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Offline worktowin

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Re: I quit again
« Reply #775 on: January 30, 2024, 11:44:32 AM »
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 30, 2024, 09:18:37 AM
Quote from: Dipchit on January 30, 2024, 07:10:41 AM
Day 233
Same.
No dip today.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #774 on: January 30, 2024, 09:18:37 AM »
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8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #773 on: January 30, 2024, 07:10:41 AM »
Day 233
Same.
No dip today.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #772 on: January 29, 2024, 02:11:56 PM »
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 29, 2024, 10:26:06 AM
Quote from: Dipchit on January 29, 2024, 06:36:16 AM
Day 232
Anxiety and Depression.
I will keep fighting and fighting and fighting until this passes. I will not dip today. BTW the anxiety actually lifted last night for a few hours. It felt good. It’s back now but but not quite as intense so hopefully that’s a good sign. As far as seeing a doctor. That is never going to happen because all they want to do is shove pych meds down your throat. Then you go through even worse withdrawal and longer getting of that crap. I went through 4 years of PAWS from benzodiazepines and it was a living hell. Fuck doctors!!!!!!! All I had to begin with was insomnia.
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worktowin 4.054.  Back from Seattle.  Had a nice weekend with my nephew.  Went to Chihuly museum (wowza) and the Space Needle.  Also went to Pike Place Market and watched them throw fish at each other.  Strange things that we as humans do.  It was super rainy up there, and was glad to get home and see the sun shining - and especially to see the sun shining on the KC Chiefs yesterday!
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #771 on: January 29, 2024, 10:26:06 AM »
Quote from: Dipchit on January 29, 2024, 06:36:16 AM
Day 232
Anxiety and Depression.
I will keep fighting and fighting and fighting until this passes. I will not dip today. BTW the anxiety actually lifted last night for a few hours. It felt good. It’s back now but but not quite as intense so hopefully that’s a good sign. As far as seeing a doctor. That is never going to happen because all they want to do is shove pych meds down your throat. Then you go through even worse withdrawal and longer getting of that crap. I went through 4 years of PAWS from benzodiazepines and it was a living hell. Fuck doctors!!!!!!! All I had to begin with was insomnia.
MN/2,836
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Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |
"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
"The truth is the truth even if no one believes it, and a lie is a lie, even if everyone believes it." - Bishop Fulton J. Sheen
Feel like throwing in the towel? Sign the "Contract to Give Up" HERE
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #770 on: January 29, 2024, 06:36:16 AM »
Day 232
Anxiety and Depression.
I will keep fighting and fighting and fighting until this passes. I will not dip today. BTW the anxiety actually lifted last night for a few hours. It felt good. It’s back now but but not quite as intense so hopefully that’s a good sign. As far as seeing a doctor. That is never going to happen because all they want to do is shove pych meds down your throat. Then you go through even worse withdrawal and longer getting of that crap. I went through 4 years of PAWS from benzodiazepines and it was a living hell. Fuck doctors!!!!!!! All I had to begin with was insomnia.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #769 on: January 29, 2024, 06:28:46 AM »
Quote from: Keith0617 on January 28, 2024, 01:25:10 PM
Quote from: Dipchit on January 28, 2024, 11:10:01 AM
Quote from: worktowin on January 28, 2024, 10:24:52 AM
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 28, 2024, 09:58:13 AM
MN/2,835 - Barrett Jackson all day yesterday and now football today! Can it get any better?!
Worktowin 4,053. About to board flight home. Should arrive about time for the game. Go chiefs!  Barrett Jackson would be amazing!!!
Day 231
Absolute hell. Seering anxiety and deep depression. 7 and a half months and still no improvement. Never had anxiety before or during dip. This is getting ridiculous and old. Pretty hard to not say fuck it and go pick up a can but I couldn’t live with the personal disappointment.
I will definitely not dip today.
1942. Go to a doctor
What can a doctor do? Give you meds that you have to go through withdrawal to get off of? Not trading one withdrawal for another but thanks for the advice.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #768 on: January 28, 2024, 01:25:10 PM »
Quote from: Dipchit on January 28, 2024, 11:10:01 AM
Quote from: worktowin on January 28, 2024, 10:24:52 AM
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 28, 2024, 09:58:13 AM
MN/2,835 - Barrett Jackson all day yesterday and now football today! Can it get any better?!
Worktowin 4,053. About to board flight home. Should arrive about time for the game. Go chiefs!  Barrett Jackson would be amazing!!!
Day 231
Absolute hell. Seering anxiety and deep depression. 7 and a half months and still no improvement. Never had anxiety before or during dip. This is getting ridiculous and old. Pretty hard to not say fuck it and go pick up a can but I couldn’t live with the personal disappointment.
I will definitely not dip today.
1942. Go to a doctor
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #767 on: January 28, 2024, 11:10:01 AM »
Quote from: worktowin on January 28, 2024, 10:24:52 AM
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 28, 2024, 09:58:13 AM
MN/2,835 - Barrett Jackson all day yesterday and now football today! Can it get any better?!
Worktowin 4,053. About to board flight home. Should arrive about time for the game. Go chiefs!  Barrett Jackson would be amazing!!!
Day 231
Absolute hell. Seering anxiety and deep depression. 7 and a half months and still no improvement. Never had anxiety before or during dip. This is getting ridiculous and old. Pretty hard to not say fuck it and go pick up a can but I couldn’t live with the personal disappointment.
I will definitely not dip today.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #766 on: January 28, 2024, 10:24:52 AM »
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 28, 2024, 09:58:13 AM
MN/2,835 - Barrett Jackson all day yesterday and now football today! Can it get any better?!
Worktowin 4,053. About to board flight home. Should arrive about time for the game. Go chiefs!  Barrett Jackson would be amazing!!!
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #765 on: January 28, 2024, 09:58:13 AM »
MN/2,835 - Barrett Jackson all day yesterday and now football today! Can it get any better?!
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Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |
"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
"The truth is the truth even if no one believes it, and a lie is a lie, even if everyone believes it." - Bishop Fulton J. Sheen
Feel like throwing in the towel? Sign the "Contract to Give Up" HERE
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #764 on: January 27, 2024, 12:14:14 PM »
Quote from: Dipchit on January 27, 2024, 10:27:36 AM
Quote from: Keith0617 on January 27, 2024, 10:05:37 AM
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 27, 2024, 09:48:17 AM
MN/2,834 - looking forward to watching Barrett Jackson all day on TV. Isn't as good as being there in person but it will have to do this year.
Day 230
Looking forward to all this hell I’m going through to end. Depression and anxiety today. I will not dip today.
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Worktowin 4,052. Today I’m thankful for the miracle of travel. We are in Seattle for the weekend. I remember my grandparents talking about horse and buggy’s. On Thursday I had lunch in KC and dinner in Seattle. What a miracle. Enjoy the weekend.
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #763 on: January 27, 2024, 10:27:36 AM »
Quote from: Keith0617 on January 27, 2024, 10:05:37 AM
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 27, 2024, 09:48:17 AM
MN/2,834 - looking forward to watching Barrett Jackson all day on TV. Isn't as good as being there in person but it will have to do this year.
Day 230
Looking forward to all this hell I’m going through to end. Depression and anxiety today. I will not dip today.
Keith0617 1941 ODAAT
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #762 on: January 27, 2024, 10:05:37 AM »
Quote from: MN_Engineer on January 27, 2024, 09:48:17 AM
MN/2,834 - looking forward to watching Barrett Jackson all day on TV. Isn't as good as being there in person but it will have to do this year.
Keith0617 1941 ODAAT
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Re: I quit again
« Reply #761 on: January 27, 2024, 09:48:17 AM »
MN/2,834 - looking forward to watching Barrett Jackson all day on TV. Isn't as good as being there in person but it will have to do this year.
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Quit: 04.25.16 | HOF: 08.02.16 | 2nd FL: 11.10.16 | 3rd FL: 02.18.17 | 4th FL: 05.29.17 | 5th FL: 09.06.17 | 6th FL: 12.15.17 | 7th FL: 03.25.18 |
8th FL: 07.03.18 | 9th FL: 10.11.18 | Comma: 01.19.19 | 11th FL: 04.29.19 | 12th FL: 08.07.19 | 13th FL: 11.15.19 | 14th FL: 02.23.20 |
15th FL: 06.02.20 | 16th FL: 09.10.20 | 17th FL: 12.19.20 | 18th FL: 03.29.21 | 19th FL: 07.07.21 | Comma 2x: 10.15.21 | 21st FL: 01.23.22 |
22nd FL: 05.03.22 | 23rd FL: 08.11.22 | 24th FL: 11.19.22 | 25th FL: 02.27.23 | 26th FL: 06.07.23 | 27th FL: 09.15.23 | 28th FL: 12.24.23 |
29th FL: 04.02.24 | Comma 3x: 07.11.24 | 31st FL: 10.19.24 |
"From Skoal to Skol!" My HOF Speech HERE!
"There is no victory without a battle."
"Cave = losing an argument to a dead plant in a plastic can. You are smarter than a dead plant." - Candoit
"The truth is the truth even if no one believes it, and a lie is a lie, even if everyone believes it." - Bishop Fulton J. Sheen
Feel like throwing in the towel? Sign the "Contract to Give Up" HERE
Phat Pauly - Part 1 || Phat Pauly - Part 2 || DeanTheCoot - Pencil Poop
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