So I quit dipping 27 days ago today. I decided to quit because I'm buying a house and I just can't reason within myself that dip is worth not having a better home luxury such as cable or internet, so I decided to rework my budget. Well... It sucked. I had no help, everyone at work dips, and I was struggling. I hadn't heard of this website yet, so I did use NRT for a week thinking that it would help me out. Well, it didn't really. Sure, something was in my mouth other than the four freaking pouches that i used to put in four freaking times a day, but when I stopped that after a week, I went right back to day one pretty much. That's when I decided to quit cold turkey.
Side note: I consider my quit date to be 03/06/2015, but I technically didn't quit nicotine (due to NRT) until 03/13/2015. If you would like me to change my quit date on my profile, just let me know.
So anyways, I kept really struggling. My gums were bleeding a lot because I was unconsciously gnawing on the inside of my gums. My jaw and teeth were hurting every morning from what I assume was me grinding my teeth during the night. I will still catch myself grinding or gnawing every once in a while when I'm really craving a dip. I only found this website a few days ago and made my first two posts yesterday and today on the Pre-HOF June 2015 Group promising to not use nicotine.
I decided that I needed to introduce myself and lay all of this out here because I am currently sitting in a truck at work. I volunteered to work the holiday because I am really wanting a nice fan for my new living room, and what better way to get one than to get some double time and a half? Anyways, (sorry, I get sidetracked pretty easily) I'm just sitting in this truck watching a belt press. So all I'm doing is browsing the internet and making a few adjustments here and there to the press. In the past, this was prime time dip time. Where I would usually go through 1.5 (God I'm such an idiot) cans a day, I could easily go through 2 just sitting here. I am struggling really badly, but the good thing is that I can't leave to actually go get something. I just hope to God that I somehow don't trick myself into getting one on the way home.
On a side note, I would like to tell you a story on how much my brain hates me. So I love to drink Big Red. It's a marvelous soda that is rare around where I live. Anyways, the gas station that carries them also happens to be one of the few places that offers Skoal X-tra Mint Pouches. So about 6 moths ago when I was attempting to quit, my brain told me "Hey man, a Big Red would REALLY calm your nerves. So I stop by the gas station to get one, and while I'm at the counter, my brain tells my mouth to say "Can I also get a can?" Well, that's what did me in.
I kept on dipping until last month, and now I'm here ready to take part in this community. I hope that I'm not too much of a blunt ass hole and I also hope that I don't ramble too much and get on people's nerves.
Lastly, I posted in the Pre-HOF June 2015 Group twice now and I just don't understand the whole "PM the person above and below you and get their digits." I guess I don't understand because the list has changed since yesterday. Another thing, what exactly is the Spread Sheet Of Accountability? Is that where the names of the new members are posted? Or is that old members? I just don't really understand that part of it.
Well that's my spill fellas. I am always available to talk in some way or fashion, and I am also open to tips. No offense, but if all you're going to do is give a quintessential Braveheart speech to get me pumped up or something like that, those have never worked for me. Just be brutally honest with me. Don't be nice just because you feel like you have to. Just give me straight talk, please?
I hope to become a huge part of this!
