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I'm 43, with a beautiful wife, 2 beautiful kids, manage an aerospace company. Converse with business professionals all day. By most accounts, I'm NOT someone you'd think would be dippin into a can of skoal... but I've been doing it pretty much all day/every day for the last 25 years. I go through about a can every 2 days - but that's only because I keep each dip in my mouth for at least 1-3 hours... whats worse is I don't even use a spitter anymore, haven't for 10+ years. My coworkers have no idea I chew. I keep the dip way on the side of my lower cheek. My wife had no idea for the first 3 years - until the embarrassing moment she had to confront me about my odd smelling breath - said it smelled like black olives, hmmm interesting... maybe it would have been better if she said it smelled like shit. I'm a closet dipper. I'm very discreet. You won't see me put a dip in. You won't see me spit one out. You won't even see it while I'm talking to you. But it's there. ALL the time.
I've never really tried to quit before. I've thought about it - how it must be pretty bad to have tobacco and whatever chemicals in your mouth all day, swallowing that shit all day. I've never had any lip sores, tooth decay, no ulcers - maybe I've been lucky. But c'mon, it can't be good for you. I have no definitive reason for quitting yesterday. There was no "straw that broke the camels back", was no cancer scare, was no ultimatum from my family. I'm just sick of being a slave to it. I'm a pretty strong guy (emotionally and physically). But dip made me it's bitch for 25+ years. It doesn't take no for an answer. Within 1 minute of me waking in the morning, I have a dip in my mouth. Right up until I go to bed. The only time I don't have one in is when I'm eating. Then Christ! of course you need a big one right after you eat... That is insane! It's sick! Who does that??
Yesterday I thought "screw it, today I quit". I immediately got online to figure out how - I wasn't naive enough to think it would be easy. I was right, It's NOT easy. But I'm glad I found this site. I'm going cold-turkey and I'm not going back. It WILL be tough, it WILL suck ass - but I will not fail. I'm stronger than this leaf-dirt. I'm craving right now. Been almost exactly 24 hrs. I'm a little surprised I've made it this far. This site has helped, just writing this post is helping. I will probably need more support over the next few days. I've read about the fog - didn't think I would feel it this soon though. Gonna need a bunch of snacks and gum, and up my intake of caffeine - but I've quit. And every second is a second of freedom.