Now that my head is a little less foggy, and I am feeling better on Day 7, I thought I'd write a more proper intro.
I started dipping "only when I drank" my freshman year of college. A bunch of my fraternity brothers had brought back probably close to 300 trial cans of skoal pouches from spring break. We were partying hard one weekend and I was exhausted. I thought about going to bed when a buddy told me that one pouch would get me energized in no time flat. I popped that pouch (skoal citrus) and man was I alive. The nicotine rushed in, energizing me and making me feel less intoxicated. From then on for the next few weeks I would bum a pouch almost every time we drank.
The problem was...I continued to add times when I would have a pouch (studying, being angry, etc). It only took a month until I switched to long cut (grizzly Wintergreen or Kodiak Ice). Once I had the long cut it was on. I went from 3 or four pouches to a can a day in less than a few weeks.
I denied or hid my addiction for a long time. Hell, my parents only learned of it 3 years later when I got angry bc they used my portion of duty free tobacco on the way into Canada. Dipping became part of my life, I often ate with a dip in and would dip before brushing my teeth in the morning.
I realized I had a problem only after a friend bet me to stop about a year ago, and I couldn't go 12 hours without a headache developing. It took me until know, and the encouragement of the GF to look up the side affects and the crap that we are putting into our bodies. The last website I found before throwing out the can was this one.
I pledge to quit today and I plan to make that pledge everyday from here out.
Brown
Good stuff Brown.
But dont get ahead of yourself.
You have no idea what tomorrow brings.
Tomorrow might not even show up at all!
All we can be responsible for is now.
It's a gift... Called the Present
Use today to be a man of integrity.
Use today to read and gain wisdom to fight your addiction.
Use today to experience a new life without a drug and it's chains.
Use today to help another addict.
Use today to become the man you were created to be.
Use today and enjoy being free.
You are not doing without.....
You are escaping a death trap.
Her play ground is the past... and the Future.
That's where the lie is.
Freedom is found in the truth of today.
I Quit with you Today.
ODAAT
Rawls 603