General Discussion - 2018

[Goody]

I took the wife shopping yesterday so she could get some things for are vacation coming right up. I'm just standing there like a idiot holding up the clothing racks staring into space when my phone starts to buzz. I look at it, and it is a message from Athan saying Congrags on day 50. And then it hit me. There are few times in a mans life when he feels real pride. And I mean that pride that is yours and yours alone, I felt this yesterday after that phone call, in that crappy store. It hit me like a ton of bricks. 50 days with no Nic. on my back. No one new but I walked a little taller and prouder in that store. It was a great me moment that I shared with only myself and my wife, now I share with all of you. Thank you for that cal, and thanks to KTC. I would have never gotten this far without you. Let the journey and fight continue.

[bifish99]

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!)
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew
You've lied about using
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out
You've fallen asleep with a chew in
You've recycled a chew because you were running low
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch?

All of these, plus:

- Waking up thinking about my first dip, instead of sex.

- Taking a shower so I could have a dip and my wife would not know.

- Facing my kids with dip in, after lecturing them for years about the horrors of nicotine....new low there.

- Having my sister nickname me "chawlipsuckermouth".


Facing the realities of this bullshit habit really helps, along with the growing sense of brotherhood here. Thanks to all.

8 days clean....

[Athan]

You stare at the floor. You are alone in a crowded waiting room. You’re finding it hard to breathe; as if a weight were actually on your chest compressing it. Though it’s 65 degrees in there you are bathed in a cold sweat. Cancer. The word itself instills fear in just about everyone. “What is that stuff Daddy? That stuff you put in your mouth?” You remember his little words, spoken so long ago like they were yesterday. Your little man. Little nothing. He’s a strapping young man now. You’ve never been more proud of anything or anyone in your whole life. You were there at his graduation from boot camp. The pride on his face was nothing to what you held in your heart. One of your greatest joys is introducing him to acquaintances, “This is my son…”
“Sir?”, the doctors words shake you from your reverie. “Sir, your son is going to be fine. We had to take some 60% of his jaw and 30% of his tongue. But we think we got it all.”
True. He might have learned to chew from someone else.
But he didnÂ’t.
He learned from you.

[Gromo]

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine. So frequently...or turned down because of dip breath.
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!) any time I didn't have money..which was all the time lol.
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew. I have never checked out more dude ass than when I left my can in the truck at a giants game.
You've lied about using. Only to my grandparents, I was a loud and proud type of dumbass.
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach. Yep, and found that bitch a year later during a desperate time and thrown one dry nasty thing in anyway.
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out. I was actually pretty good at keeping stocked up...my lazy would constantly fight with my addiction. Plus I drive by like 6 gas stations from my work to my house and another 2-3 quickee marts.
You've fallen asleep with a chew in. Ugh hated that shit, wake up realize you'd swollowed like half of that shit.
You've recycled a chew because you were running low. Hell if it wasn't in for more than 10 minutes it didn't count. 'puking'
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded. Thats what the top lip was for.
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed. No. I mean...I don't have kids. but I still feel like I wouldn't.
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it. Horrible at it. could barely drink with one in, but eating was out of the question. I couldn't gut dip to save my life.

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch? I'll make that shit my bitch every day. Finally I'm just my wifes bitch. nobody.nothing elses...unless she loans me to a friend to help with the painting or something....then I'm that persons bitch for the day...

[Athan]

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!)
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew
You've lied about using
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out
You've fallen asleep with a chew in
You've recycled a chew because you were running low
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch?

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine Probably
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!) Numerous times!
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew [/b]Not only that but looking for that round sillhouette because they are probably someone I would get along with in general.
You've lied about using YES
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach YES
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out YES
You've fallen asleep with a chew in All the time
You've recycled a chew because you were running low Yes absolutely. Gross.
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded Ive experienced the pain and just kept dipping. Especially with job and being up at night half the time my lip never had time to heal. After some busy shifts I would wake up in the morning and half the skin on the inside of my mouth would seem to molt off.
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed no
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it Yes, eating a drinking came easy, I never spit at all.

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch? I am no longer nicotines bitch. Everyday I will vow make it her my bitch for that day. I originally filled this out just because, but then thought I should post my answers. Largely because most of it embarrasses me, but I feel that right now is when I need to admit everything about the addiction and its hold on me. Nobody would understand those questions like you guys. Today is day 6 for me! Feeling the fog lighten up a little bit thankfully. I will stay strong today though! Thank you all.

damn proud to be quit with you today!

[desertmedic]

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!)
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew
You've lied about using
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out
You've fallen asleep with a chew in
You've recycled a chew because you were running low
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch?

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine Probably
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!) Numerous times!
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew [/b]Not only that but looking for that round sillhouette because they are probably someone I would get along with in general.
You've lied about using YES
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach YES
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out YES
You've fallen asleep with a chew in All the time
You've recycled a chew because you were running low Yes absolutely. Gross.
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded Ive experienced the pain and just kept dipping. Especially with job and being up at night half the time my lip never had time to heal. After some busy shifts I would wake up in the morning and half the skin on the inside of my mouth would seem to molt off.
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed no
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it Yes, eating a drinking came easy, I never spit at all.

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch? I am no longer nicotines bitch. Everyday I will vow make it her my bitch for that day. I originally filled this out just because, but then thought I should post my answers. Largely because most of it embarrasses me, but I feel that right now is when I need to admit everything about the addiction and its hold on me. Nobody would understand those questions like you guys. Today is day 6 for me! Feeling the fog lighten up a little bit thankfully. I will stay strong today though! Thank you all.

[Athan]

You might be its bitch if:
You've deferred sex for nicotine
You've been broke and paid for it with a credit card (you friggin financed your addiction you idiot, you actually paid interest on it!)
You've looked for the round silhouette on strangers in a crowd so you could bum a chew
You've lied about using
You've stashed cans to ensure your next fix was never out of reach
You've driven cross town because your normal stop was out
You've fallen asleep with a chew in
You've recycled a chew because you were running low
You've put a chew in and experienced pain because your lip is shredded
You've stolen from your kids piggy bank to finance your dirty deed
You've not only eaten with a chew in, you've actually gotten proficient at it

Aren't you tired of being it's bitch?

[Athan]

As quoted by UncleRico:
"Everybody will wake up if they are granted another day on earth.
What you do first after you wake up is a decision that you make."

As quoted by bgbdbrd:
"Wake up, piss, post
Freedom is what I crave most"


Regarding when to post roll (the promise to your group to remain nicotine free for the day). Statements that eloquent have to be shared, even celebrated!

[Athan]

So we had a guy cave yesterday. Said he was “half-assing” his quit.
CanÂ’t begin to convey the sense of loss I felt.
Here was someone who made a conscious decision to stop using a dangerous substance but in the end was unable to resist the sirens call.
6 days into it.
I wonÂ’t sugar coat it; itÂ’s a trial. The cravings are real. But so is freedom.
IÂ’m 63 days free today because I didnÂ’t cave yesterday.
I and most of the guys in our group communicate and actively lean on each other.
The guy that caved didnÂ’t. He neither sought out nor offered help.
He tried alone and he died alone.

[chewie]

I’m at the dentist office today. For the first time in over 30 years I got to circle “NO” next to the “Do you use tobacco” question.

This my first visit in a long time. Wish me luck.

good luck brother - looking forward to hearing your awesome report!

Good luck man! Remember that cancer screening! I got mine and it made me feel like a million bucks after it was finished to know that I was clean. You don't notice how much weight worrying about cancer puts on your shoulders until its suddenly gone.

Cancer Free?

Best. Two. Words. EVER!

[chris2alaska]

I’m at the dentist office today. For the first time in over 30 years I got to circle “NO” next to the “Do you use tobacco” question.

This my first visit in a long time. Wish me luck.

good luck brother - looking forward to hearing your awesome report!

Good luck man! Remember that cancer screening! I got mine and it made me feel like a million bucks after it was finished to know that I was clean. You don't notice how much weight worrying about cancer puts on your shoulders until its suddenly gone.

Cancer Free?

[Gromo]

I’m at the dentist office today. For the first time in over 30 years I got to circle “NO” next to the “Do you use tobacco” question.

This my first visit in a long time. Wish me luck.

good luck brother - looking forward to hearing your awesome report!

Good luck man! Remember that cancer screening! I got mine and it made me feel like a million bucks after it was finished to know that I was clean. You don't notice how much weight worrying about cancer puts on your shoulders until its suddenly gone.

[chewie]

I’m at the dentist office today. For the first time in over 30 years I got to circle “NO” next to the “Do you use tobacco” question.

This my first visit in a long time. Wish me luck.

good luck brother - looking forward to hearing your awesome report!

[chris2alaska]

I’m at the dentist office today. For the first time in over 30 years I got to circle “NO” next to the “Do you use tobacco” question.

This my first visit in a long time. Wish me luck.

[Athan]

Time

is

NOT

on

your

side

How old were you when you started

Time

is

NOT

on

your

side