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Re: Day 2
« Reply #36 on: October 16, 2019, 12:26:05 AM »
Feeling pretty good today...especially after last night.  I have no desire to hit the can....I do however still have the little urges like after you eat....I took my bike to the dealership today to get an inspection done...I had one of those urges hit me...and I told myself why in the hell would this be an urge...it had always been a hinderance....you cant spit off a motorcycle at 70 mph...I told myself this is a positive and a win...I can now ride without that particular worry.  I did however throw in a lil fake snuff just to satisfy the lip.  A shout out to my peeps in Jan 20 quit group...

JJG009 - 3 Weeks

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Nursefarmer - 2 Weeks

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Re: Day 2
« Reply #35 on: October 16, 2019, 12:10:28 AM »
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving.
^^^ This. This right here is the definition of someone who is taking his quit fucking serious. VENT AWAY BROTHER. I always got your back. Your commitment says alot about who you are as a quitter. And im damn proud to call you my brother. When we first started talking i told you ill be there for when you need me. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for letting us create a bond thats becoming more unbreakable everyday. Im not gonna stop reminding you how much you inspire me to be the best damn quitter i can be. Stay strong stay quit. Looking forward to our conversation later today. Sorry to hear about your father in law. Kidney stones suckkkkk
Reading your win here made my day. Your strength to wrangle the reaction to these seemingly small to quite significant events and channel that nic venom out of your system to evaporate is how we build on our existing quit minute by minute. Dig it deep and keep digging little shovel at a time.

Now that we know we’re basically minutes away from each other makes this support we have for each other that much realer! You have a lot of credibility with me...your promise every day is what I look for every morning...JS! Go astros!

Man @KD2 , your words mean alot to me...I strive and quit one day at a time, but I also look at my older quit brothers like you and @SixString and see the inspiration.  If a team ever would want you to go back to the nic bitch it might be the astros.....lol I ate must have ate about 2 bags of seeds on the second game that went 12 innings lol. 
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #34 on: October 15, 2019, 11:58:10 PM »
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving.
^^^ This. This right here is the definition of someone who is taking his quit fucking serious. VENT AWAY BROTHER. I always got your back. Your commitment says alot about who you are as a quitter. And im damn proud to call you my brother. When we first started talking i told you ill be there for when you need me. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for letting us create a bond thats becoming more unbreakable everyday. Im not gonna stop reminding you how much you inspire me to be the best damn quitter i can be. Stay strong stay quit. Looking forward to our conversation later today. Sorry to hear about your father in law. Kidney stones suckkkkk
Reading your win here made my day. Your strength to wrangle the reaction to these seemingly small to quite significant events and channel that nic venom out of your system to evaporate is how we build on our existing quit minute by minute. Dig it deep and keep digging little shovel at a time.

Now that we know we’re basically minutes away from each other makes this support we have for each other that much realer! You have a lot of credibility with me...your promise every day is what I look for every morning...JS! Go astros!

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Re: Day 2
« Reply #33 on: October 15, 2019, 09:21:03 AM »
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving.
^^^ This. This right here is the definition of someone who is taking his quit fucking serious. VENT AWAY BROTHER. I always got your back. Your commitment says alot about who you are as a quitter. And im damn proud to call you my brother. When we first started talking i told you ill be there for when you need me. Thanks for trusting me. Thanks for letting us create a bond thats becoming more unbreakable everyday. Im not gonna stop reminding you how much you inspire me to be the best damn quitter i can be. Stay strong stay quit. Looking forward to our conversation later today. Sorry to hear about your father in law. Kidney stones suckkkkk
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #32 on: October 15, 2019, 04:07:26 AM »
Day 14...let me say started out great.  It ended badly.  *****DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HARSH LANGUAGE****

I triggered and I triggered fucking hard.  I had went to the grocery store with my daughter and bought 2 filet's and a ribeye.  I marinate my steaks in meat tenderizer.  So I go to the container cabinet and get a container to marinate the steaks....this is what i text @SixString a few minutes later.....:  Trying to marinate steaks...and cant find the fucking lid to the fucking piece of shit container the meat is in...going here (coming to him with text) and not going off on my wife...and no Im not caving but I got a big fucking wad of fake chew in right now.   My boy Six replies...Send your anger all this way brother.  Fucking lids.   Lol this shit would be comical if you could see it happening.  I told Six...I was having a good day and a fucking Tupperware Lid triggers me of all things.    To add to this the store didnt have the steamable potatoes so I ended up with runny mashed potatoes, and in the middle of cooking steaks my freaking propane grill runs out of propane (thankfully I had a spare in the garage).  Then the day ends with a bang..My father in law calls my wife at 930pm in pain telling her that he is in the er at one of the hospitals near here.  I grab my fake snuff and seeds and head to the hospital.....so I head to the ER and we are at the hospital until about 2am ( he has a 5 mm kidney stone).   

So yea I triggered....and had a bad day...I had my support...had Six not answered..I would had vented on Kd2 or I have a list of peeps I would have blown up on because they care about my quit. 

not one time ....not one time did I think about heading for the can with the fucking nicotine whore....yes I ate my seeds and dipped my fake chew...and vented on my brother Six..but I did not think for a second about caving. 
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #31 on: October 14, 2019, 02:49:46 PM »
Had some new firsts...made it through nightshift without wanting it....
If there was ever a crucible of quit...that would be it.  I rolled off of shift work a few years before I rolled off the can.  Now I'm preparing to start it again and I have to be honest here - I shudder to think of the 3 am wall without nicotine.  You're made of stern stuff brother.  Thanks for blazing the trail.  I'll have to ping on you when the time comes.
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #30 on: October 14, 2019, 12:06:57 PM »
Day 14, Feeling pretty good...had some little urges last night watching the Astros but I just ate a shit ton of seeds and texted with @SixString who has been there every single day for the past 14 days as some others have also been there.  I am still waking up with the attitude I don't need nic today.  I believe my urges are out of habit more than wanting nic.  Had some new firsts...made it through nightshift without wanting it....went to a fall festival with my family without wanting it.  All I can say is finding this site was one of the best things that could have happen too me.  Oh and if you ever click on @Athan signature, pack a lunch....lol these vets could write a book on the quit.
Glad to call you my brother. You inspire to me be the best damn quitter i can possibly be. Its awesome to hear you checking off things that you have done without quit. Really proud of you man. Lets tackle this day and make it our bitch. Congrats on two weeks. Heres a virtual blowjob.
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #29 on: October 14, 2019, 11:55:29 AM »
Day 14, Feeling pretty good...had some little urges last night watching the Astros but I just ate a shit ton of seeds and texted with @SixString who has been there every single day for the past 14 days as some others have also been there.  I am still waking up with the attitude I don't need nic today.  I believe my urges are out of habit more than wanting nic.  Had some new firsts...made it through nightshift without wanting it....went to a fall festival with my family without wanting it.  All I can say is finding this site was one of the best things that could have happen too me.  Oh and if you ever click on @Athan signature, pack a lunch....lol these vets could write a book on the quit. 
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« Reply #28 on: October 12, 2019, 03:02:22 PM »
... For me I choose to succeed one day at a time.
Brother you are so far ahead of the pack with that statement right there.  Great job making it to double digits.
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #27 on: October 11, 2019, 06:30:31 PM »
Day 11....Doing pretty good...have not had sweats or itchiness for a few days so that is good.  Depressing to see some of my peeps in my group cave or disappear, but inspiring to see many others succeed.  For me I choose to succeed one day at a time.
Glad to hear it - it does get better and better over time, just be prepared to experience some days where you feel like you are going backward. it does suck to see members of your group cave, but remember you can't quit for somebody else. Provide as much support as you can, but don't taking somebody caving as a reflection on you.
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #26 on: October 11, 2019, 01:32:15 PM »
Day 11....Doing pretty good...have not had sweats or itchiness for a few days so that is good.  Depressing to see some of my peeps in my group cave or disappear, but inspiring to see many others succeed.  For me I choose to succeed one day at a time. 
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #25 on: October 09, 2019, 09:32:30 AM »
I was talking to @SixString earlier...and had to share this I thought this was funny as hell.

So I guess I had a bit of a trigger...I have ordered some smoky mountain and it has not arrived yet.  I am down to my last can of bacoff and I started to panick for a minute...then I realized its fucking mint leaves LOL.  It is funny to think of the shit I have seen and done in over 26 years of Law enforcement and I am fucking scared of running out of fake dip...lol ...that is just fucking sad.  Six prolly thinks im idiot now lol.
To add to this story. When I first read his text I didn't realize that he mentioned his trigger.  So respond with what caused your trigger? Was it a long day work? And JS replies. Noo I'm down to to my last can...hahaha I'm the worst supporter ever.
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #24 on: October 09, 2019, 12:38:53 AM »
I was talking to @SixString earlier...and had to share this I thought this was funny as hell.

So I guess I had a bit of a trigger...I have ordered some smoky mountain and it has not arrived yet.  I am down to my last can of bacoff and I started to panick for a minute...then I realized its fucking mint leaves LOL.  It is funny to think of the shit I have seen and done in over 26 years of Law enforcement and I am fucking scared of running out of fake dip...lol ...that is just fucking sad.  Six prolly thinks im idiot now lol. 
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Re: Day 2
« Reply #23 on: October 08, 2019, 02:33:51 PM »
Day 8 ....stayed up half the night reading oldschool and wildirish stuff.  Got a bit triggered last night...watching peaky blinders...all the smoking in that show...bugging the shit out of sixstring at 2 am lol.  My boy @SixString  is at 50 today, @KD2 at 39,  @Keith0617  is at 369, @JJG009 is at 13, @Finoc1984 at 6, and @chris2alaska is at 629...ptqwyt !!!!!!!  Today i feel pretty good...I got up late but no sweats or itchyness today so far (although I am waiting for them to come).
^^ you keep this up and I promise you your quit will become easier to manage. Proud to call you my brother. Trust me when I say you are a million times stronger than me. Remeber sometimes we got to take it one second at a time. I have complete faith and trust in you to overcome your addiction. Also dont forget to call me today to chat it up.
That a boy js day 8 is huge breaking into the new week. When’s the last time you’ve been nic free for over a week? I went back and read my post on my day 7 and remembering I couldn’t see or think through the thick fog clouding my face. The fact that you are facing these thoughts and reaching out winning the little (and big) battles that’s what it’s about getting through that movie that after meal crave and getting to bed so you can WUPP and be free one more day!

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Re: Day 2
« Reply #22 on: October 08, 2019, 01:36:32 PM »
Day 8 ....stayed up half the night reading oldschool and wildirish stuff.  Got a bit triggered last night...watching peaky blinders...all the smoking in that show...bugging the shit out of sixstring at 2 am lol.  My boy @SixString  is at 50 today, @KD2 at 39,  @Keith0617  is at 369, @JJG009 is at 13, @Finoc1984 at 6, and @chris2alaska is at 629...ptqwyt !!!!!!!  Today i feel pretty good...I got up late but no sweats or itchyness today so far (although I am waiting for them to come).
^^ you keep this up and I promise you your quit will become easier to manage. Proud to call you my brother. Trust me when I say you are a million times stronger than me. Remeber sometimes we got to take it one second at a time. I have complete faith and trust in you to overcome your addiction. Also dont forget to call me today to chat it up.
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