Thanks Spuds I am hyper aware my doc doesn't seem to think anything is going on but I am a tad paranoid.
We're all paranoid to a degree. We all know the truth - we all poisoned ourselves for however many years, and we all, deep down inside, believe that one day, they doc is going to sit us down and tell us we have the be C.
I've been Quit for over 5 years, and I am just waiting for that day. I don't let it run my life, though. Until that day comes, I'm living every minute of what I have left, nic free. I have a wife, and three daughters. I spend most of my time with them, trying to make every day, event, moment count with them. It's not depressing at all. In fact, its very rewarding.
I guess what I'm trying to tell you Cat, is focus on what is happening now. Like your Quit. Your body is going to continue to throw a temper tantrum because you a refusing to feed nicotine into it. Ignore it. The sore throat, sore jaw, blurry vision, headaches, all of it. They are just signs of recovery.
Finally, if you have been honest with your doc, and he's looking for signs of cancer and sees none. Take his word as a source of comfort. He knows what he's looking for. Cancer is a bitch, but she doesn't like to stay silent. You'd know it if you had it.
Stay strong, Cat.
