Now I'm posting for theraputic reasons I guess. You know, I'm talking to my wife about it, and even she doesn't think I'm all that bad. I guess it's all the same, I'm an addict... so I get that. But, I don't crave the stuff during the day. I don't need to get out and have a dip. Is there such a thing as a situational dipper? I can't stand the thought of cutting my grass without dipping. Doing work in the garage without dipping. Taking a long drive without dipping. But... that's about it! I guess when it comes down to it, there are other times I just "have one...." like when I'm on the computer at night. Bottom line? A can every 3 days, a can every week.... that's too much. Just because I don't have a can a day or two can a day habit doesn't mean I don't have the habit. Mentally, this is killing me! This is day 3, I know it gets easier, I've been here before. I'm just hoping and praying that I can throw in some of the hooch snuff or the smokey mountain stuff and when I'm painting, feel like things are the way they should be! The last 3 days haven't been all that hard. I've been working and doing my normal routine.... I don't miss it all that much. I just always liked the idea that if I wanted one, I could have it. Now that it's not an option, it's messin' with my mind. Does any of this make sense!? UGH!