16 years later, I quit

[Candoit]

This post is over a decade old. But it still mean what I said then. "That’s the burden. Like wings, they have weight. We feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens that allow us to fly."
Happy to share this burden with you!

Waste I know I am a day late on this but congratulations on 1300 days quit.

Thank you for what you have done and continue to do for all of us here at KTC, I know that I would not be at this point if it was not for your support.

Watching Bones the other night I heard this quote: "That’s the burden. Like wings, they have weight. We feel that weight on our backs, but they are a burden that lifts us. Burdens that allow us to fly."

I have been thinking of how the post hall of fame funk, and the trouble it is to post everyday, help others, and leave a place better than you found it. Yes it is a burden to be quit, it is a burden to post every damn day, it is a burden to spend time here paying it forward. But these burdens are good, I will gladly carry the burden that quitting brings, because embracing the quit like you have shown me how to fly.

I am proud to share the burden of quit with you.

[BigRedDog]

Today was not a great day...first real hard-core scare that actually shook my confidence.

Day 86 and I was at work, waiting on my trailer to be unloaded and it was humid and miserable and frustrating and without even thinking there was the want, and the pat on the back right pocket and the thought of needing a pinch....

Idk if its because I've been tired this past week, and kind of run down honestly. But man, that feeling that need and the thought shook my confidence in my quit.

I know I wont cave tonight but man... im not nearly as certain as i was 12 hours ago about tomorrow. Now I continue to worry that tbis will be how it is forever

I know it wont be... but man... I thought by day 86 id be better than this...stronger, and not nearly as vulnerable to it

I was not prepared for this week to be the week that shook me, and I dont know why it is

[BigRedDog]

Day 84 and it seems both impossible that ive gone this far, and impossible its only been 84 days.

@BigRedDog the few weeks leading up to my HOF were brutal - some of the worst of my quit. Always have a plan and focus ODAAT.

Ive noticed the same issue in the past week. Its like im reliving all the initial withdrawal symptoms again and have by far the biggest cravings ive had in awhile.

[MN_Engineer]

Day 84 and it seems both impossible that ive gone this far, and impossible its only been 84 days.

@BigRedDog the few weeks leading up to my HOF were brutal - some of the worst of my quit. Always have a plan and focus ODAAT.

[BigRedDog]

Day 84 and it seems both impossible that ive gone this far, and impossible its only been 84 days.

[Keith0617]

From 09 to yesterday afternoon/evening, three cans of grizzly a day. Last time I touched it was yesterday at 6pm.

Ive had enough, sitting here feeling nauseous and irritable, but it'll be worth it eventually

Glad to see you made it over to Discord @BigRedDog. If you follow the program you will stay quit.

[BigRedDog]

From 09 to yesterday afternoon/evening, three cans of grizzly a day. Last time I touched it was yesterday at 6pm.

Ive had enough, sitting here feeling nauseous and irritable, but it'll be worth it eventually