There is the voice in your head. Always there, always speaking, always justifying. It always is a one sided converstation, yet we find ourselves engaged in these epics debates. They serve to rationalize and justify all of our choices. We often loose these debates to ourselves and are completely okay with the choice. We rationalized the decision to ourselves, it makes sense.
Here is where often we get our noses bent. Every single one of us needs to have a real second voice, beyond our own, to challenge our thinking and choices. That is where the KTC, the Vets and your brothers come in. We will always be there 24/7/365 to be the other voice.
You all may not like that fact. You all may call us keyboard cowboys, internet bad asses and a multitude of other things, but one thing remains. We arent here for unearned praise, thata boys and you'll get em next time. That doesnt work, not for us. We earn our praise, we earn our stripes, we understand that failure is not acceptable. Those that have continued to post +1 day in and day out, are proof of that fact.
So, you continue to try things your way, change the way things are around here in your limited experince. I had the same feelings, the same desire, the same chest thumping, know it all, I do not need someone telling me how to do this. Along come the vets and say "give me a 100 days of.doing it our way.Have you ever made it 100 days doing it your way?"
The innervoice still trys to justify leaving or making bad choices. The only difference is I know not to keep the discussion onesided. I need to hear what I dont want to hear. I need to get my nose bent and walk it off. I will be here in the morning to post roll. Why? I never have made it 732 days of doing it my way.
So, I as I continue to have the one sided agruements and debates, but know I can't keep it that way. No matter how much I want to be right.
