THis is the strangest thing ever, but just what you need. Somehow, quitting works with support from a bunch of folks I've never even met. Never would have thought it. THese guys are right, post something somewhere here. Even somethign crazy incoherent, and you'll get a response from somebody. PM some folks, get some contact numbers, and you'll have the support you need. The system here works. Use it and you'll succeed. There is no "want to quit", "try to quit", or "need to quit". There is quit or there is not quit. Right now, you are ther former. Stay that way and you'll never have to suffer another day one.