Today is day 42. It has been a roller coaster of a ride with many highs and lows. Lately, everything has been highs so I can't complain. I do still catch myself doing something and I'm like, "FUCK. I need a dip." But I just talk myself through it and tell myself to not be stupid and it works out. It's kind of frustrating though. I thought the toughest part was going to be when I was drinking, but it turns out, the toughest part is when I'm just doing random shit. Especially outside.
We got a little pool to try and stay somewhat cool in the Texas heat and I found myself setting it up and looking around like I was missing a piece for it. I was thinking what am I missing here??? Then I go oh yeah, a nice big dip. I just shook my head and said nope. So then three hours later of trying to setup this redneck pool, I had forgotten about the dip.
By no means am I "cured". I don't think I will ever be cured. That's a word for ham. I figure I'll have to post roll on here for a long time and every day I will have to make a conscious decision to not put dip in my mouth. But with the support of my brothers and sisters, I do know that it's possible.
Much Tougher
Boomer
I know EXACTLY what you're talking about!! It's that "missing" something feeling that creeps up smacks you in the face. These craves have subsided, but haven't gone away fully for me yet on day 105, but maybe they'll go away on day 106
@Boomer: If you don't already, I would suggest buying some of the fake dip. I use it for those random craves that pop up that you mentioned. Always work great to sate the hunger so to speak. ive heard great things about smokey mountain. supposedly most every walmart carries it but ive checked four where I live and have yet to find any.
I bought some Bacc Off! online, its only 2.45 a can. From experience, unless you dipped fine cut, the only pinchable one is the original mint. or get pouches. the flavor in all of them isnt really there and the mint isnt normal dip mint (its peppermint) which I find strange.
Anyway, if you want something to stick in there during your craves, this is the way to go. Another cool thing about the bacc off site is (if you try and end up liking) when you checkout you can choose to sign up to automatically send you more, so you never run out.
Im quit with you, and CONGRATS on 43 days!
Nicotine works by attaching itself to nerve receptacles in your brain that release dopamine. Dopamine:
In the brain, dopamine functions as a neurotransmitter—a chemical released by nerve cells to send signals to other nerve cells. The brain includes several distinct dopamine systems, one of which plays a major role in reward-motivated behavior. Every type of reward that has been studied increases the level of dopamine in the brain, and a variety of addictive drugs, including stimulants such as cocaine, amphetamine, and methamphetamine, act by amplifying the effects of dopamine. Other brain dopamine systems are involved in motor control and in controlling the release of several important hormones.
Basically, your brain wants to be happy. However, the evil drug Nicotine has confused it into thinking the only way to be happy is through...Nicotine! It's a parasite that is seeking a symbiotic relationship with you.
Many of the nerve cells in your brain are also closely associated with our memories. However, the evil drug Nicotine tries to rewrite history to show that good times were good because of it, and bad times were better with it. It's the Kim Jong Il and the Iraqi Information Minister all rolled up into one.
The key is to deal with the moment. Like you said, you were fine a short time later. Know that it will take a few times to (Insert random activity where you used to use) to re-map your brain. That's why the first 3 days are such hell. Most of us used all the time. We didn't know how to act without the drug. We couldn't fucking do anything without it.
And then it got better.
This, too, will get better.
