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Re: day 3
« Reply #768 on: October 23, 2018, 07:41:00 PM »
7:20 AM - May 27, 2016 #781

Just digging deep this last 7 days has been a mf but i am kickiin ass again. I cant say its been easy if I was alone I would have quit. The support of family,friends and my KTC family always gets me over the hump. It's also easy to lose your way when all the changes in direction start adding up but I appear to get a boost surprise text when stuff gets tough. I am in the chair today getting my chemo on rolling w my brother and sisters. Thank you all.

3:44 PM - May 27, 2016 #782

From: Frazzled

Rock it, Todd...just keep kicking ass every day.

We'll say a few more prayers on your behalf.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

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Re: day 3
« Reply #767 on: October 23, 2018, 07:40:28 PM »
7:20 AM - May 27, 2016 #781

Just digging deep this last 7 days has been a mf but i am kickiin ass again. I cant say its been easy if I was alone I would have quit. The support of family,friends and my KTC family always gets me over the hump. It's also easy to lose your way when all the changes in direction start adding up but I appear to get a boost surprise text when stuff gets tough. I am in the chair today getting my chemo on rolling w my brother and sisters. Thank you all.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

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Re: day 3
« Reply #766 on: October 23, 2018, 07:39:50 PM »
5:43 AM - May 27, 2016 #780

From: worktowin

Lots of great messages here for a great brother and friend. Todd you are in my family's thoughts and prayers daily. Today is fight day! Go get it!
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

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Re: day 3
« Reply #765 on: October 23, 2018, 07:39:19 PM »
5:07 AM - May 27, 2016 #779

From: redtrain14

Every time I think life gets tough for me, I think of you and your battle. You are an inspiration my friend. Keep up the good fight.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

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Re: day 3
« Reply #764 on: October 23, 2018, 07:38:46 PM »
8:07 PM - May 26, 2016 #778

From: Pab1964

Trauma my friend when the road feels long and lonely and it feels though you can't make it any farther, God is there and will never put more on you than you can handle. Don't ever give up , you are my inspiration more than you will ever know. Life can be awful and tiring but also every extra second you give fighting for yourself to your loved ones is priceless! God bless and you're in my prayers daily.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

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Re: day 3
« Reply #763 on: October 23, 2018, 07:38:15 PM »
9:16 AM - May 25, 2016 #777

From: eyehatecope

There is ZERO QUIT in you Trauma! Respect to you bud! I don't have to tell you to keep fighting, you are kicking ass better than most of us.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

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Re: day 3
« Reply #762 on: October 23, 2018, 07:37:40 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

From: AppleJack

You know I'm with ya my July brother... rock-n-roll T!

4:28 PM - May 19, 2016 #771

From: ChickDip

Here's to not "sniffin wood".
With you.

4:56 PM - May 19, 2016 #772

From: Danojeno

What an attitude. Thanks for showing us how to kick ass.

5:05 PM - May 19, 2016 #773

From: Pab1964

You really are a what a real man is supposed to be! Would love to come walk with you. You're truly an inspiration to me and many others. God bless you and never say never as long as there's a God in heaven!

5:59 PM - May 19, 2016 #774

From: worktowin

You are da man.

4:11 PM - May 23, 2016 #775

From: KingNothing

This ^^^. Keep truckin Trauma, we're behind you.

7:40 AM - May 24, 2016 #776

From: midwest04z

You may be one of the most inspiring guys on the planet. With you Trauma.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

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Re: day 3
« Reply #761 on: October 23, 2018, 07:37:05 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

From: AppleJack

You know I'm with ya my July brother... rock-n-roll T!

4:28 PM - May 19, 2016 #771

From: ChickDip

Here's to not "sniffin wood".
With you.

4:56 PM - May 19, 2016 #772

From: Danojeno

What an attitude. Thanks for showing us how to kick ass.

5:05 PM - May 19, 2016 #773

From: Pab1964

You really are a what a real man is supposed to be! Would love to come walk with you. You're truly an inspiration to me and many others. God bless you and never say never as long as there's a God in heaven!

5:59 PM - May 19, 2016 #774

From: worktowin

You are da man.

4:11 PM - May 23, 2016 #775

From: KingNothing

This ^^^. Keep truckin Trauma, we're behind you.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

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Re: day 3
« Reply #760 on: October 23, 2018, 07:36:25 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

From: AppleJack

You know I'm with ya my July brother... rock-n-roll T!

4:28 PM - May 19, 2016 #771

From: ChickDip

Here's to not "sniffin wood".
With you.

4:56 PM - May 19, 2016 #772

From: Danojeno

What an attitude. Thanks for showing us how to kick ass.

5:05 PM - May 19, 2016 #773

From: Pab1964

You really are a what a real man is supposed to be! Would love to come walk with you. You're truly an inspiration to me and many others. God bless you and never say never as long as there's a God in heaven!

5:59 PM - May 19, 2016 #774

From: worktowin

You are da man.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

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Re: day 3
« Reply #759 on: October 23, 2018, 07:35:52 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

From: AppleJack

You know I'm with ya my July brother... rock-n-roll T!

4:28 PM - May 19, 2016 #771

From: ChickDip

Here's to not "sniffin wood".
With you.

4:56 PM - May 19, 2016 #772

From: Danojeno

What an attitude. Thanks for showing us how to kick ass.

5:05 PM - May 19, 2016 #773

From: Pab1964

You really are a what a real man is supposed to be! Would love to come walk with you. You're truly an inspiration to me and many others. God bless you and never say never as long as there's a God in heaven!
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

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Re: day 3
« Reply #758 on: October 23, 2018, 07:34:58 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

From: AppleJack

You know I'm with ya my July brother... rock-n-roll T!

4:28 PM - May 19, 2016 #771

From: ChickDip

Here's to not "sniffin wood".
With you.

4:56 PM - May 19, 2016 #772

From: Danojeno

What an attitude. Thanks for showing us how to kick ass.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

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Re: day 3
« Reply #757 on: October 23, 2018, 07:34:20 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

From: AppleJack

You know I'm with ya my July brother... rock-n-roll T!

4:28 PM - May 19, 2016 #771

From: ChickDip

Here's to not "sniffin wood".
With you.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech

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Re: day 3
« Reply #756 on: October 23, 2018, 07:33:38 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.

8:13 AM - May 19, 2016 #770

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Re: day 3
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2:39 AM - May 19, 2016 #769

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Thanks for the update Trauma - Safe travels and good luck with he surgery tomorrow! You'll be in our prayers.
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"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

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Re: day 3
« Reply #754 on: October 23, 2018, 07:31:42 PM »
12:04 AM - May 19, 2016 #768

Well folks here we are again been awhile since last update. Last Friday started as most Fridays do uneventful. I was going to just get up and go have my port checked. I went in thinking that they were maybe just going to toss in a stitch or staple to help the last 1/4 inch along the incision line to heal the port. Well the local surgeon (Minot ND) walked in took a half second look and says thats open I can see the port. So I contacted my Fargo VA surgeon and he says well lets get it out. So went from poof gonna get a stitch to 10 hour round trip to Fargo VA cause at the VA we dont need to wait on insurance paperwork to catch up. My surgeon met me in the ER at Fargo VA cut the old port out patched me up scheduled me for this Friday to have a new one put in. So I guess you can say I have gone through 15 years of ports in a year.

This Friday I go under the blade a gain 0630 show time 0800 cut time. My surgeon said this time we are going to sew this port down as tight as we can and use permanent stitches on the inside at as many layers as he can stitch together stitch the top for 10 days and glue this hole shut. I am going to go on light duty for the next 30 days and follow all of the rules...(which bites ass for me) My high energy no quit is who I am. I have learned a few things on this journey and one I learned the other day from an OLD AF Chief who is my boss now is there is a long way away from cant and shouldnt.... since he told me that it was a lot easier of a pill to swallow that sometimes you need to just take a break.

I am also underway with new course of chemo with new drugs and regimen. Round one I was not prepared mentally and got my ass handed to me. Rounds 2 and 3 kicked their ass nicely so got my head in the game. The rest will come. Mostly is just the small shit that is a pain in the ass like unplanned Fargo trips and lil weird side affects...but it beats sniffing wood.

So this Friday its port reinstall in the am and in the pm Pinched and I have a veterans 5k Fargo Marathon to walk since running is out we are walking it. Saturday (WALK) again a 10K back to the following instructions my surgeon has approved both as long as I walk. Aint how I planned it just a momentary change of direction I dont have set backs just unplanned changes of direction and all this shit piled up together still beats dying.

So if any of you still have friends dippin tell them this if you dont have what it takes to quit nicotine you are gonna be TOO big of a pussy for chemo. Dying is easy its the living that is hard got to dig deep everyday and there would be no way in hell I could do this on my own. If it werent for the support of my wife and family, the support i get daily from the members this site and the people I have in my corner locally. I would have been consumed by this cancer shit. I have already lived through two you only have 6 months left.

Well thats enough out of this pie hole for one night/day gonna be busy next few days.
Complacency sucks, one moment of it is the difference between being a user and a quitter....OIB

"Lean into the fall my friends, life can be amazing without nicotine. It's just a matter of choice." sM

"Endeavor to persevere."Chief Dan George "The Outlaw Josey Wales".

MY HOF speech