Thirty days ago I was sitting in front of this same computer, my head was pounding, it felt like there was a little guy in there with a big ass sledge hammer trying to beat his way out. My vision felt blurred like I was under water or something and I was barely able to concentrate on just breathing! I knew why I felt the way I did and more importantly I knew what would make it ALL go away!
Yup I was going through nicotine withdraws, and I was in the second day of it. It was starting to get the better of me, I knew if I packed my lip with the stuff like magic these symptoms would go away. I knew that from experience as I'd tried to quit many times before. I even once stopped for more than a year, but like a idiot I thought I could be a "casual dipper" only to be sucked back into it full time.
I wanted this quit to be different I wanted to get this monkey off my back for good! So I did a web search looking for some kind of an idea how long the mind altering affects of nicotine withdraw were going to last. I typed in "how long does nicotine stay in your system?" or something like that and ended up here on KTC.
Whoever thought to get this site listed under that web search is a genius! I spent a good part of my afternoon reading here and discovered that I wasn't the only one to experience the "fog" and the "suck of the quit!" I also heard from others that if I could just stick it out a bit longer things would in fact get better, and they did! Thanks to those who helped those first couple days.
I posted role that day as a day two quitter and have continued to post only missing one day while I was traveling. It's been 32 days since I quit and each day feels better than the last. It hasn't been without struggle though, the craving for something I've done for 30 years is tough to break, but I'm getting it done one day and one craving at a time.
This site has played a huge part in my staying quit this time.It's not only given me information to help me get this far but also the support of many other addicts like me who have beaten it and are there to help. Thanks!
