I think addicts in general are the very best liers! I am, or think I am. I can come her and talk trash with you younger guys, gets my testosterone out of retirement. I can push the real me and my real feelings back into some secluded place in my mind. Most of the time the opposite thing happens I can say things here I never say to people around me. I don't handle stress well and never have. What I'm trying to get out is; the last couple weeks I've been fuckin scared--(I know what to expect) and it is probably OK. My mouth is killing me, my tongue hurts so bad it's hard to eat. At first I thought it was just healing, then after couple more weeks thought it was the fake shit so I backed off it. Getting a cleaning and check today along with a reaming from the hygienist ( last time she asked how often I brushed? I told the bitch "everytime I come in here". Guys thanks for listening to my rant! I also feel your support everyday it helps to keep me going.
I feel your pain. I was freaking out too waiting to get to a dentist. Odds are, your OK. Stay strong and get that visit over with and continue with the quit.
Hang in there and keep up the posts. I am enjoying them immensely and they make my quit all that much better.
This is exactly the place to rant brother!!!
The trip to the dentist was the final smack up along side the head 'stick' I needed to quit, when I saw my teeth and gums after they took pictures... 'puking' .... I havent even thought about chewing since!
Anyway keep the great posts comming and stay quit brother!!
I'm scared most the time too. I try to talk a good game. I'm like Owen Wilson in Shanghai Noon. The scene where he squares off with the bad guy. Its going to be a shoot out....
Owen out loud says something tough, but then you hear is thoughts, "oh man what am I doing, this guy is going to kill me?"
I guess all I am trying to say is that I can relate. However, I spent so much time chewing and so much energy worrying and it didn't benefit me.
It seems to always work out. Worry about facts and reality. Not hypothetical.
Easier said than done. I sure can related though. I am tired of fear paralyzing me though. Staying quit has shown me that we have so much more ability to succeed and survive....than we think.
