Lurkers,
Welcome. You are here because you've been using for a while. Maybe you hide it from the people you work with? Maybe you hide it from those that love you?
Maybe you have a pain in your jaw that comes and goes? Maybe you have a spot on your inner lip or gums that is not going away? Acid reflux? High blood pressure?
You're confused. You've tried multiple times to quit in the past and have failed miserably each time...telling yourself you can have just one, you can buy one can a week, you can use only when drinking, with friends. You think you should quit but think it's too hard. What's the point of putting yourself, and everyone else in your life, through the process if you are only going to end up back to where you are now?
You feel alone. You want to involve others in your life in this decision but, once you do, you're committed and others will hold you to it. So you keep it to yourself. You're silently screaming inside and the pressure is building
You're ashamed in front of your children because you know you are setting the wrong example but won't/can't stop. Perhaps you're a FRAUD to those you care about...touting healthy lifestyles while shoving that shit in your lip? Your kids know you are up to something and you lie about it. They know you are lying but let it go because they can tell it's something you are trying to hide from them.
How do I know how you feel? Read my blog below. I was where you are. The above is my story. If my story is dissimilar to yours, I guarantee you can find a quitter here who's story is closer.
You are here so you KNOW you have to do it. After almost 3 decades of using and dozens of quit attempts, this is the only system that has worked for me. Read everything you care to on these boards. Commit to the system. Post your promise not to use for TODAY only. Embrace the suck and lean on those that have walked the path before you. Wake and repeat. Not easy but a simple plan to follow. You can do this and there are lots of us here to help.
There's no time like the present. You know it will not get any easier. Take the leap...you will never regret it.
~HAG