This Time Is For Real

[Candoit]

My Dad was admitted last night to the hospital with a blocked intensine. Of course my mother, not wanting to worry me, tells me at 11 pm, via text. When I go down in the morning to visit, she doesnt know his room number, because she doesnt know which hospital he is at. Why? Beacuse fukn Yale owns both hospitals in New Haven, "oh, he will be where ever we have room." Yeah great that helps. According to her, he will be out tonight. Nope he is going to be in for at least the next 48 hours. So, getting ready to leave work, now. Stressed yes, but nic free.

**note*** 602+1's in. Almost 2 trips around the sun and the shit thrown my direction, still lets the whisper in. Standing tall, keeping my word, and putting 100% of my faith in my brothers. This is what has worked, I will be damned if I will change now.

Prayers for your dad. Thanks for being such a leader here

Thank you. He is doing okay for what it is. The doctors are taking it one day at a time. Hoping the blockage clears when the bile is removed (sucking it out through a tube). So, time will tell. But on the upside my little brother didnt let anyone else know what was going on. Ie my 3 other siblings that live out of state. I love those convos....

CDI = Siblings: so I just visited dad in the hospital he is doing well.
Sib 1 = Wait.... He is in the hosiptial?? Since when???

Smoothed that over with them but life goes on. I thought of Teray and Tramagent and what they go through and keep their word. This is life and nicotine will never make it better.

[Tjschu]

My Dad was admitted last night to the hospital with a blocked intensine. Of course my mother, not wanting to worry me, tells me at 11 pm, via text. When I go down in the morning to visit, she doesnt know his room number, because she doesnt know which hospital he is at. Why? Beacuse fukn Yale owns both hospitals in New Haven, "oh, he will be where ever we have room." Yeah great that helps. According to her, he will be out tonight. Nope he is going to be in for at least the next 48 hours. So, getting ready to leave work, now. Stressed yes, but nic free.

**note*** 602+1's in. Almost 2 trips around the sun and the shit thrown my direction, still lets the whisper in. Standing tall, keeping my word, and putting 100% of my faith in my brothers. This is what has worked, I will be damned if I will change now.

Prayers for your dad. Thanks for being such a leader here

[Candoit]

My Dad was admitted last night to the hospital with a blocked intensine. Of course my mother, not wanting to worry me, tells me at 11 pm, via text. When I go down in the morning to visit, she doesnt know his room number, because she doesnt know which hospital he is at. Why? Beacuse fukn Yale owns both hospitals in New Haven, "oh, he will be where ever we have room." Yeah great that helps. According to her, he will be out tonight. Nope he is going to be in for at least the next 48 hours. So, getting ready to leave work, now. Stressed yes, but nic free.

**note*** 602+1's in. Almost 2 trips around the sun and the shit thrown my direction, still lets the whisper in. Standing tall, keeping my word, and putting 100% of my faith in my brothers. This is what has worked, I will be damned if I will change now.

[Rawls]

Keep laying the smooth asphalt for us in the rear. Look up to you and your abilities in this battle. Fight on Candy

Couldn't say well done on 600....
600+1 is just bigger!!
Proud of you.
Respectfully....
Rawls

[dipbegone]

Keep laying the smooth asphalt for us in the rear. Look up to you and your abilities in this battle. Fight on Candy

[CavMan83]

Awesome job from an awesome quitter.... Red, I'd quit with you any day of the week and twice on Sunday. You rock!

[Candoit]

Everyday that we show up and give our word, needs to be a celebration. Each day is a day further from the person we were and a day closer to the person who we are becoming.

I have had the same converstation with two quitters with in 72 hours of each other. One was day 221 and the other was at day 42. Each texted me...."fuk I am having craves..What the fuk! Why am I still getting them?"

I picked up the phone and called them....

Candi: Dude, ___ days is nothing compared to the length of time we used. 3650 days is 10 years, you think that 600 days is going to fix all of the damage we did?

Kwitthas: Fuk No.

Candi: Then why are you getting upset?

Kwitthas: Never looked at it that way.

Converstation carried on... but wanted to share this point. The worst thing any of us can do is put our quit on a schedule. By doing so you open yourself to dissappointment rather than aknowledgement. I know a crave can happen and I will deal. Rather than why am I still getting them? Fuk... That fuk moment, if not delt with accordingly could lead down a dark path.

She is sneaky, always waiting, each time your able to post a +1, needs to be celebrated as you continue to beat her and reclaim your life.

[Cantoo]

Candi. Its been a sweet ride.

Thanks for all you've done to help me and support my group!
Always appreciated, and admired.

6th floor badass!

'party2'

Cando, nice 6th floor!

I need all of you quitting with me every damn day, holding me accountable and making sure that I am here to give my word. I need this just as much on day 600 as I did on day 100.

Thanks candy for being huge in my quit and many others!

Well done on 600 and 601. You the man. You quitter!

[pab1964]

Candi. Its been a sweet ride.

Thanks for all you've done to help me and support my group!
Always appreciated, and admired.

6th floor badass!

'party2'

Cando, nice 6th floor!

I need all of you quitting with me every damn day, holding me accountable and making sure that I am here to give my word. I need this just as much on day 600 as I did on day 100.

Thanks candy for being huge in my quit and many others!

[Mogul]

I quit with your badass self. Thank you for always being here and quitting with me.

[Candoit]

Candi. Its been a sweet ride.

Thanks for all you've done to help me and support my group!
Always appreciated, and admired.

6th floor badass!

'party2'

Cando, nice 6th floor!

I need all of you quitting with me every damn day, holding me accountable and making sure that I am here to give my word. I need this just as much on day 600 as I did on day 100.

[Nomore1959]

Candi. Its been a sweet ride.

Thanks for all you've done to help me and support my group!
Always appreciated, and admired.

6th floor badass!

'party2'

Cando, nice 6th floor!

[ChickDip]

Candi. Its been a sweet ride.

Thanks for all you've done to help me and support my group!
Always appreciated, and admired.

6th floor badass!

'party2'

[Candoit]

Yesterday was 200 days since the wife told me she thought it was over. I saw that late last night, and have been thinking about how far I have come as a person.

I still have much more to go, but I am grateful for that. I am grateful I get the chance to learn and be happy with out the nic bitch control my life and my choices. I am making the choices based on what I need to do for my family and me. That is a calming freedom that I have earned, but know its a bad choice away from ending.

[Candoit]

I am doing two new things...

1. 24 hours with no negative talk or actions. I set my timer on my phone for 24 hours and restart every time I am negative. My current best is 4 hours.

2. Making a list of the things I have to do today. The one that gives me the greatest axenity, is the one I do first.

I want to be able to do both to completion every day.