Strong like oak.

[jomartin88]

I literally just had the first night in fifteen plus years where the last thing I did before bed was brush my teeth. So much better then putting in my huge lipper and going to sleep. Then waking up every morning feeling guilt about it.

Keep up the good work and congrats on 7 days. That is amazing!

[mattj83]

You're tearing it up, Oak! Keep kicking Nic's ass! It'll start getting easier. I was there just a few weeks ago, and it was hell. Now, I'm at 32 days, where I NEVER thought I'd make it, and feeling GREAT!!!!! I didn't quit for 32 days, I quit for one day 32 times. The Freedom is amazing!! ODAAT!

Proud to quit with you today!

[Rawls]

CONGRATS on your first week! 7 days is huge.

Let the anger lead you to learning.
Keep gaining truth about addictions and NICOTINE.

The truth sets us free.
And Our accountability keeps us that way.

Stay strong and be a leader.
Help all those you can coming into your group.

I quit with you today.
Rawls 232

[oakTree]

I woke up with an ominous feeling. Head games. Like there's a shadow lurking in the periphery. Not a crave directly but more just a reminder that this bitch doesn't want to die.

Go the fuck away.

I've never regretted one time I've gone out for a long run. I've never regretted one time I've gone out surfing. I'm sure there's other examples, but I can't fucking think of them right now...

I regret EVERY fucking cigarette and chew I have ever had.

Fuck this evil fucking twisted bitch NIC. Seriously, if I could make NIC human - I'd like to place her front teeth on the top of a 6 inch curb and raise my right leg (cuz it's my stompin leg) and smash down, with great vengeance, directly on the base of her skull to hear the satisfyingly gruesome snap-crunch as her cervical spine abruptly disengaged from all possible attachments. I want to hear rattling rasps of her final breaths while looking her straight in her sunken soul-less eyes as she fades into nonexistence - straight to hell...

Ok. I feel a bit better...

ODAAT.

Strong like oak.

[oakTree]

I just posted this in medi's intro and I need to remember for myself...

You have to know and accept that there is no option of using nicotine, in any form, ever again. Every single one of us is an addict. It is a mental illness. We are self-sabotaging and self-destructive creatures. We have the choice to take back control, though. It is not easy. It hasn't been easy for anyone before you, it is not easy for me, and it will not be easy for you. The best things in life, as they say... You are here and you are definitely not alone. Bottom line, this is your quit and only you can decide to ride out the shitstorm and trust all these folks that it's worth making it to the other side. We can be shitstorm riding brothers, crap cowboys, if you will. I've got my windbreaker on riding out this shitnado, too. Let's make it to the other side and NEVER come back.

[pab1964]

I actually brushed my teeth before bed last night. Something I have not done in longer than I care to admit. I would go to bed with a lip in every night. If I got up during the night, more often than not, I would have to restart the shut down process. Rucking fediculous.

ODAAT.

Serenity now.

Strong like oak.

What a crock huh oak? So nice to get up in the morning and not have to look for that asshole who shit in your mouth while you were asleep! Keep writing it only makes your quit stronger! I like you, seem to have what it takes to get this done . Don't let me and yourself down beat this shit! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend!

[oakTree]

I actually brushed my teeth before bed last night. Something I have not done in longer than I care to admit. I would go to bed with a lip in every night. If I got up during the night, more often than not, I would have to restart the shut down process. Rucking fediculous.

ODAAT.

Serenity now.

Strong like oak.

[pab1964]

Very well, thumblewort, what in the wide world of sports is up with your avatar or whatever the eff that picture under your name is?!?...

Asshole.

Lol! You effen with the wrong dog! This shit gonna be funny! Be easy on him wort! Nah he probably just ignore, but maybe when he reiterates you can keep your mind off the bitch. It works for most, roll with it! Quitting with you today badass!

[oakTree]

Very well, thumblewort, what in the wide world of sports is up with your avatar or whatever the eff that picture under your name is?!?...

Asshole.

[Thumblewort]

Here's an idea...........rage and rant here. Don't take it out on loved ones, it's not their fault. I haven't been called an asshole for weeks here, so feel free to give me your best shot.

[oakTree]

Thanks, worktowin. I won yesterday and I plan on winning today, too. We'll worry about tomorrow when it gets here.

I really do appreciate the words of encouragement. I'm new here but can already feel the strength of this brotherhood.

Strong like oak.

[worktowin]

Thanks, pab1964. I am definitely an irritable asshole and it definitely does suck. And my fiancé is sick of me, which is the worst part of this mess I've made. You're right, I try not to take it out on her but she still gets the brunt of my assholeness. I'm going to have to get her flowers every other day, at least, until the dust settles.

I'm kind of sick of myself, but that self-loathing is part of this mental illness - what helps perpetuate this self-destructive path of lunacy. I'm just riding this wave now. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.

You got it my friend it's 99 percent mental! Explain to her what's going on and that you will get back to somewhat Nirmal and be a much better man. Quit on my friend!

The irritability will fade quickly, unless you were born an irritable asshole like pab! Haha

You sound like a pretty competitive dude. One thing that really helps mentally is shifting a focus to winning. You don't lose on many things you attempt, but you lost ever day to this addiction for a whole lot of days. And really - it is a nasty expensive and dangerous addiction. Now, every day you are winning. A day might at first not seem like a big win, but it is huge! One day at a time you are making great strides.

Nice job oak!

[pab1964]

Thanks, pab1964. I am definitely an irritable asshole and it definitely does suck. And my fiancé is sick of me, which is the worst part of this mess I've made. You're right, I try not to take it out on her but she still gets the brunt of my assholeness. I'm going to have to get her flowers every other day, at least, until the dust settles.

I'm kind of sick of myself, but that self-loathing is part of this mental illness - what helps perpetuate this self-destructive path of lunacy. I'm just riding this wave now. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.

You got it my friend it's 99 percent mental! Explain to her what's going on and that you will get back to somewhat Nirmal and be a much better man. Quit on my friend!

[oakTree]

Thanks, pab1964. I am definitely an irritable asshole and it definitely does suck. And my fiancé is sick of me, which is the worst part of this mess I've made. You're right, I try not to take it out on her but she still gets the brunt of my assholeness. I'm going to have to get her flowers every other day, at least, until the dust settles.

I'm kind of sick of myself, but that self-loathing is part of this mental illness - what helps perpetuate this self-destructive path of lunacy. I'm just riding this wave now. One day, one hour, one minute at a time.

[pab1964]

Hello,

This is the place I need to be. I stopped smoking nicotine on December 21, 2007. I took a job as a career firefighter in 2008. Most of the guys on my shift chew. Like a complete DIPshit, I joined in sometime in 2012, springtime, IIRC. (I'm watching one of my guys pack one in as I write this). Yes, I let the bitch creep back and take over. I was complacent. I frigged up. I will never let that happen again.

I've chosen the name of oakTree to symbolize my desire and commitment to have the strength and endurance of the mighty oak. Admittedly, I feel a bit more like a sapling today but I will endure.

Not sure if I posted roll correctly, but I think I did.

I think my foggy, dense head understands the formula. Brotherhood+Accountability=Quit

Thanks for having me. Oh, and eat dirt, NIC!

Good job oak tree! We post roll every damn day (EDD ) one day at a time (Odaat )! Drink plenty water, exercise , the craves will suck ,hell it will all suck till it don't but worth every damn second of it! You're gonna be an irritable asshole at times that's what this place is for, come on here bitch,scream just blow off steam we can handle because we've all been there and we understand, don't take it out on your family or co-workers. They didn't force you to put the shit in your mouth! Use gum, fake chew,candy, whatever it takes to keep your freedom! Damn proud to be quit with you! Remember this is your quit, own it! Only one that can make you fail is you!