Hello all,
Many of you know me here as I have been around a while. I was part of a quit group about a year ago that provided me with the opportunity to quit. I stopped for 6 months and started again. I came back to join another quit group in August where I stopped for 3 months and began dipping again, about three weeks ago. Before these quit groups I had quit off and on with no serious intention and a weak attitude.
In my first group I posted roll for about 180 days, always staying true to my word when I posted. I also was a part of a great texting group who provided support outside of the KTC environment. Unfortunately I got lackadaisical about my quit and stopped posting roll as well as leaving the text group. I thought I could manage the quit on my own without the support of KTC. I was obviously wrong.
My second group was back in August where I posted for about the first two weeks and began to post roll on a spotty basis. I never made connections with the other members and never joined any texting group. Once again I caved (about three weeks ago).
I am sure many of you have lost faith in my quit and I guess at this point I don't blame you. I am sorry to the group members/members I have let down including MN_Ben, mogul, nolaq, doc2quit4good, diesel2112, Evil_Won, mthomas3824, spartonron, Wt57, ScrewYouCope, grizzylhasclaws, and countless others.
I don't know if KTC will take me back again, but I would like to state a few things I have learned, if not only for me, for the benefit of new quitters:
1. Posting roll is essential. Even after HOF. The day you stop posting roll is the day when things go downhill. My two "serious quits" (for lack of a better term) lasted over 100 days and caved due to my lazy approach.
2. Some sort of support group outside of KTC such as a text group or chat group is an essential part of your quit. This is VERY important, if not just as important as posting roll.
3. Don't quit because you're scared or because of a girlfriend, family member, etc; quit for your own self
4. Take advantage of all the resources available to you on KTC - there are many.
For me points 1 2 were my downfalls as I didn't take them seriously. I didn't come in with the right attitude from the beginning as many of you know.
I would like to start a new journey with a new attitude and a new perspective; however this is at the discretion of the members of KTC. If so, I would like to begin posting roll and get back to some sort of text group for support outside of the KTC environment.
Thanks,
CC268