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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #46 on: October 08, 2015, 04:24:00 AM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
I am proud and humbled to be at 100 days and to be quit with all of you.

I admit I am a bit saddened because we had a cave in our group yesterday. It was a bit of a jarring slap in the face to my FUN BAGS.

I am trying to understand something that maybe some of you can perhaps see through with me. I had one of the worst craves that I can remember last night after getting the news that JOliver had caved in our faces without making any attempt to reach out. Has anyone experienced this sort of vicarious crave? I think maybe it was because I was trying to imagine myself in his shoes and it depressed the shit out of me and being sad is a big trigger.

I feel even more rooted in my quit today knowing that a cave sends a wave that affects my brothers here.

Today, I quit with all of my brothers and sisters here. QLFODAATEDD!

Strong like oak.
I felt the exact same thing all day yesterday after I found out. I was actually a bit depressed for the rest of the evening. What got me through was that I was still quit and because I'm quitting for me first and foremost, I could power through this.

It was difficult to see our brother fail, but his failure makes it even more evident to me why I need to not fail. Proud of you Oak.
My group, the bad ass Fogcutters of April 2013, started with nearly 200 members. I think 12 of us are left. How many of those 188 are chewing up a storm? I dunno... But I bet 150+. To be honest, I don't really care. I posted with them and supported them. They left us, a tribe of addicts that invest all of 20 seconds a day posting our promise to each other. After HOF things tend to go on the crazy train for a while. Glad to see both of you are committed to posting, because a lot of your group thinks 100 is the finish line. It isn't. There are challenges, but most importantly there is greatness ahead

Craves always fall around milestones for me. They are reminders that I'm winning. And that my good choices have prevented me from being one of the 150+ loser ex-fogcutters. Enjoy the win, enjoy the exclusivity, and enjoy the fact that you are doing something that only an elite group of people can brag about. Cavers don't deserve your time.....
Guys, I had plenty....PLENTY... of weak moments. Three of our most active members were ousted from the site in a matter of about 1 month. Another caved well past HOF. I've changed so much (for the better) since Day 100, yet can't even realize how much unless told by others or thinking hard about what I was doing at that time.

I was super, super anxious yesterday and crabby at work.... on Day 275... but that is from work stress and life in general. You know what I did? Went for lunch to Don  Millies and got a double cheeseburger with onion rings and a lemonade. That was my way of coping. Not the healthiest, but then again, I don't make the habit of doing that often and I don't need to. You'll find other ways to cope with the sadness/blahs/depression, etc. than poisoning yourself and handing money over for a can of LIES.

Believe me, I was still a MESS around Day 100. It gets better, but you have to be patient and keep the faith.

Oak (and King)- you are KILLING IT! Keep it up. And who knows, maybe some day you are the positive influence that gets Joliver to log back in and post Day 1 again... whether it is you that reaches out to him or he thinks of you and your ice sculpture hard quit and wants that back in his life. But, for now, Joliver is a giant fraud and pretender, so don't let that negativity get in the way of your quit.
"Enjoy the win, enjoy the exclusivity, and enjoy the fact that you are doing something that only an elite group of people can brag about. Cavers don't deserve your time....."

Ya know Im not to into any sort of elitist attitude but the above statement makes sense to me.

Watching people dog out has been frustrating but its not gonna be me if I have any choice in the matter. 12 people out of 200 after 2 years. Let that shit sink in. Nic claims the majority of us back.

Its all a head trip after the suck and hof and time quits standing still.

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #45 on: October 07, 2015, 06:09:00 PM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
I am proud and humbled to be at 100 days and to be quit with all of you.

I admit I am a bit saddened because we had a cave in our group yesterday. It was a bit of a jarring slap in the face to my FUN BAGS.

I am trying to understand something that maybe some of you can perhaps see through with me. I had one of the worst craves that I can remember last night after getting the news that JOliver had caved in our faces without making any attempt to reach out. Has anyone experienced this sort of vicarious crave? I think maybe it was because I was trying to imagine myself in his shoes and it depressed the shit out of me and being sad is a big trigger.

I feel even more rooted in my quit today knowing that a cave sends a wave that affects my brothers here.

Today, I quit with all of my brothers and sisters here. QLFODAATEDD!

Strong like oak.
I felt the exact same thing all day yesterday after I found out. I was actually a bit depressed for the rest of the evening. What got me through was that I was still quit and because I'm quitting for me first and foremost, I could power through this.

It was difficult to see our brother fail, but his failure makes it even more evident to me why I need to not fail. Proud of you Oak.
My group, the bad ass Fogcutters of April 2013, started with nearly 200 members. I think 12 of us are left. How many of those 188 are chewing up a storm? I dunno... But I bet 150+. To be honest, I don't really care. I posted with them and supported them. They left us, a tribe of addicts that invest all of 20 seconds a day posting our promise to each other. After HOF things tend to go on the crazy train for a while. Glad to see both of you are committed to posting, because a lot of your group thinks 100 is the finish line. It isn't. There are challenges, but most importantly there is greatness ahead

Craves always fall around milestones for me. They are reminders that I'm winning. And that my good choices have prevented me from being one of the 150+ loser ex-fogcutters. Enjoy the win, enjoy the exclusivity, and enjoy the fact that you are doing something that only an elite group of people can brag about. Cavers don't deserve your time.....
Guys, I had plenty....PLENTY... of weak moments. Three of our most active members were ousted from the site in a matter of about 1 month. Another caved well past HOF. I've changed so much (for the better) since Day 100, yet can't even realize how much unless told by others or thinking hard about what I was doing at that time.

I was super, super anxious yesterday and crabby at work.... on Day 275... but that is from work stress and life in general. You know what I did? Went for lunch to Don  Millies and got a double cheeseburger with onion rings and a lemonade. That was my way of coping. Not the healthiest, but then again, I don't make the habit of doing that often and I don't need to. You'll find other ways to cope with the sadness/blahs/depression, etc. than poisoning yourself and handing money over for a can of LIES.

Believe me, I was still a MESS around Day 100. It gets better, but you have to be patient and keep the faith.

Oak (and King)- you are KILLING IT! Keep it up. And who knows, maybe some day you are the positive influence that gets Joliver to log back in and post Day 1 again... whether it is you that reaches out to him or he thinks of you and your ice sculpture hard quit and wants that back in his life. But, for now, Joliver is a giant fraud and pretender, so don't let that negativity get in the way of your quit.

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #44 on: October 07, 2015, 02:30:00 PM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
I am proud and humbled to be at 100 days and to be quit with all of you.

I admit I am a bit saddened because we had a cave in our group yesterday. It was a bit of a jarring slap in the face to my FUN BAGS.

I am trying to understand something that maybe some of you can perhaps see through with me. I had one of the worst craves that I can remember last night after getting the news that JOliver had caved in our faces without making any attempt to reach out. Has anyone experienced this sort of vicarious crave? I think maybe it was because I was trying to imagine myself in his shoes and it depressed the shit out of me and being sad is a big trigger.

I feel even more rooted in my quit today knowing that a cave sends a wave that affects my brothers here.

Today, I quit with all of my brothers and sisters here. QLFODAATEDD!

Strong like oak.
I felt the exact same thing all day yesterday after I found out. I was actually a bit depressed for the rest of the evening. What got me through was that I was still quit and because I'm quitting for me first and foremost, I could power through this.

It was difficult to see our brother fail, but his failure makes it even more evident to me why I need to not fail. Proud of you Oak.
My group, the bad ass Fogcutters of April 2013, started with nearly 200 members. I think 12 of us are left. How many of those 188 are chewing up a storm? I dunno... But I bet 150+. To be honest, I don't really care. I posted with them and supported them. They left us, a tribe of addicts that invest all of 20 seconds a day posting our promise to each other. After HOF things tend to go on the crazy train for a while. Glad to see both of you are committed to posting, because a lot of your group thinks 100 is the finish line. It isn't. There are challenges, but most importantly there is greatness ahead

Craves always fall around milestones for me. They are reminders that I'm winning. And that my good choices have prevented me from being one of the 150+ loser ex-fogcutters. Enjoy the win, enjoy the exclusivity, and enjoy the fact that you are doing something that only an elite group of people can brag about. Cavers don't deserve your time.....

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #43 on: October 07, 2015, 01:37:00 PM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
I am proud and humbled to be at 100 days and to be quit with all of you.

I admit I am a bit saddened because we had a cave in our group yesterday. It was a bit of a jarring slap in the face to my FUN BAGS.

I am trying to understand something that maybe some of you can perhaps see through with me. I had one of the worst craves that I can remember last night after getting the news that JOliver had caved in our faces without making any attempt to reach out. Has anyone experienced this sort of vicarious crave? I think maybe it was because I was trying to imagine myself in his shoes and it depressed the shit out of me and being sad is a big trigger.

I feel even more rooted in my quit today knowing that a cave sends a wave that affects my brothers here.

Today, I quit with all of my brothers and sisters here. QLFODAATEDD!

Strong like oak.
I felt the exact same thing all day yesterday after I found out. I was actually a bit depressed for the rest of the evening. What got me through was that I was still quit and because I'm quitting for me first and foremost, I could power through this.

It was difficult to see our brother fail, but his failure makes it even more evident to me why I need to not fail. Proud of you Oak.
"Fuck nicotine dude. You don't need it. And you don't want it. It didn't do a thing for you and you know it." - worktowin
"today you dissided that shit wont control your life. and it wont. unless you let it." - drome
"Not thinking about nicotine is for people who've never used nicotine. We threw that option away with the first dip or drag on a cigarette. We are addicts, and cannot become un-addicted." - wildirish317
"You need to decide how much you really want to be quit." - pky1520
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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #42 on: October 07, 2015, 01:14:00 PM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
I am proud and humbled to be at 100 days and to be quit with all of you.

I admit I am a bit saddened because we had a cave in our group yesterday. It was a bit of a jarring slap in the face to my FUN BAGS.

I am trying to understand something that maybe some of you can perhaps see through with me. I had one of the worst craves that I can remember last night after getting the news that JOliver had caved in our faces without making any attempt to reach out. Has anyone experienced this sort of vicarious crave? I think maybe it was because I was trying to imagine myself in his shoes and it depressed the shit out of me and being sad is a big trigger.

I feel even more rooted in my quit today knowing that a cave sends a wave that affects my brothers here.

Today, I quit with all of my brothers and sisters here. QLFODAATEDD!

Strong like oak.

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #41 on: October 07, 2015, 11:20:00 AM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
As I once read about you, strong like an oak, no doubt true! Congrats my friend, it only gets better from here!
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #40 on: October 07, 2015, 10:16:00 AM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
Respecting some Oak!
Congrats...
I believe.....

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #39 on: October 07, 2015, 09:41:00 AM »
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Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!
100 at 100%. Nicely done Oak, proud as hell to quit with you every day.
"Fuck nicotine dude. You don't need it. And you don't want it. It didn't do a thing for you and you know it." - worktowin
"today you dissided that shit wont control your life. and it wont. unless you let it." - drome
"Not thinking about nicotine is for people who've never used nicotine. We threw that option away with the first dip or drag on a cigarette. We are addicts, and cannot become un-addicted." - wildirish317
"You need to decide how much you really want to be quit." - pky1520
We are always at risk. And probably always will be. That is why I will never get "too quit" to post my +1. Every. Damn. Day. - geis2597

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Quit: 7/10/15, HOF: 10/17/15, 2nd Floor: 1/25/16, 3rd Floor: 5/4/16, 1 year: 7/10/16 4th Floor: 8/12/16, 5th Floor: 11/20/16, 6th Floor: 2/28/17, 7th Floor: 6/8/17, 2 years: 7/10/17, 8th Floor: 9/16/17, 9th Floor: 12/25/17, Comma: 4/4/18, 3 years: 7/10/18, 11th Floor: 7/13/18

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #38 on: October 07, 2015, 05:58:00 AM »
Congratulations on the first of many big quit milestones! Enjoy HOF! Much more greatness is ahead!

Strong like oak!!!!

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #37 on: July 26, 2015, 02:19:00 PM »
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Holy shit, I feel like crap this morning. Depressed. I've let everyone down. I was on cruise control with this quit and i was feeling dark, not in a good place and that bitch was in the back of my head, lurking like a rapist on the prowl. She says, 'come back here in the shadows, NIC will make you feel better, I'll help you get out of your head. I'll dull your feelings, I'm here for you, always." And I did. I didn't even really think about it. I just said, feck it, I don't want to feel this raw emotion. I want to dull my senses. I want to escape. Like the junkie, I've always been. Lieing to myself. Killing my self...

And then I woke up. And I still feel this lingering sense of shame. Like I secretly dipped. And let you all down. Let my friends and my family down. Let my self down. Tears in my eyes, it feels so real...

I did not cave. I will not cave. It was all a dream, thankfully. I am growing roots in this quit and this bitch is dying and trying to make desperate last attempts to keep my soul in a cloak of darkness.

What a friggin nightmare...
We all dream oak, sometimes it a reminder of what's out there. Always be humble in your quit, but strong at the same time and stay in front! Quit on you're doing great my brother!
Harness the dreams. Harness the craves. And look at them for what they are...

Reminders of the fact that you are winning.

Proud to quit with you today sir.
Holy shit bro, I about had a heart attack reading that.... couldn't tell if it was a cave post or whatnot. Glad it was only a dream. I have only had like 1 legit dip dream, and it was not too fun. Listen to these badass Vets. Take it at face value for what it is: you are healing and the NB is trying to slither back in your life, but that weak shit has no place with you anymore! You are killing it here, and your Intro has plenty of sustenance for those newer quitters. Anyone strong like fucking oak is way too strong to be seduced by a zero IQ can of cancerous worm shit. Remember: it does nothing for you. It isn't a problem solver, it doesn't relax you, it isn't fun or doesn't relieve boredom, it certainly isn't fucking attractive or cool, it isn't a healthy weight loss substance, and that shit you used to pile in your mouth will fucking kill you if you ever go back. It's that dangerous and that's exactly how you have to think of it. Keep it up, Oak.
I know - a bit dramatic, but i wanted to paint a picture of that shitty feeling I had this morning, for future reference...

I went and got a new rod/reel combo this morning as a bit of a treat to myself. Now I feel better...

I could not be any more proud to be quit with you all today.

QLFODAAT!

Strong like oak.

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #36 on: July 26, 2015, 10:32:00 AM »
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Holy shit, I feel like crap this morning. Depressed. I've let everyone down. I was on cruise control with this quit and i was feeling dark, not in a good place and that bitch was in the back of my head, lurking like a rapist on the prowl. She says, 'come back here in the shadows, NIC will make you feel better, I'll help you get out of your head. I'll dull your feelings, I'm here for you, always." And I did. I didn't even really think about it. I just said, feck it, I don't want to feel this raw emotion. I want to dull my senses. I want to escape. Like the junkie, I've always been. Lieing to myself. Killing my self...

And then I woke up. And I still feel this lingering sense of shame. Like I secretly dipped. And let you all down. Let my friends and my family down. Let my self down. Tears in my eyes, it feels so real...

I did not cave. I will not cave. It was all a dream, thankfully. I am growing roots in this quit and this bitch is dying and trying to make desperate last attempts to keep my soul in a cloak of darkness.

What a friggin nightmare...
We all dream oak, sometimes it a reminder of what's out there. Always be humble in your quit, but strong at the same time and stay in front! Quit on you're doing great my brother!
Harness the dreams. Harness the craves. And look at them for what they are...

Reminders of the fact that you are winning.

Proud to quit with you today sir.
Holy shit bro, I about had a heart attack reading that.... couldn't tell if it was a cave post or whatnot. Glad it was only a dream. I have only had like 1 legit dip dream, and it was not too fun. Listen to these badass Vets. Take it at face value for what it is: you are healing and the NB is trying to slither back in your life, but that weak shit has no place with you anymore! You are killing it here, and your Intro has plenty of sustenance for those newer quitters. Anyone strong like fucking oak is way too strong to be seduced by a zero IQ can of cancerous worm shit. Remember: it does nothing for you. It isn't a problem solver, it doesn't relax you, it isn't fun or doesn't relieve boredom, it certainly isn't fucking attractive or cool, it isn't a healthy weight loss substance, and that shit you used to pile in your mouth will fucking kill you if you ever go back. It's that dangerous and that's exactly how you have to think of it. Keep it up, Oak.

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #35 on: July 26, 2015, 09:14:00 AM »
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Holy shit, I feel like crap this morning. Depressed. I've let everyone down. I was on cruise control with this quit and i was feeling dark, not in a good place and that bitch was in the back of my head, lurking like a rapist on the prowl. She says, 'come back here in the shadows, NIC will make you feel better, I'll help you get out of your head. I'll dull your feelings, I'm here for you, always." And I did. I didn't even really think about it. I just said, feck it, I don't want to feel this raw emotion. I want to dull my senses. I want to escape. Like the junkie, I've always been. Lieing to myself. Killing my self...

And then I woke up. And I still feel this lingering sense of shame. Like I secretly dipped. And let you all down. Let my friends and my family down. Let my self down. Tears in my eyes, it feels so real...

I did not cave. I will not cave. It was all a dream, thankfully. I am growing roots in this quit and this bitch is dying and trying to make desperate last attempts to keep my soul in a cloak of darkness.

What a friggin nightmare...
We all dream oak, sometimes it a reminder of what's out there. Always be humble in your quit, but strong at the same time and stay in front! Quit on you're doing great my brother!
Harness the dreams. Harness the craves. And look at them for what they are...

Reminders of the fact that you are winning.

Proud to quit with you today sir.

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #34 on: July 26, 2015, 08:49:00 AM »
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Holy shit, I feel like crap this morning. Depressed. I've let everyone down. I was on cruise control with this quit and i was feeling dark, not in a good place and that bitch was in the back of my head, lurking like a rapist on the prowl. She says, 'come back here in the shadows, NIC will make you feel better, I'll help you get out of your head. I'll dull your feelings, I'm here for you, always." And I did. I didn't even really think about it. I just said, feck it, I don't want to feel this raw emotion. I want to dull my senses. I want to escape. Like the junkie, I've always been. Lieing to myself. Killing my self...

And then I woke up. And I still feel this lingering sense of shame. Like I secretly dipped. And let you all down. Let my friends and my family down. Let my self down. Tears in my eyes, it feels so real...

I did not cave. I will not cave. It was all a dream, thankfully. I am growing roots in this quit and this bitch is dying and trying to make desperate last attempts to keep my soul in a cloak of darkness.

What a friggin nightmare...
We all dream oak, sometimes it a reminder of what's out there. Always be humble in your quit, but strong at the same time and stay in front! Quit on you're doing great my brother!
Tobacco is so addictive it took me a year after a massive heart attack, in which doctor confirmed caused from dipping to finally put a lid on the bitch! ODAAT EDD

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #33 on: July 26, 2015, 08:46:00 AM »
Holy shit, I feel like crap this morning. Depressed. I've let everyone down. I was on cruise control with this quit and i was feeling dark, not in a good place and that bitch was in the back of my head, lurking like a rapist on the prowl. She says, 'come back here in the shadows, NIC will make you feel better, I'll help you get out of your head. I'll dull your feelings, I'm here for you, always." And I did. I didn't even really think about it. I just said, feck it, I don't want to feel this raw emotion. I want to dull my senses. I want to escape. Like the junkie, I've always been. Lieing to myself. Killing my self...

And then I woke up. And I still feel this lingering sense of shame. Like I secretly dipped. And let you all down. Let my friends and my family down. Let my self down. Tears in my eyes, it feels so real...

I did not cave. I will not cave. It was all a dream, thankfully. I am growing roots in this quit and this bitch is dying and trying to make desperate last attempts to keep my soul in a cloak of darkness.

What a friggin nightmare...

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Re: Strong like oak.
« Reply #32 on: July 14, 2015, 07:46:00 PM »
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Just posting this here for posterity - from my quit group, so it doesn't get lost...
Quote from: Candoit
FUN Bagz

What is that you want KTC?
From your brothers?
Why are you here?
I'll tell you what I want...

1. From KTC, I want to be surrounded by folks who succeed in taking there life back from this useless, soul-sucking weed.

2. From my brothers, see above.

3. I am here to curbstomp this bitch. To follow in the giant footsteps of the monster, fucking badass, NIC crushing winners that have laid out the pitch perfect path before us and I am here to be an example of how this shit is done for those that come in the large wake of our success.

QLFODAATEDDFUNB!

Strong like oak.
You are in the right place.

There are a lot of winners here.

And you are strong like oak.

Nice work dude - quit with you today.
Every +1 is a huge victory! Doing great quit on!
Thank you, kindly, for the support. I feel like I am settling into a stride, albeit slow and steady like the tortoise, in my quit. QLF!

Strong like oak.