Hello Everyone,
Today is my third day of my quit. I have been dipping skoal at 1-2 cans a day for about 15 years. I recently went to an ear nose and throat doctor because I have had problems swallowing and have been feeling like there is something in my throat. It turns out that there is a suspicious lesion on the way back of my tongue, and they are going to biopsy it. The doctor told me that I need to quit. I am praying that it is not cancer.
I have a little baby girl and a wife who are dependent upon me and I can't stand the thought of leaving them. I have known about this website for a while, and always knew that I was going to need to be a part of it. This site is a godsend and a miracle. I have read many of the stories on this website and have been brought to tears. The feelings of guilt and shame that I have and am feeling are very real and continuing to dip is not an option.
I have about 15 cans of fake chew, hooch, smokey mountain, been jerky chew, holt chew, sunflower seeds, and I am using nicotine gum just to stay somewhat sane. I know that chewing is not an option. I wanted to introduce myself, and hopefully get some phone numbers to call because I am going a little crazy. If you would not mind me calling you please post your number because I would love to talk to someone who has been through/is going through this shit storm.
Thank you all for your time
I truly feel grateful to be a part of the community.
Tim