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Offline Radman

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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #11 on: August 15, 2012, 08:21:00 AM »
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Day 2, last night sucked ass. Ran some errands, wanted a chew. Grilled dinner, wanted a chew. Ate dinner, wanted a chew. Went for a long walk after dinner, gone an hour, thought about having a chew no less than 100 times. Slept like shit, mouth sores starting, did I say this sucks ass? Why would anyone put themselves through this mess.

I do realize this is an addiction for sure, she's a real bitch.

Thanks Tom for checking in and the support my brother.
Why? That may have been rhetorical, but I'll answer anyway. Because our life depends on it! Oh, and to keep us from suffering like Curtis and many others have:

ODT's cancer story with pics

He's here on KTC, and he will probably be glad to help clarify for you.

Anyway, I assure you that this will get better. After day 3, the nicotine will be gone. It's all mental from that point onward. Remeber the agony and funk you're suffering now. Document the experience. It will be a strong tool in the future.

Within a couple weeks, your body will begin to really thank you. There are several physical surprises in store for you. I feel the best I've felt in many, many years.
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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #10 on: August 15, 2012, 07:30:00 AM »
Day 2, last night sucked ass. Ran some errands, wanted a chew. Grilled dinner, wanted a chew. Ate dinner, wanted a chew. Went for a long walk after dinner, gone an hour, thought about having a chew no less than 100 times. Slept like shit, mouth sores starting, did I say this sucks ass? Why would anyone put themselves through this mess.

I do realize this is an addiction for sure, she's a real bitch.

Thanks Tom for checking in and the support my brother.
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Quit 8/14/12 and taking my life back one day at a time.

If you don?t control what you have access to, what you have access to will control you.

I?m trying to remind myself daily it?s not the absence of conflict that determines whether or not my relationships are healthy. It?s knowing how to handle the conflicts that will arise.

Character is who we are, not who we pretend to be. It's better to be shaped than to be fake.

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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #9 on: August 15, 2012, 06:16:00 AM »
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Hot Damn Tim!! Alright my friend we are now brothers in Quit. You will do this. You have no other choice because you gave your word today to not use nicotine. Wake up tomorrow and give your word just for that day again. It's not easy but it's simple!!
Make sure you understand this addiction to nicotine is NOT a habit, it's an addiction. You are an addict, plain and simple. Stopping was easy, you quit nothing in the past, just substituted one for the other. The nic bitch may change her hair color from blonde to brunette but she's still got one goal in mind: keep you addicted and slowly kill you.

So, set your mind straight and set your plan to quit all forms one day at a time. There is no margin for error when your life is at stake.
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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #8 on: August 14, 2012, 09:15:00 PM »
Hot Damn Tim!! Alright my friend we are now brothers in Quit. You will do this. You have no other choice because you gave your word today to not use nicotine. Wake up tomorrow and give your word just for that day again. It's not easy but it's simple!!
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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #7 on: August 14, 2012, 01:36:00 PM »
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Thanks Radman for the insight and encouragement. I read your HOF (sounds pretty familiar) and I can see why the not buy one more can goal won't hold water. That will be my biggest struggle, I know that, but that will not be enough by itself to keep me quit. I really want to see that door closed.

Tim - I am done with this addiction!

Tim's brain today - WTF?

I think I need to go jog 100 miles to get my mind off things, it's going 100MPH right now. Need to let the hamster off the wheel.
Now you're talking!! I like that plan. Excercise helps immensely. If you're a jogger/runner, make sure you check out the endurance forum. I dabble a bit, but there are quite a few real diehards on here. Scowick, Hydro, Souliman, Miles and BigBrotherJack immediately pop into my mind cause I've actually met them.
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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #6 on: August 14, 2012, 01:24:00 PM »
Thanks Radman for the insight and encouragement. I read your HOF (sounds pretty familiar) and I can see why the not buy one more can goal won't hold water. That will be my biggest struggle, I know that, but that will not be enough by itself to keep me quit. I really want to see that door closed.

Tim - I am done with this addiction!

Tim's brain today - WTF?

I think I need to go jog 100 miles to get my mind off things, it's going 100MPH right now. Need to let the hamster off the wheel.
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Quit 8/14/12 and taking my life back one day at a time.

If you don?t control what you have access to, what you have access to will control you.

I?m trying to remind myself daily it?s not the absence of conflict that determines whether or not my relationships are healthy. It?s knowing how to handle the conflicts that will arise.

Character is who we are, not who we pretend to be. It's better to be shaped than to be fake.

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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #5 on: August 14, 2012, 01:07:00 PM »
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Flushed the last few packets, now all I have to do is not buy any more.
There's more to it than that. If you convince yourself that is the case, you're setting up for failure. It's hard to explain clearly, but trust me on that.

Tim says: "Don't buy any more."
Brain hears: "Don't buy any more."
Addiction translates: "It's ok as long I don't BUY any more."

The first time you happen by a free sample, or some loser at a party, or watever, your brain will only remember the translation. "It's ok. You're not BUYing it.". There your have a failure and you're right back where you are now.

We have to close that door.
Tim: "I am done with this addiction." Then post roll.
Brain hears: "I am done with this addiction."
Actions and accountability speak louder than words. There is no room for translation.

I know I'm rambling, but we have to really close the door to beat this thing.
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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #4 on: August 14, 2012, 12:56:00 PM »
Thanks JJ and vedman

The quitting is easy is kind of a tongue in cheek thing as in I have quit smoking, and substituted with chewing, then substituting chewing with snusing, and then full circle. I've quit dozens of times, the key mistake I keep making is buying the next can. If I never bought it maybe I could have stayed quit. I realize now that is where my biggest struggle will be after the pain of withdrawls. Been there done that and not looking forward to it. I'm such a dumbass for ever picking up the snus to begin with.

It started with late night fishing, just a couple, then at work, home, next thing I know it's 2 years later and I have one in my mouth every waking hour. Well enough is enough and now is MY time to conquer this for good.
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Quit 8/14/12 and taking my life back one day at a time.

If you don?t control what you have access to, what you have access to will control you.

I?m trying to remind myself daily it?s not the absence of conflict that determines whether or not my relationships are healthy. It?s knowing how to handle the conflicts that will arise.

Character is who we are, not who we pretend to be. It's better to be shaped than to be fake.

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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #3 on: August 14, 2012, 12:54:00 PM »
Congrats and hand tough. I am only on day 11 but know I can do it this time. I quit once before to get life insurance. Stayed quit for 5-6 months, then started back up. That was several yrs ago. I know I can do it this time. Not only for me and my family, but my pocket book. Was going thru over a can a day.
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Re: I'm all in
« Reply #2 on: August 14, 2012, 12:30:00 PM »
TSNUS,

I was a little hesitant to respond because you said "quiting is easy for me".

Well your here, so obviously it's not easy for you.

I did however see that you have posted roll.

Good Job on taking your life back. If you haven't already visited the welcome center and read everything you can do so and then read some more.

I'm sure Tom probably gave you a run down, but it will be good for you to read it all yourself.

Post roll daily and hold yourself accountable. Continue to post, get to know some people and exchange some numbers. Use the vets and rely on them to get you through the tough times.

Everyone here has gone through or is going through the same thing as you, and as long as your willing to put in the work and keep your daily commitment, you will have the support of an army behind you.

Take it one day at a time, and I promise you will be happy with the results.

I hope to see you post roll again tomorrow. PM me if there is anything I can do to help.

Proud to quit with you today
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I'm all in
« on: August 14, 2012, 11:31:00 AM »
My name is Tim, quitting is easy for me, I've quit dozens of times.

Smoked on and off for about 10 years, and then got into the smokeless phase for about 10 years, nasty habit, chew cups left around the shop and house not only pissed off my wife, but really was nasty especially when knocked over and having to clean them up. Kodiak and Grizzly were my thang. Quit both of those, then experimented with snus spit-less products on the rebound. Now I'm hooked on Camel SNUS frost for the last 2 years and finally decided to break free for my own well being, and for my wife and kids that despise this addiction.

A friend of mine used this site to beat his habit and sent me. Thanks Tom!

So I put down the can, slowly walking away. Flushed the last few packets, now all I have to do is not buy any more. Luckily none of my friends chew anymore so I need to not buy. I need to not buy, I need to not buy any more. I can do this, it's gonna be hard, but I can do this.

Day 1, 1hour in, time to leave this habit for good. I'm not going to look back, I'm not going to buy another pack.

God help us all.
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Quit 8/14/12 and taking my life back one day at a time.

If you don?t control what you have access to, what you have access to will control you.

I?m trying to remind myself daily it?s not the absence of conflict that determines whether or not my relationships are healthy. It?s knowing how to handle the conflicts that will arise.

Character is who we are, not who we pretend to be. It's better to be shaped than to be fake.
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