Hutch18 - quit

[Hutch18]

On the eve of Day 50 I am still in shock that I have quit for this long. Like all the long time KTC addicts, excuse me, i meant to say long time KTC users this site is a big reason for 50 days. I still don't feel 100%, but I can say that I 100% love not being slave to the Nicotine bitch. I am not saying the battle is over, not by a long shot. But I am saying I have learned a lot about myself in 50 (almost) days.
1) I can quit, when I want to.
2) I can't quit alone (tired that for over 20 years)
3) I can't quit alone
4) Feeling like crap is the reminder I will need when its not just the even of 50 days, but 500 days +
5) I can't quit alone
6) Your brain messes with you and makes things worse than they are
7) I can't quit alone
8) posting roll is a key element

Thanks for all the support you addicts and Bad ass quitters and to all my brothers in October quit group. Rock It.

[cbird65]

...I have to remind myself what I felt like the first week. I felt like complete crap, so i have no need to feel like that again. I am reminded daily that I am an addict and that i was a slave to nicotine for 34 f"ing years. So the journey to recovery will be exactly that, a journey. Not a short trip, not a quick fix, not a I don't need anyone. It's a journey, it takes planning, tools, other people and a daily commitment. ...

Wow Hutch. You've certainly figured a lot out in 34 days. That's good stuff, HOF Speech material right there. Keep it up, I'll mark it on my calendar so I can look for that speech when you hit that milestone.

Dude... Your killing it.
It won't live without oxygen.
Don't give it a breath of your day.
In time... ODAAT
You will realizing your freedom.
Truth never fails.
Hate it....... And Help others.
I quit with you.
Rawls 1367

learn it
live it
love it

[Rawls]

...I have to remind myself what I felt like the first week. I felt like complete crap, so i have no need to feel like that again. I am reminded daily that I am an addict and that i was a slave to nicotine for 34 f"ing years. So the journey to recovery will be exactly that, a journey. Not a short trip, not a quick fix, not a I don't need anyone. It's a journey, it takes planning, tools, other people and a daily commitment. ...

Wow Hutch. You've certainly figured a lot out in 34 days. That's good stuff, HOF Speech material right there. Keep it up, I'll mark it on my calendar so I can look for that speech when you hit that milestone.

Dude... Your killing it.
It won't live without oxygen.
Don't give it a breath of your day.
In time... ODAAT
You will realizing your freedom.
Truth never fails.
Hate it....... And Help others.
I quit with you.
Rawls 1367

[Athan]

...I have to remind myself what I felt like the first week. I felt like complete crap, so i have no need to feel like that again. I am reminded daily that I am an addict and that i was a slave to nicotine for 34 f"ing years. So the journey to recovery will be exactly that, a journey. Not a short trip, not a quick fix, not a I don't need anyone. It's a journey, it takes planning, tools, other people and a daily commitment. ...

Wow Hutch. You've certainly figured a lot out in 34 days. That's good stuff, HOF Speech material right there. Keep it up, I'll mark it on my calendar so I can look for that speech when you hit that milestone.

[Hutch18]

Let me introduce myself, I am Hutch18, not because I am 18 but because it is 2018 and I am not a creative person. So Hutch 18 it is! I am an Addict!
I have no idea how I found this website, but I am 100% glad I did.

I quit July 7th, 2018. Went to the chat room and texted with a few guys. Received encouragement, laughed at myself for being stupid and then Cap70 asked me if I went cold turkey, I said no. I was going to use the Nicotine replacement gum for a month. WTF quit Nicotine just to use Nicotine. That make no sense, but I am an addict, so it made sense to me at the time. Then Cap or someone else in the chat room called me a pussy for using the gum and that I hadn't quit at all, just changed the deliver system. At the time I was like dam you now I feel convicted. So 3 days later I quit cold turkey on July 10th, 2018. So whoever said that thanks. Otherwise I would still be "quitting" using Nicotine gum. Why? Because my employer will send it to me for free, to help me stop using smokeless tobacco.

There is nothing magical about this site. But it helps people like me to read, talk or text people who are going or have gone through the "suck". I used to think i was the only 47 year old man, who dipped for 34 years. I was the only ninja dipper who would pass up just about anything to get 1 more dip in. Or who would wake up and put a fatty in and skip breakfast and lunch, cause I just bought this can and it was almost gone. I was the only person who "reused" a dip for later replacement. Why? Because this crap is expensive and i like to recycle. BS! The real reason is because I am an addict and nicotine WAS my drug of choice.

As of right now it's day 29 and i feel like crap, but i will not CAVE. But if I do get that craving I will call, text or jump on the chat!

Hutch18 -

Day 32 - I read about dip dream on the "what to expect" page. But never had one until last night. Let me tell you something, that shit is real! I actually thought I caved. I couldn't smell it or taste it, but I could see myself with a few buddies dipping around a campsite. I thought crap now i have to tell the guys on KTC and they are going to rip me. Thankfully I woke up from the nightmare and it wasn't true. I told my wife and then I texted a few guys on this site.

I thank God everyday for giving me the strength to quit. I am also thankful for this site and the great men i have encountered. I realize it's only day 32 and this fight is just started, but it gives me strength knowing that I do not QUIT alone.

I pray each of you have a wonderful Sunday and Rock this QUIT.

Day 36 - Never thought I would make it this far. Must admit without this group and the guys here for encouraging words or a swift kick in the butt I would have caved on Day 2. I am not feeling great like some are but I am also dealing with anxiety and other health concerns, that dipping didn't help and dipping isn't the cure either.

I have to remind myself what I felt like the first week. I felt like complete crap, so i have no need to feel like that again. I am reminded daily that I am an addict and that i was a slave to nicotine for 34 f"ing years. So the journey to recovery will be exactly that, a journey. Not a short trip, not a quick fix, not a I don't need anyone. It's a journey, it takes planning, tools, other people and a daily commitment. This is a life long journey, not a hey I quit for 100 days now let's celebrate with a cold beer and a dip of Skoal (just one, what can it hurt). This is the journey of a lifetime and I am thankful that I can experience it with many of you and my October Quit Brothers.

Rock the Quit!
Hutch18

[Hutch18]

Let me introduce myself, I am Hutch18, not because I am 18 but because it is 2018 and I am not a creative person. So Hutch 18 it is! I am an Addict!
I have no idea how I found this website, but I am 100% glad I did.

I quit July 7th, 2018. Went to the chat room and texted with a few guys. Received encouragement, laughed at myself for being stupid and then Cap70 asked me if I went cold turkey, I said no. I was going to use the Nicotine replacement gum for a month. WTF quit Nicotine just to use Nicotine. That make no sense, but I am an addict, so it made sense to me at the time. Then Cap or someone else in the chat room called me a pussy for using the gum and that I hadn't quit at all, just changed the deliver system. At the time I was like dam you now I feel convicted. So 3 days later I quit cold turkey on July 10th, 2018. So whoever said that thanks. Otherwise I would still be "quitting" using Nicotine gum. Why? Because my employer will send it to me for free, to help me stop using smokeless tobacco.

There is nothing magical about this site. But it helps people like me to read, talk or text people who are going or have gone through the "suck". I used to think i was the only 47 year old man, who dipped for 34 years. I was the only ninja dipper who would pass up just about anything to get 1 more dip in. Or who would wake up and put a fatty in and skip breakfast and lunch, cause I just bought this can and it was almost gone. I was the only person who "reused" a dip for later replacement. Why? Because this crap is expensive and i like to recycle. BS! The real reason is because I am an addict and nicotine WAS my drug of choice.

As of right now it's day 29 and i feel like crap, but i will not CAVE. But if I do get that craving I will call, text or jump on the chat!

Hutch18 -

Day 32 - I read about dip dream on the "what to expect" page. But never had one until last night. Let me tell you something, that shit is real! I actually thought I caved. I couldn't smell it or taste it, but I could see myself with a few buddies dipping around a campsite. I thought crap now i have to tell the guys on KTC and they are going to rip me. Thankfully I woke up from the nightmare and it wasn't true. I told my wife and then I texted a few guys on this site.

I thank God everyday for giving me the strength to quit. I am also thankful for this site and the great men i have encountered. I realize it's only day 32 and this fight is just started, but it gives me strength knowing that I do not QUIT alone.

I pray each of you have a wonderful Sunday and Rock this QUIT.

[Rawls]

All kinda truth in here......
It will set you Free.
I quit with you today Hutch.
Rawls 1361

[adam91]

good stuff....nicotine is one hell of a drug to quit. hope to quit with you starting tomorrow

[copequits]

Hutch,

That was a spot on representation of the road weÂ’ve been down. Digits are in your inbox, call or text anytime. Quit on!

[Capital70]

Holy balls that is the best shit I have ever read! Today is almost over, but tomorrow I am quitting with you and I am honored to do so! Keep up the great work and text anytime!!!

[Hutch18]

Let me introduce myself, I am Hutch18, not because I am 18 but because it is 2018 and I am not a creative person. So Hutch 18 it is! I am an Addict!
I have no idea how I found this website, but I am 100% glad I did.

I quit July 7th, 2018. Went to the chat room and texted with a few guys. Received encouragement, laughed at myself for being stupid and then Cap70 asked me if I went cold turkey, I said no. I was going to use the Nicotine replacement gum for a month. WTF quit Nicotine just to use Nicotine. That make no sense, but I am an addict, so it made sense to me at the time. Then Cap or someone else in the chat room called me a pussy for using the gum and that I hadn't quit at all, just changed the deliver system. At the time I was like dam you now I feel convicted. So 3 days later I quit cold turkey on July 10th, 2018. So whoever said that thanks. Otherwise I would still be "quitting" using Nicotine gum. Why? Because my employer will send it to me for free, to help me stop using smokeless tobacco.

There is nothing magical about this site. But it helps people like me to read, talk or text people who are going or have gone through the "suck". I used to think i was the only 47 year old man, who dipped for 34 years. I was the only ninja dipper who would pass up just about anything to get 1 more dip in. Or who would wake up and put a fatty in and skip breakfast and lunch, cause I just bought this can and it was almost gone. I was the only person who "reused" a dip for later replacement. Why? Because this crap is expensive and i like to recycle. BS! The real reason is because I am an addict and nicotine WAS my drug of choice.

As of right now it's day 29 and i feel like crap, but i will not CAVE. But if I do get that craving I will call, text or jump on the chat!

Hutch18 -

[Croakenhagen]

Hutch, you are a BAQ! Great post, brother!

[Aumegrad]

You, my friend, are a rock!  You accurately summed up a lot of my feelings below.  We know this post HOF junk will pass, just gotta stay focused and humble.  Thank you for posting this, it definitely strengthened my quit today.  Here’s to the Rawktober group, we fight this nic B as one!

Come to think of it, we should probably threaten a night in Cleveland’s Neon for any potential cavers 🤔 #quitmotivation

[Hutch18]

Day 116 in the books. I have not written my HOF yet, not sure I am ready yet. The October group is full of a bunch of BAQ and a some really good dudes/people. I honestly would not have made it this far without them. As I update this, it's odd, I am going through a big ass crave. I don't want it, i know i don't need it, but for some strange reason i miss it. I think it's the nic bitch trying to lure me back. It would be very easy to do it. But I don't want it, i know i don't need it.

The strangest part of my quit is the fact i feel worse mentally and physically since I quit. I have yet to "feel" better. Either I was really screwed up before and the chew masked it or my chewing jacked me up and it's going to take more time to "feel" normal. Some days are better than others, but the fog doesn't seem to ever be to far away. The tingling comes and goes and the Acid reflux feels like my chest is on fire.

A gentlemen in my Friday morning Bible study said something that struck me this morning and that i need to remember everyday. "Jesus already won, He already has healed my body. I just have to remember it and believe it." I will be honest it's hard to remember and the prideful part of me doesn't want to. But it is true. I will not feel like this forever, this is just a passing moment in time. So for this short time, I will not let the Nicotine rule my life and my actions. I will not allow her to have an influence. Would it be easier, probably. But what would I have to sacrifice? One thing for sure would be my integrity. I promised to quit and DAM it, I am. Everyday, ODAAT

[Broccoli-saurus]

Love your attitude bro, and it was great meeting you a couple months ago.  You're a hell of a quitter and an inspiration to many.  Keep it up!  IQWYT!