Hi Everybody,
I am excited to finally have taken the step to join this community. I want to share my story, in the hopes that those of you with the same story may be able to help me down this path.
I am currently 28 years old, and have been using chewing tobacco since I was 18. I am an addict. I was married in December of 2019 to the most loving and supporting wife that I could ever ask for. She hates my tobacco use, and over the course of the 8 years that we have been together, has asked me many times to quit. And every time, the same response from me, I will. And every time, the same outcome. I would quit for a few days, tell her that I was doing well, and then do whatever I needed to to try and conceal my tobacco use. As an addict, I have found myself so many times over the years doing things that are sneaky and dishonest. For the past 5 months, I have been able to get rid of the Grizzly Wintergreen Pouches, and I have moved to Zyn pouches thinking that was the better alternative. But in reality I have still been a slave to this nicotine addiction. And over the past 5 months, I still have been dishonest with my wife, to the point where she has told me that she is unhappy, and we are 7 months into our marriage. A time that should be the happiest in our life.
Well, I have had enough, and I can't do it anymore. I am done being a slave to this addiction, and I am done poisoning my body. I am done putting the person that I love most in this world, and the person that loves me most in pain because of the need to put some nicotine pouches in my lip. It's time to take charge. Am I nervous? Yeah. I am extremely nervous. I know the emotional and physical effects that can come from nicotine withdrawals. But I know that I can do this. It's come to the point where it's time to put myself and my wife ahead of this addiction.
So I am happy to be a part of this community now that I have debated joining so many times. I didn't want the pressure on myself to have to be honest if I did fall off the wagon, but not anymore. I am excited to continue to share my story, and to fight this addiction with the rest of you.
I am going to knock out day 3, and then fight again on day 4.
-Travis