I've done this before. I know I can do it. It's easy right? Just don't buy any more...
Tomorrow will be day 10. I was chewing tobacco from wake to sleep 24/7 for many years now. I never got to the point of bulging lip, always wanted it to be inconspicuous.
My gums have suffered, I've got a tooth right up front that's going to need a crown likely.
I've not been spitting, been gutting it all along. I've had a swollen lymph node the last two days as a reminder of this. I've read this can be due to the fact the mouth isn't producing as much saliva as it used to.
I had to move my sisters car to let someone out yesterday. It wreaked of smoke smell and even though I didn't smoke often (dip was my preference) the disgusting smell of smoke had me wanting to steal a cigarette from her pack.
I went cold turkey. I've never found cessation to work for me. Vaping is just a reminder I could be smoking. I gave my vape and all vaping supplies to my sister so the temptation was no longer there.
Thing is though as mentioned, I've done this before. What I need to figure out how to convince myself is that I'll never be strong enough to take a dip on the weekends. Or at the bar. Or camping.
Yet I always do tell myself I can get away with using the drug part time. It always results the same, 2 cans a week.
I'm 44 and haven't dated since forever. Tobacco was a big part of that. I chose chew over companionship.
I don't know why I'm posting here except to think out loud and with the hopes that something I say will ring a bell with someone else potentially thinking about quitting.
I want to live. Think 4th times got to be the charm.
