22 May 2018, 19:56 #4
Seems that I may have done this a little ass backward as I've been posting roll in the August 18 group for the last 23 days. I've been reading quite a few introductions here and not quite sure where to start. I guess for starters I have been dipping for the last 40 years, started when I was 14 (seemed like the cool thing to do as all of the other friends were doing it). Cope was my addiction of choice, started on it and ended it 23 days ago. I was just reading Alpine's introduction, and although I have, unfortunately decades more abuse, there are some common things there. Hiding the addiction is probably the most prevalent one, although looking back at things I know damn well most everyone I know, knew that I dipped.
Anyhow, the light finally came on for me that this is not what I need to be doing and the health risks which I downplayed in my own mind are just too great to risk life. I think it just has come to that time in my life that I need to take full responsibly and to be a role model for my grandchildren. Not to mention my wife of 35 years needs me to be the man she saw all those years ago. I know it was dumb and even dumber that I kept it up for some many years.
I’m not sure how well this may resonate with quitters or folks considering to quit, but there were numerous times that going to the dentist for normal cleanings I would also ask to have an oral cancer screening done. Pretty responsible I thought, but then 30 mins after leaving the office I throw in a chew! Dumb addict behavior or what. Things kind of came to a head for me this past April, I’ve been worried to death about oral cancer due to the soreness I have been experiencing for months. So with an upcoming dental appointment early in May I finally sat down with myself and decided enough was enough. April 30th was my first official day of no nicotine and I had that dental appointment which they told me to stop being such a worry wart and that everything was good.
Not sure if I hit all that I was supposed for an intro, I'm sure that the Veterans here will square me away. It does scare me that heroin addicts have a better success rate than nicotine addicts. I'm pretty sure I read that somewhere on the site in the past 3 weeks.
I'm here to stay quit!! See you all on roll call tomorrow!
Updated August 5th, 2018. Just wanted to provide a little more context into my addict behavior.
Last edited by arrakisdq on 05 Aug 2018, 11:03, edited 1 time in total.
Quit Date 4/30/2018
HoF Date 8/7/2018
