Finally thew in the towel...but it might be too late

[kubiackalpha]

Fear has never been a reason for quitting. Motivator? Yes. But, never a reason. Think about it. You go to the doc and the doc says that it is fine. You feel at ease. Your addicted brain start to tell you 'See, it is okay. you won't get it. you are just fine' . Yes, that is how it works. Your addiction is so very cunning. Once the fear leaves, especially beings fear is a temporary feeling, you are left with your life returning to its normal.

This quit has to be all about you. Your family is just a receiver of your good choices. It is about a daily decision and promise to yourself and others to not use that day. Sometimes this decision is minute by minute. Posting roll is so very important. Use this as your journal on your journey in quit.


Drink lots of water and fruit juice and hang on.

[Rawls]

Not many addicts quit out of fear.
Fear is just a temporary emotion.
It's like a caboose on a train.
The Engine is the TRUTH!
And it doesnt give a crap how your feeling.
Or doesnt care where the caboose wishes it could go.
The truth is.... You don't need it.
It's medically, emotionally, never done one thing good for anybody.
It is a lie.
And it is leading you around on a chain like a little 29 year old puppy.
What decision are you going to make for yourself?
Your boys.....
How are they going to see you?
Engine or Caboose
Man of his word or Pup?
Truth sets us free brother.
It stings to the bone.
Just like cancer.
Post roll.
You can do it.
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 521
You family is counting on you to take care of yourself........Lets go to work.

[Thumblewort]

You sound like my brother in-law who "is not an addict" because he doesn't use as much as I did. You are an addict, and the only way to quit is too never use again. The system in place here works - post roll daily, read as much as you can, and be free of the shit that IS killing you. Don;t go back to the shit if your dentist clears you, we have all had sores and bumps and gum loss - the bottom line is that you risk not seeing your kids grow up if you keep using.

My fear wasn't that, it was that one day one of my boys would walk by me with a dip in............think of that.

Post roll man.

[RDB]

It might be a cancerous, it might not be.

I went to see my dentist early in my quit. I had a small white spot where I had held my dip. I hadn't even noticed it. It was pretty light, and pretty small. My dentist called it leukoplakia.

He didn't seem too alarmed, so I didn't get too alarmed, but I did schedule a follow-up visit. I can't remember if it was one week later or two weeks later. He took a pic of the spot so he could make a comparison. If the spot grew, and was thicker, it may have been precancerous.

The day of my follow up, I looked for the spot, and couldn't find it. I almost skipped the appointment, but I ended up deciding they he was the medical professional, and I wanted to put my mind completely at ease.

The spot was almost completely gone, only a very faint shadow remained. What I did find out from that experience is that my gums are permanently receded where I held my dip. They are gone, and will never grow back.

My advice is for you to see your dentist as soon as you can get in.

Stay active here at KTC. Post roll every day. Stay quit.

If you find out that your spot is harmless like mine was, don't use that as an excuse to go back to the can. People do get cancer and lose their tongues and jaws and die from it.

It's nasty, disgusting, and you stay a slave to the can.

I am free. Every or here at KTC is free. Be free with us.

[BDavis]

My name is Jacob, i'm 29, been dipping for 10 years, and today i finally finished off my last can....

I've been putting this day off for a while now. My wife and I just had twin boys a few months ago. I promised her that I would quit when they were born...of course that didn't exactly happen. I only dip once a day, maybe twice a week i'll do two a day...but i'll use about a 1/4 of the can each time. Long story short, this past Thursday I noticed a white thin film on my gum and it was pretty sore. Immediately went to google, and of course everything that I find is awful. I kept monitoring it, and by the end of the day was able to accidentally scrape it away with my finger. However, my gum has still been somewhat sore ever since. And today I've noticed another white spot. It's not a canker sore or anything like that, and it's not thick or solid. Just wondering if anyone else had experienced this type of irritation while dipping. I went at it pretty hard one day last week because i was working so much, so I don't know if that caused it or if it had been brewing for a while.

So with that being said...I'm done. I'm terrified now that I'm going to get cancer and not be able to see my boys grow up. That thought alone, is enough to make me stop immediately. Any honest feedback would help, if it doesn't clear uo in another week i'm definitely going to my dentist.

Thanks in advance for the support, this place is just what I need. - Jacob