This is my second time on the site. I quit back in 2011, made my 100 days, got the accolades, and felt really good about what I'd accomplished (before anyone makes a comment, I'm sorry for another profile--I can't remember my original username and/or the email it was attached to so I'm starting over, but I don't want to mislead anyone into thinking I'm brand new).
After I made that 100 days I fell off the site. Quit engaging, quit posting roll and I was doing really good for months,
Until Dove Season.
So armed with a sense of accomplishment and no accountability I had a dip from a buddy. Then another. That night I bought a can--
and here I am almost 3 years later.
I've been a Ninja too, dipping in bathrooms, while my wife is at work or out of town, or running errands.
It seems that my life revolves around a gold topped can, and while I can't believe it happened again, if I continue to deny it I'll find myself 3 years from now, dealing with the addiction I should have killed in 2011.
There's certainly enough reason to quit. I've been married for a little over a year now to my best friend, and in March we're expecting our first so I have plenty to look forward to in place of filling my mouth with tobacco, but a little denial and a little procrastination make for a virtual treasure trove of excuses and absolution.
Today is the day though.
Had I never left I could have gotten my comma almost a full year ago. Instead, I'm starting at Day 1 again getting ready for the 72 hour withdraw and the inevitable fog that follows.
The reason I'm quit is because I want a life without the specter of mouth/throat/lip cancer, and the reason I'm back is because this site works.
To the new guys reading this message in the throes of withdraw, it will get better. Stay with your quit group, post your name everyday, and participate in the site. It strengthens your bond to your buddies, in turn strengthening your quit.
To the old guard who've read a hundred posts just like mine, you're advice and involvement on the page is what keeps people quit (while they're here). Thanks for keeping this site alive, because prodigals like me need it.
Here's to a new quit.