Where to begin? I've been dipping since the age of 16, although not consistently until just before I could buy the shit on my own. I still remember the first time I ever put the nasty, gum shredding stuff in my mouth. My older brother offered me a pinch of Grizzly Wintergreen and despite my objections would not take no for an answer. Like so many of us here, I was hooked after my first dip.
I remember relying on older friends to buy me tins before I was 18. Even though I only went through a tin a week, I still needed it.. I remember cherishing every dip, as if somehow it was the greatest thing I could've ever come across. Then came the 18th birthday, welcome to adulthood, the beginning of the end for my nicotine addiction. I went from dipping a tin a week, to two tins...to three tins...by the end of high school I was at a tin every other day and for the last two years a tin a day. I couldn't take it anymore. I hated having to leave or sneak out of events in order to get a dip. Being at work for long periods at a time was no longer becoming possible without dip breaks every couple of hours. I'd lost my control, I'd let nicotine take control of my life and there was only one way to take it back.
I, like many, have attempted to quit before. Yes "attempted"..I never gave it all I had. Really, nothing more than seeing how long I could let my gums heal before caving. Not anymore. This has gone on far too long. I'm 21 years young and done. I don't care how hard this shit is. I don't care how long it takes for my brain to rewire itself. I'm starting now (my quit date is actually 01/06/14). I know the KTC plan works, and I'm ready to work towards being living proof of that.
Quit on brothers and sisters, I'll be right beside you
-John
