind. Take cover, ride out the storm and I promise you will see rays of sunshine and the clouds will go away.

Just post roll for now and keep your word. It will get better. I also wouldn't over analyze what you are feeling. Just ride it out. It will change.

I have been feeling the exact same way. Fine one minute, funk the next. Lately, I've just been posting roll, updating the july sheet and not reading the site until I do it again the next morning.

Sometimes you gotta take a break I guess, just not from posting roll.

I went through this too around day 70. Worst funk by far I didn't want to dip, didn't crave just tired of fighting. I needed up talking this all natural stuff HTP-5 for a while. Your brain is reqiring and adjusting it takes time. The biggest shock to me through out my quit was the mental journey I've been on. I came through my funk like most funks in 4-5 days. Hang tough you are doing great and going through the normal course of things.

Day 80 was the ultimate low point in my quit. I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry in the corner of my office. I ended up talking one of my fellow April 12 brothers off the ledge that day. We share the same quit day and apparently our "that time of the month" cycles are coordinated as well.

Stay strong brother! Let me know if you need anything or a hug. I even do jock coddling on Fridays.

Thanks guys, I know you are all right! Damn that prick that used that shit for nearly 40 yrs. Tried to stay away but keep getting compelled to comment to newbies, it's therapeutic. I've been having some good moments (giving me some hope). Now after 4 days of mostly "don't give a shit" I got hit by some Intense craving. This was the first real crave since the first week. Oh I had short lived craves but not like this! I decided to come here and just release the tension that has been building. Like before my quit is golden, I'm strong, the shit actually makes my determination stronger! I thought that the suck was getting better, guess not, I'm going to continue to embrace more suck I guess. Bring it on bitch the suck tempers my quit!
The strength that I draw from my wife and you degenerate addicts is amazing. I thank God every day for each of you and KTC.

[Coach Steve]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.     'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

This is sadly part of the process....

Don't stop posting but maybe just do some HOF speech reading but stay away from some of the drama!

I can see the usefulness to stay at arms length for a little bit but dont shut this place out completely we all need the accountability even if we dont like the accountability!

PM me if you need any help brother

I agree with Grizzly. I also understand the feelings. My quit has been very bi-polar, I have had some of the highest highs and then suddenly hit with the lowest of lows. It amazed me how fast it could change.

You just have a quick storm burst in your mind. Take cover, ride out the storm and I promise you will see rays of sunshine and the clouds will go away.

Just post roll for now and keep your word. It will get better. I also wouldn't over analyze what you are feeling. Just ride it out. It will change.

I have been feeling the exact same way. Fine one minute, funk the next. Lately, I've just been posting roll, updating the july sheet and not reading the site until I do it again the next morning.

Sometimes you gotta take a break I guess, just not from posting roll.

I went through this too around day 70. Worst funk by far I didn't want to dip, didn't crave just tired of fighting. I needed up talking this all natural stuff HTP-5 for a while. Your brain is reqiring and adjusting it takes time. The biggest shock to me through out my quit was the mental journey I've been on. I came through my funk like most funks in 4-5 days. Hang tough you are doing great and going through the normal course of things.

Day 80 was the ultimate low point in my quit. I wanted to curl up in a ball and cry in the corner of my office. I ended up talking one of my fellow April 12 brothers off the ledge that day. We share the same quit day and apparently our "that time of the month" cycles are coordinated as well.

Stay strong brother! Let me know if you need anything or a hug. I even do jock coddling on Fridays.

[Mcarmo44]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.     'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

This is sadly part of the process....

Don't stop posting but maybe just do some HOF speech reading but stay away from some of the drama!

I can see the usefulness to stay at arms length for a little bit but dont shut this place out completely we all need the accountability even if we dont like the accountability!

PM me if you need any help brother

I agree with Grizzly. I also understand the feelings. My quit has been very bi-polar, I have had some of the highest highs and then suddenly hit with the lowest of lows. It amazed me how fast it could change.

You just have a quick storm burst in your mind. Take cover, ride out the storm and I promise you will see rays of sunshine and the clouds will go away.

Just post roll for now and keep your word. It will get better. I also wouldn't over analyze what you are feeling. Just ride it out. It will change.

I have been feeling the exact same way. Fine one minute, funk the next. Lately, I've just been posting roll, updating the july sheet and not reading the site until I do it again the next morning.

Sometimes you gotta take a break I guess, just not from posting roll.

I went through this too around day 70. Worst funk by far I didn't want to dip, didn't crave just tired of fighting. I needed up talking this all natural stuff HTP-5 for a while. Your brain is reqiring and adjusting it takes time. The biggest shock to me through out my quit was the mental journey I've been on. I came through my funk like most funks in 4-5 days. Hang tough you are doing great and going through the normal course of things.

[Kubrick]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.     'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

This is sadly part of the process....

Don't stop posting but maybe just do some HOF speech reading but stay away from some of the drama!

I can see the usefulness to stay at arms length for a little bit but dont shut this place out completely we all need the accountability even if we dont like the accountability!

PM me if you need any help brother

I agree with Grizzly. I also understand the feelings. My quit has been very bi-polar, I have had some of the highest highs and then suddenly hit with the lowest of lows. It amazed me how fast it could change.

You just have a quick storm burst in your mind. Take cover, ride out the storm and I promise you will see rays of sunshine and the clouds will go away.

Just post roll for now and keep your word. It will get better. I also wouldn't over analyze what you are feeling. Just ride it out. It will change.

I have been feeling the exact same way. Fine one minute, funk the next. Lately, I've just been posting roll, updating the july sheet and not reading the site until I do it again the next morning.

Sometimes you gotta take a break I guess, just not from posting roll.

[Mthomas3824]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.     'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

This is sadly part of the process....

Don't stop posting but maybe just do some HOF speech reading but stay away from some of the drama!

I can see the usefulness to stay at arms length for a little bit but dont shut this place out completely we all need the accountability even if we dont like the accountability!

PM me if you need any help brother

I agree with Grizzly. I also understand the feelings. My quit has been very bi-polar, I have had some of the highest highs and then suddenly hit with the lowest of lows. It amazed me how fast it could change.

You just have a quick storm burst in your mind. Take cover, ride out the storm and I promise you will see rays of sunshine and the clouds will go away.

Just post roll for now and keep your word. It will get better. I also wouldn't over analyze what you are feeling. Just ride it out. It will change.

[Grizzly25]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.    'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

This is sadly part of the process....

Don't stop posting but maybe just do some HOF speech reading but stay away from some of the drama!

I can see the usefulness to stay at arms length for a little bit but dont shut this place out completely we all need the accountability even if we dont like the accountability!

PM me if you need any help brother

[Notdeadyet]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters:  I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily.  The issue I'm dealing with is very odd.  I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related!  On the other hand maybe it is.  If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone. 

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit).  I've always associated depression with chew.  I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave.  My quit is not in jepordy, not even close!  I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened.  I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!.    'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

Read this from the beginning: Emotional roller coaster

Sorry WT, you are not a special butterfly, just a normal addict brain getting rewired. It will get better, much better!

[jjprice]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters: I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily. The issue I'm dealing with is very odd. I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related! On the other hand maybe it is. If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone.

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit). I've always associated depression with chew. I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave. My quit is not in jepordy, not even close! I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened. I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!. 'Crazy'

I think it's a pretty normal thing. It's happened to me a couple of times, the biggest swing I think was around day 105 or something.

When I posted roll I felt invincible, ready to shout it from the rooftops "I'm on top of the world!!!" By noon I was craving like a crack addict.

It can be really depressing, but don't let it get you down. Like the rest of your quit you'll just put your head down and barrel through it.

You go this. You don't dip, so there's no way you can cave right?!? Simple as that!!

[Wt57]

'Crazy'
Fellow quitters: I hesitate to post this, I don't want to be hit by a flood of text, calls or really anything else I feel your support daily. The issue I'm dealing with is very odd. I really don't think the attitude that hit me yesterday is dip or quit related! On the other hand maybe it is. If anyone has similar thing happen share it here to help everyone.

I went from the highest point in my quit on Wednesday to the very lowest point in my quit In just a few hours, my attitude started out as I don't give a shit and rapidly progressed into a much deeper depression with thought that I haven't had in months (depression has been a part of my life for decades however it's been under control throughout my quit). I've always associated depression with chew. I never knew if I chewed to self medicate or if I was depressed because I knew I was a helpless slave. My quit is not in jepordy, not even close! I just need to stand back and try to figure out what happened. I may back away for awhile and limit my contact to posting roll till I figure this out!

My quit is not in danger!!. 'Crazy'

[Buddy Mac]

I had an experience today that I feel that I need to comment on: Last week I learned of a seminar that I could go to that would further some education requirements that I needed for a license that I currently hold. This class was about 3 hrs from home, and would be with a group of people that I knew would consist of a large percent of dippers. At first I thought of and entertained the thought of a planned cave. I thought of it for several days, and then I had a dip dream about the day.
Today was the day of the class. As today became closer I fantasised about a dip.
I had thoughts, that know one would know, etc. Then last night I realized that I would be letting myself down and that I would also be letting all my quit friends down as well.
I had to leave early this morning and I posted my promise to each of you that I would return still quit, I held my wife's hand and told her of the thoughts that I had had and I promised her that I would return quit. I knew that most of the travel time would be completely out of cell coverage and I wasn't sure if when I got to the class if there would be cell coverage or wifi. There was both, but didn't need them for my quit, even though I did make some contacts and reported to some of my quit buddies.
The whole experience turned into one of the most strengthening events of my quit. I got to the town early and filled with gas and got a pop; the cans behind the counter repulsed me. Part of our class was outside in a parking lot doing some hands on work. I stood by a teenage little prick that packed a tiny little pinch in his lip, that he bumped from a friend. He could hardly keep from gagging, and he continually spit at our feet. If he missed a spit you could see his face turn green. I kept thinking did I smell like this little prick all the time, it was gross.
Everything about today strengthened my quit. Then when I headed home I sent my wife a text that we got out early. She texted back "buckle your seat belt and stay quit". One of the best things about my quit is the relationship with my lovely wife who has put up with my bullshit dipping for 32 yrs.
Thanks to all of those that were with me today in my quit.
I DID RETURN WITH HONOR TODAY!!!

Good stuff WT... I am right there with you . I wonder sometimes if I smelt like that , hell if I looked like that. I see dudes with their lip poking off their face and I am happy as hell that that is no longer me.. Stay Quit Brother.

[Suck-It]

I had an experience today that I feel that I need to comment on: Last week I learned of a seminar that I could go to that would further some education requirements that I needed for a license that I currently hold. This class was about 3 hrs from home, and would be with a group of people that I knew would consist of a large percent of dippers. At first I thought of and entertained the thought of a planned cave. I thought of it for several days, and then I had a dip dream about the day.
Today was the day of the class. As today became closer I fantasised about a dip.
I had thoughts, that know one would know, etc. Then last night I realized that I would be letting myself down and that I would also be letting all my quit friends down as well.
I had to leave early this morning and I posted my promise to each of you that I would return still quit, I held my wife's hand and told her of the thoughts that I had had and I promised her that I would return quit. I knew that most of the travel time would be completely out of cell coverage and I wasn't sure if when I got to the class if there would be cell coverage or wifi. There was both, but didn't need them for my quit, even though I did make some contacts and reported to some of my quit buddies.
The whole experience turned into one of the most strengthening events of my quit. I got to the town early and filled with gas and got a pop; the cans behind the counter repulsed me. Part of our class was outside in a parking lot doing some hands on work. I stood by a teenage little prick that packed a tiny little pinch in his lip, that he bumped from a friend. He could hardly keep from gagging, and he continually spit at our feet. If he missed a spit you could see his face turn green. I kept thinking did I smell like this little prick all the time, it was gross.
Everything about today strengthened my quit. Then when I headed home I sent my wife a text that we got out early. She texted back "buckle your seat belt and stay quit". One of the best things about my quit is the relationship with my lovely wife who has put up with my bullshit dipping for 32 yrs.
Thanks to all of those that were with me today in my quit.
I DID RETURN WITH HONOR TODAY!!!

Great job WT - thanks for sharing. Very proud of you and great to hear that your wife is so supportive. You are a true inspiration to us all.

Keep beating down the bitch - one day at a time.

Great Victory

[Wedge]

She texted back "buckle your seat belt and stay quit".

That's awesome WT. Beyond the great quit story that surrounded your wife's comment, this sentence stuck out the most. Having a partner there with you who can text you the same support that we can who you then get to see and feel when you get home makes your quit that much better. By the way, I had no doubts about you coming back quit.

Good to know what you meant by learning something about yourself from your text last night.

[Grizzly25]

I had an experience today that I feel that I need to comment on:  Last week I learned of a seminar that I could go to that would further some education requirements that I needed for a license that I currently hold.  This class was about 3 hrs from home, and would be with a group of people that I knew would consist of a large percent of dippers.  At first I thought of and entertained the thought of a planned cave.  I thought of it for several days, and then I had a dip dream about the day. 
Today was the day of the class.  As today became closer I fantasised about a dip.
I had thoughts, that know one would know, etc.  Then last night I realized that I would be letting myself down and that I would also be letting all my quit friends down as well. 
I had to leave early this morning and I posted my promise to each of you that I would return still quit, I held my wife's hand and told her of the thoughts that I had had and I promised her that I would return quit.  I knew that most of the travel time would be completely out of cell coverage and I wasn't sure if when I got to the class if there would be cell coverage or wifi.  There was both, but didn't need them for my quit, even though I did make some contacts and reported to some of my quit buddies.
The whole experience turned into one of the most strengthening events of my quit.  I got to the town early and filled with gas and got a pop; the cans behind the counter repulsed me.  Part of our class was outside in a parking lot doing some hands on work.  I stood by a teenage little prick that packed a tiny little pinch in his lip, that he bumped from a friend.  He could hardly keep from gagging, and he continually spit at our feet. If he missed a spit you could see his face turn green.  I kept thinking did I smell like this little prick all the time, it was gross. 
Everything about today strengthened my quit.  Then when I headed home I sent my wife a text that we got out early.  She texted back "buckle your seat belt and stay quit".  One of the best things about my quit is the relationship with my lovely wife who has put up with my bullshit dipping for 32 yrs.
Thanks to all of those that were with me today in my quit.
I DID RETURN WITH HONOR TODAY!!!

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Well done my friend! Way to win a battle....for all of us!

Thanks for sharing your victory.

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'worship'

Great victories are best shared!

I am proud to be quit with you today!

[Mthomas3824]

I had an experience today that I feel that I need to comment on: Last week I learned of a seminar that I could go to that would further some education requirements that I needed for a license that I currently hold. This class was about 3 hrs from home, and would be with a group of people that I knew would consist of a large percent of dippers. At first I thought of and entertained the thought of a planned cave. I thought of it for several days, and then I had a dip dream about the day.
Today was the day of the class. As today became closer I fantasised about a dip.
I had thoughts, that know one would know, etc. Then last night I realized that I would be letting myself down and that I would also be letting all my quit friends down as well.
I had to leave early this morning and I posted my promise to each of you that I would return still quit, I held my wife's hand and told her of the thoughts that I had had and I promised her that I would return quit. I knew that most of the travel time would be completely out of cell coverage and I wasn't sure if when I got to the class if there would be cell coverage or wifi. There was both, but didn't need them for my quit, even though I did make some contacts and reported to some of my quit buddies.
The whole experience turned into one of the most strengthening events of my quit. I got to the town early and filled with gas and got a pop; the cans behind the counter repulsed me. Part of our class was outside in a parking lot doing some hands on work. I stood by a teenage little prick that packed a tiny little pinch in his lip, that he bumped from a friend. He could hardly keep from gagging, and he continually spit at our feet. If he missed a spit you could see his face turn green. I kept thinking did I smell like this little prick all the time, it was gross.
Everything about today strengthened my quit. Then when I headed home I sent my wife a text that we got out early. She texted back "buckle your seat belt and stay quit". One of the best things about my quit is the relationship with my lovely wife who has put up with my bullshit dipping for 32 yrs.
Thanks to all of those that were with me today in my quit.
I DID RETURN WITH HONOR TODAY!!!

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Well done my friend! Way to win a battle....for all of us!

Thanks for sharing your victory.